She always knew she wasn't popular, but she really didn't understand why.
Isn't she their child?
Wasn't she the child everyone was looking forward to?
Did she become the unwanted child because she didn't become the child they expected?
Why?
Why?
What did she do wrong?
Isn't she good enough? Isn't she obedient enough? Isn't she well-behaved enough?
"I also want to be the kind of person you want me to be, but what can I do? This is who I am, and I just want to live a good life."
I don't want to be beaten every day, and I don't want to go hungry or cold.
I don't want to eat other people's leftovers or wear other people's hand-me-downs.
I also want to be able to read as soon as I get home; I want to study hard.
I just... want to live a better life, is that not allowed?
Aren't you my father? Why can you love other people's children but not mine?
Aren't you my brother? Why can't you show me even a little bit of understanding?
After saying all this, Bai Wei felt a little regretful. Why couldn't she have held back? What if they really sent her back?
Do they still have to face their adoptive mother's scolding every day and endure their adoptive father's beatings when he's drunk?
She never felt any warmth in that house; if she had felt even a little, she wouldn't be like this now.
She even hated and resented it!
When she was little, she didn't understand why her brother could eat braised pork while she could only eat leftovers.
Her brother could play after school, but she had to do chores, cook, and help wash dishes at other people's restaurants.
When she gets home, she has to do laundry and mop the floor. After she finishes these tasks, she has to turn off the lights before she can do her homework, because leaving the lights on wastes electricity.
Her adoptive father would beat her every time he came back, calling her a worthless burden and saying that he could take her out to earn money once she went to junior high school.
She really felt she couldn't take it anymore.
“That’s not how it is.” Bai Sha frowned and looked at Bai Wei.
He had never really looked at this younger sister before, and his first impression of Bai Wei was not good.
Back then, his younger sister was very upset because she was bullied by her, and when he went there, Bai Wei even argued with him fiercely. But after returning, she pretended to be very sensible. He felt that Bai Wei was two-faced. "I just think you're very good at pretending. Back then, you could still argue with me, but now you've become a pitiful little thing being bullied by us."
Bai Wei subconsciously looked at Mo Yan, afraid that even her grandmother, the only person who gave her warmth, would misunderstand her. "Grandma, I..."
Mo Yan smiled and patted her head. "Don't be afraid. Just say what you want to say. Grandma is right here. Just say what you think without any hesitation."
Bai Wei suddenly found courage. Yes, even if he didn't say anything, they wouldn't really understand him, so he might as well say it all.
“When I argued with you before, it was because it wasn’t my fault. Since it wasn’t my fault, I naturally had to argue my point. But the reason behind it was that I wanted you to see my good qualities.”
To be honest, I want to please you guys. I envy people who have older brothers who love them, and I want to have that feeling too.
I also want to be loved. Even if I don't, I hope you can see my good points, even the smallest ones.
I tried my best, but I found that no matter how hard I tried, it was useless. You are all family, and I am an outsider.
But I still don't want to leave, because here you won't hit me even if you hate me.
See, my needs are that simple. No more beatings, I can go to school, that's all.
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