Rong promised to write the secret letter quickly and had it sent out of the palace.
She has become a completely different person at this moment. Does she hate Shen Xiaohan?
She hated him, but also loved him. Love and hate intertwined, making up her complex emotions.
So, she hesitated for a while and wrote in the letter: "Please, brother, don't hurt his life."
Her face looked even more terrifying against the backdrop of the candlelight.
She has taken a lot of medicine these days, but the wound has only barely healed. Every night, new flesh grows out, and the pain is so excruciating.
In the past, she was extremely beautiful in the capital and was considered one of the most beautiful women in the Canglang Kingdom.
Now that he has such an ugly appearance, his heart is naturally distorted.
"Zhao Hai, tell me, am I beautiful?"
"Your Highness was once the most beautiful woman, so naturally she is beautiful."
Rong agreed, but she wasn't satisfied with the answer. She threw the vase and porcelain on the table to the ground and said hysterically, "What do you mean she was the most beautiful woman in the past? You said it was in the past, but what about now? I'm asking you, what about now?"
Zhao Hai just remained silent and did not reply.
Rong agreed and started crying while laughing: "You are my most loyal dog, but now even you despise me."
"This servant does not mean to dislike Your Majesty, but I believe you are the one who knows best what Your Majesty looks like right now. In that case, why complain to yourself?"
He was still so respectful, slightly bowing his body, and was her most loyal servant.
"Zhao Hai, my face is ruined and my future is half ruined. How can I feel at ease when you call me?" She touched her face and looked into the distance with empty eyes.
"If you take care of your face, it will get better sooner or later. But if you lose your fighting spirit, your life will be over. What do you think, Madam?"
Rong Da Ying just held the armrest of the chair tightly, pursed his lips, and said nothing.
"Your Majesty, there are so many palace maids with disfigured faces in the palace. Why not just use them to test the medicine? That way you don't have to worry about hurting your own face."
Rong agreed to listen to these words, and it would be a lie to say that he was not moved.
She quickly made the decision: "Zhao Hai, I trust you the most. You must complete this matter for me. After you succeed, I will reward you handsomely."
"I will definitely fulfill your mission, Madam. If you are angry, please vent it. Don't let it harm your health. Take good care of yourself and get pregnant with a dragon heir as soon as possible. This is more important than anything else."
"Yes, you are right. It is true that the vixen is pregnant with the dragon heir, but this also means that she can no longer serve the emperor. This is very good. I will definitely firmly grasp the heart of Your Majesty and trample that bitch under my feet."
"I believe that Your Majesty will be able to do this perfectly."
Rong Da Ying raised a smug smile on his face, and the ambition in his eyes was not concealed at all.
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Shen Xiaohan went to bed early today for the first time in his life. Today was the seventh day of the Lunar New Year, and logically speaking, he would become a different person.
But this time, he didn't. He continued to control his body and tried hard to think about those demons in his heart from the past.
But he was surprised to find that he no longer felt as guilty or sad.
He looked at his rough, calloused hands, and a tear fell without warning.
He didn't know whether he had overcome his inner demons or his mother and brother had finally forgiven him.
He was stunned and stood there for a long time.
Walking to the window and looking at the bright moon outside, his mother's smiling face suddenly appeared in his mind, as well as Shen Xiaoli, smiling and calling him brother.
"Mother, A-Li, have you forgiven me?"
He stood there with his head down like a helpless child.
Then, he spoke in a low voice.
"Mother, I am the emperor now. Under my rule, my people will have enough to eat, and every household will be able to wear new clothes during the New Year."
"There are no beggars freezing to death on the streets. I have established the Ci'an Hall and taken in many innocent women and children."
"Every time I see them, I think of you in the past. You were like that too, holding me tightly in your arms when I was being criticized."
"Mother, I always thought you hated me, but you also loved me so much. I know you are a soft-hearted person. If I apologize to you, you will definitely forgive me."
"But mother, I am a coward. I am brave and good at fighting, but I have few family ties. I killed my only two relatives one after another. I ran away. I can't believe that in the past, I would use alcohol to numb myself."
"Mother, I'm a timid person. I don't know why, but every time you appear in my dreams, I feel both happy and scared. I'm happy because I can finally see you."
"But I don't know if you hate me or not. Maybe when you see me now, there's only hatred in your heart, not love."
"But mother, I still miss you very much. Even in my dreams, you are cold to me and your expression towards me is full of hatred. But I still want to see you, mother."
"I once thought that if I sat on the throne, I would definitely make you the Queen Mother and have a dozen concubines to serve you, but I don't have that opportunity anymore."
"But mother, I have lived up to your expectations. They all praised me as a wise ruler, a true wise ruler."
As he spoke, a smile appeared on his face: "Mother, I have a child. He is the child of me and my sweetheart."
"Mother, do you know? I thought I would never have my own children in my lifetime. I thought you were punishing me.
"But, but now I have it." He became a little incoherent: "But, but now I have it, Mother, are you blessing me?"
"I know I've always been sorry for Ali. He's much younger than me. In fact, I've always treated him as my real brother."
"He is very kind. If he were a king, he would surely achieve great things."
"I destroyed him, but I was also trapped by my inner demons for eight years. I imagined that Ali was still alive, so every seven days, Ali would occupy my body and become another person."
"He is evil, selfish, arrogant, mean, and disrespectful to his elders."
"But I just realized that it wasn't Ali, it was me, mother. Ali... he is a gentleman." He covered his face with his hands, his voice choked, tears seeping out from between his fingers.
"That rebellious Ali is actually me, a part of me that I never reveal to others. For so many years, I've been deceiving myself."
He sobbed, and the next moment, he rushed into the inner hall, hid in the closet and locked himself in.
He cried loudly in the small, enclosed space, as if he wanted to cry out all the grievances he had suffered over the years.
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