It's not that she hadn't thought about getting rid of the child, but murdering the royal heir was a serious crime. She had already lost her biological parents and couldn't bring her aunt's family into the situation.
She was left behind like that, and she thought, maybe this was her fate, maybe she was destined to be tied to that man, maybe she and Marquis Wu'an were just not meant to be together.
As she watched her belly grow bigger day by day, she gradually calmed down and thought that maybe being with Emperor Xuan An was not a bad thing. At least, he really liked her.
Eyes can't lie. Every time he looks at her, the love in his eyes cannot be faked.
However, her cousin said that Emperor Xuan'an plotted for her to marry him, and that her parents died because of Emperor Xuan'an's father. How could she not hate him?
She watched her cousin grow up. Since childhood, as long as she had a share, her cousin would definitely have a share too, so there was no reason for her cousin to lie to her.
When she found out, she felt like a joke. Not only did she marry the son of her father's murderer, but she was also pregnant with his child.
In this way, under her cousin's lobbying day after day, her mind was gradually invaded by hatred.
After ten months of pregnancy, she gave birth to Chi Yu.
When he was born, he was a small and soft ball, crying to her with his sweet voice, which made her feel pity, because he was also her child.
However, when she thought of the death of her parents, she could not like the child at all. Not only did she not like him, she even had the vicious idea of strangling him to death.
She originally thought that it would be fine to ignore him, because even a tiger doesn't eat its own cubs. She really couldn't bring herself to harm her own child.
But perhaps because of his natural love for his mother, the child always loved to cling to her and called her "Queen Mother" in a soft voice.
He is well-behaved, like a little glutinous rice dumpling, and anyone who sees him will like him a little more.
Moreover, he was gifted and showed his talent when he was a few years old.
She wondered why the grudges of the previous generation were involved in a child. This child had half of the Chen family's blood and could be considered a descendant of the Chen family.
What's more, the child's eyes look very much like hers, and her appearance looks very much like her father, so every time she sees the child's face, she can't help but feel a little soft-hearted.
Although she didn't show it too obviously, she was soon noticed.
Marquis Wu'an quickly sent someone to deliver a secret letter to her, expressing his love for her, saying that she was the first to betray his love, and that she was the biological father of the child and had caused her family to be destroyed.
Why would she like her enemy's child? She might as well just strangle him to death.
Every word between the lines was a question to her, accusing her of being too soft-hearted. She didn't know how to defend herself.
Yes, she really couldn't bear it. This was a piece of flesh that fell from her body, and she would instinctively love him.
She wrote a letter back to Wu'an Hou, saying that although she hated him, she still could not do anything to her own child.
Marquis Wu'an finally compromised and asked her to do two things. If she did those two things, he would forgive her and would not care about her past.
She agreed without thinking. The first thing she did was to let an ugly, vulgar old palace maid sleep in the same bed with her child when the child was twelve years old.
Moreover, it would be best if he were to be left with a shadow that would last forever.
She hesitated, but under the relentless pressure from Marquis Wu'an, she finally agreed. At worst, she could just go and rescue him earlier and save him from the evil hands.
But she didn't expect that when she wanted to rescue him, she was stopped by someone. She couldn't reveal her true motives, so she could only tell the lady, "I want to go find my son."
But the lady said that there was no need to rush. Young men were playful and belligerent. Maybe he just went out to play. After all, he did not leave the palace.
She was stopped just like that.
In fact, she knew that it was the work of Marquis Wu'an. He would not allow the plan to go wrong in the slightest. He wanted to destroy Chi Yu.
It will make him unable to fall in love with another woman for the rest of his life, and he will be overshadowed by women for the rest of his life.
Marquis Wu'an knew how much Emperor Xuan'an loved Chen Zhaoyi, and he might only have Chi Yu as a child in this life.
But the Queen Mother had no idea of the twists and turns in the story. She only knew that from that day on, the child rarely called her anymore. His eyes, which used to be filled with admiration for her, were now filled with disappointment.
She knew she was wrong, but she couldn't bring herself to apologize. She thought that this was the only wrong thing she had done in all these years.
She thought she was good enough to the child. Although she lacked some emotional support, she had not wronged him in any way in terms of material things.
But from that day on, the child gradually became distant from her. She knew that the child hated her, but she was proud to begin with, so how could she bear such humiliation?
The mother and son were angry with each other, and the distance between them became farther and farther.
To be precise, it was she who pushed the child further and further away with her own hands.
When she finished that thing, she asked Wu'an Hou what the second thing was, but Wu'an Hou said that the second thing would be left for later.
But she didn't expect that the second thing was to kill the child's beloved.
But at the beginning, she didn't feel anything was wrong.
I just feel that Chi Yu is too much like his father. They are both heartless and cold-hearted. How could they truly fall in love with someone?
Moreover, he was left with a trauma and may never like women again in his life.
But, he really has someone he truly likes, and he loves her as if her life.
At first she didn't quite understand how someone could plunge headfirst into love after going through so much hardship.
But later, she came into contact with that lively and vivid woman, and understood why Chi Yu liked her, because she also fell in love with her.
She was a very good woman, so good that she couldn't bear to do it.
So she went to beg the Marquis of Wu'an to spare Tang Wan's life and not to kill her.
This was the first time in all these years that she begged him. She had felt guilty before, so she had never taken the initiative to beg him. That was not only the first time, but also the only time.
But he had clearly agreed, but now he went back on his word and killed the pregnant Tang Wan with a sword.
He didn't leave her any way out, forcing her to live under his control. He also broke his promise, which he had clearly said that he would never force her.
She greatly underestimated the ruthlessness of Marquis Wu'an.
After so much time, he is no longer the innocent young man he used to be. Over the years, his hands are stained with countless blood.
So why would he care about a woman's life or death?
Her heart was filled with deep guilt.
She just wanted her to leave and didn't want her life because she heard that Tang Wan was also unwilling to marry Chi Yu.
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