Ji Shugui spoke calmly, recounting the past events that he did not want to mention:
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Mo Lu, Gu Mulin and I grew up together and have a very good relationship.
Mo Lu is your mother, and Gu Mulin is your father.
Molu was the daughter of our nanny. She has been playing with me since we were young, so she is also my best friend.
And because the Ji family and the Gu family were on good terms and had an engagement planned for the two families, Gu Mulin would often come to play with us, and over time the relationship between the three of us became very good.
But because I am the youngest, Gu Mulin is one year older than me, and Mo Lu is two years older than Gu Mulin.
So in this friendship, Molu always plays the role of sister and caregiver.
She was the one who took care of me whenever I was sick as a child, danced with me, and helped me with my studies. She alone covered my entire teenage and adolescence.
However, the love of youth was so turbulent and passionate that it easily destroyed the friendship between the three people.
This year I was 18 years old and attended my coming-of-age ceremony after graduating from high school.
Mo Lu and Gu Mulin even took a leave of absence from university to come and celebrate with me.
Molu was already 21 years old at this time. She was already preparing for the busiest period of internship. But she still came. There was always such a moment when I always felt that she was different to me.
Gu Mulin was 19 years old that year and happened to be admitted to the university where Mo Lu was studying.
That day I wore a red evening gown, danced gracefully in the venue, and performed the last show.
When the show ended, Gu Mulin walked slowly toward the stage with a bouquet of bright red roses under the gaze of everyone.
Gu Mulin had an upright posture, and his jade-like appearance quickly aroused cheers from many students in the audience.
Gu Mulin knelt on one knee and slowly said a few words that broke the friendship that had lasted for more than ten years.
He said: "Ji Shugui, are you willing to be my girlfriend? I will treat you very well and treat you well for the rest of my life."
At this moment, I could no longer see Gu Mulin under the spotlight, but was looking for that familiar figure in the noisy crowd.
Seeing Mo Lu fleeing the auditorium, I no longer cared about anything else. I stretched out my hand and pushed away the crowd on the side, leaving only a brief "I'm sorry."
I rushed out of the auditorium and kept asking classmates passing by, and finally found her in the grove behind the teaching building.
I spoke first, and the first words I said were, "Sister, I'm sorry."
She was pounding a tree nearby like crazy. This was the first time in all the years I had known her that she had lost her composure.
She didn't stop until the back of her hand was bleeding.
"Ji Shugui, please let me go? Why can I never be better than you as long as you are here?"
"I'm obviously the best at dancing, but everyone is saying, let me learn it so I can teach you, and you can win a prize."
"But I like dancing too."
"My grades are obviously better, but I spend all my spare time tutoring you. Just because I have excellent grades, I don't have any space of my own."
"Gu Mulin and I have been alone together for a year. Before he left today, he told me that he wanted to confess his love to someone and asked if the other person would agree to him..."
"I thought that person was me... Look at me, look at me, do I look like a joke?"
Her accusations were like countless knives, stabbing into my heart. At that moment, I finally understood that the feelings of so many years were so ridiculous in her eyes.
I asked that question with all my strength.
I asked her, "Do you want to marry Gu Mulin?"
Seeing her nod completely extinguished the last glimmer of hope in my heart.
Later, I rejected Gu Mulin, and then she married Gu Mulin as she wished, and I completely faded out of their world.
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After listening to Ji Shugui's words, Gu Shushu raised her head and asked seriously: "So mom likes Aunt Gu, not Uncle Gu."
Ji Shugui nodded, and couldn't help but say with a hint of bitterness in his tone: "Even you can see it, but she has always treated me as a love rival."
Ji Shugui felt sad. Even a child could see it, but she had turned a blind eye to it for so many years. She only had one wish, that her heart and eyes were filled with others.
Gu Shushu gently hugged Ji Shugui and asked carefully, "Did mom adopt me because I look like Aunt Gu?"
Ji Shugui nodded, and then quickly explained: "But later, mom still loved you sincerely."
Although Shushu really looked like her at the beginning, with an 80% similar appearance and the same personality of being caring for others.
Gu Shushu secretly wiped her tears. Ji Shugui thought she was wronged again, and quickly comforted her: "I'm sorry! Shushu."
Gu Shushu said distressedly: "What is there to be sorry about? Obviously the person you feel most sorry for is yourself, why should you give up the opportunity to love someone else just because of someone who has never liked you."
The girl's warm words always aroused the deepest tenderness in Ji Shugui's heart. She said nonchalantly: "I have always been there. I hope that one day she can look back at me."
"But later on, I just wanted her to have a happy family with many children and grandchildren. There will always be someone in this world who can give her the happiness she wants on my behalf, but that person won't be me."
"There is nothing to regret. Those words that have never been spoken are not worth regretting at all..."
As Ji Shugui spoke, tears covered his entire face.
Gu Shushu walked out quietly alone. She knew that the best thing at this moment was to give her mother space to be alone. It would be better to speak out some regrets. After all, time will dilute everything.
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