Xu Lingyi seemed to be angered by his words, and tears welled up in her eyes.
"Even though I am already your Majesty's lover, I still like Xie Huaixing, but I don't like you, Your Majesty."
The emperor's heart was in a knot. He had never known that he would feel so upset because of a woman's words.
"Why?" The emperor grasped her slender waist tightly and pressed her against his chest, leaving her no chance to escape.
"I'm in so much pain, Your Majesty, let me go."
The emperor was very strong, and Xu Lingyi felt uncomfortable as he pressed hard on her waist.
The emperor kept a stern face and began to question.
"You also know pain, but do you know how much pain I feel in my heart right now?"
"If you don't like me, then why did you jump into the snake cave and risk your life to save me? Why did you talk to me all night long? You even said you just wanted to go out with me. Xu Lingyi, is it fun to tease me? Is this what you want to see me like now?"
The emperor's voice trembled.
Of course Xu Lingyi refused to admit it.
Tears fell from her eyes. "No, Your Majesty, I saved you because I respect you. We talked all night long because I love the frontier."
"I had no idea that His Majesty would be interested in me. Besides, does His Majesty really like me?"
Xu Lingyi's voice was choked and her eyes were red and swollen.
"What do you mean?" asked the emperor.
This was the first time he liked a woman, but she still doubted his sincerity?
"I know Your Majesty simply feels that you have taken my body, so you want to take responsibility for me. I don't need that. It's just me and Your Majesty here, and no one else knows about what happened between us. If no one knows, then we can just pretend it didn't happen. Your Majesty, don't worry. I don't need you to take responsibility, and I will never leak this matter."
"You think I don't like you?"
The emperor grasped the key point of her words.
Xu Lingyi nodded, and she was about to bring up the past:
"I know that Your Majesty disliked me the first time we met. You looked down on me and thought I was a vulgar woman. I was disrespectful and unfilial to my elders, and my behavior was flawed. Now, just because you have my body, you say you like me. How can I believe it? Do you really like me, or are you just enjoying my vulgar body and wanting more?"
Xu Lingyi knew very well how to anger the emperor. She said this because she still remembered what the emperor had said to her before.
Now it was just karma, and she had to piss him off.
Her words made the emperor's face turn pale, and the last few words made the emperor feel insulted.
He held her shoulders with one hand and pinched her palm-sized face with the other.
"Look me in the eyes. I admit that I did misunderstand you at first. You used to have a terrible reputation in the capital, and I learned that you whipped your elders and younger sister. So, I really didn't like you at first and was prejudiced against you. I admit that this was my fault. I listened to one side and believed it. You can punish me as you please in the future."
The emperor looked at her seriously and began to defend himself.
"But you think I like you because of your body. This is not only looking down on me, but also looking down on yourself. I am a man, and last night was my first time experiencing the taste of men and women. I can't lie and say I don't like it."
"But before this, I had already fallen in love with you. Perhaps it was because you were the only young woman I could get close to, or perhaps it was because we spent every day together and supported each other in this abyss."
"But what really made me fall in love with you was the day you sacrificed your life to save me. I don't care what your reason was for jumping, but you did save me. And at that moment... I fell in love with you."
Xu Lingyi pretended to be shocked and couldn't come back to her senses for a long time.
It was a long time before she spoke.
"But...but I didn't feel your majesty's affection at all. After that day, you became quite distant towards me and often avoided me. I thought I had offended you in some way."
The emperor sighed heavily.
He has completely lowered himself.
After saying those words just now, he realized that it was okay to bow his head in front of her.
It is not difficult to admit that you like someone, and it is nothing to admit your past mistakes.
"I'm just at a loss. You're the first woman I've had long-term contact with, and the first woman I've ever fallen in love with. I like you so much that I don't know what to do."
"I want to be with you, but I'm afraid of delaying your relationship because I was once poisoned by the Medicine King Valley. My master, the Valley's genius doctors, and even the head of the Imperial Hospital in the palace all said that I can't have children."
"If you stay with me, you will never have children of your own in this life. I am afraid that you will despise me, and even more afraid that you will hate me in the future because you don't have children."
This was also the first time in the emperor's life that he felt inferior because of his infertility.
As an emperor, he was used to being second only to the emperor and was always proud.
The poisoning that left him infertile was the only scar in his otherwise smooth life.
He didn't think it was a big deal before, after all, he could adopt a child.
Besides, he didn't want to be the emperor at all, he would rather walk in the world.
Now, in front of the woman he loved, he felt embarrassed and painful.
But now everything is laid out in front of her.
Xu Lingyi pretended to be surprised. She certainly knew that the emperor was infertile.
But it cannot be revealed at this time.
"Your Majesty...are you truly infertile? Besides being unable to have children, does this poison have any other effects on you? Who could be so vicious?"
Xu Lingyi raised her face slightly, with a hint of moisture on it. Xu Lingyi understood that she couldn't not give the emperor a single sweet date.
Being close yet distant is the best way to go.
The emperor's embarrassment and uneasiness about revealing his own scars disappeared completely in her caring words.
The emperor's brows relaxed considerably, and he looked at her with deep eyes.
"Don't worry, there will be no other impact."
"Yier, will you dislike me?"
The emperor looked at her, appearing calm on the surface, but feeling uneasy in his heart.
Xu Lingyi shook her head firmly. She would have to be stupid to say she was disgusted at this time.
"Of course I don't dislike Your Majesty. This is not Your Majesty's fault at all. You were poisoned, and the one who poisoned you was the culprit. Your Majesty, please don't let this make you feel uneasy... You are the Son of Heaven, this is nothing."
She was carefully comforting him.
Is this what love feels like? He was so angry with her just now that he couldn't help but want to die with her.
So as not to be tortured by her.
But now, hearing her concern, he felt extremely happy and sweet in his heart.
"So you care about me, right? You're not indifferent to me, right? It's just because Xie Huaixing is here that you can't see me for the time being."
Xu Lingyi hesitated, "I...I..."
She lowered her head and said nothing.
But the emperor had hope.
If he killed Xie Huaixing quietly, she would be able to forget Xie Huaixing.
A dead person, no matter how good he is, is still dead.
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