"Yier, listen to me..."
Xu Lingyi pushed him away with all her strength.
But her arms were too slender, and he was tall and strong, his whole body was strong and powerful. No matter how she pushed, he didn't move at all.
Seeing her struggling and getting emotional in his arms, Li Jinan could only hold her shoulders.
"Yier!" Li Jinan stared at her without blinking, "Listen to my explanation!"
Her eyes were filled with disappointment, which made him feel heartbroken. He even wanted to turn his face away and avoid her sight.
He knew that she must hate him very much at this moment.
"Okay, you talk and I'm listening." Xu Lingyi smiled sadly, with a layer of mist in her eyes, just waiting for him to explain.
In fact, Li Jinan had been having nightmares like this for several days in a row, and the scenes in his dreams were all about the present moment.
After waking up with a start, he couldn't fall asleep again. Panic enveloped him, and he had to imagine countless words to respond.
But now, for some reason, when he met her clear eyes, all the excuses he could have said were stuck in his throat, making him unable to say anything.
"You feel guilty." Xu Lingyi felt hopeless and her eyes were red.
"Your Highness, do you still remember when you asked me to marry you, you promised me that I would be your only wife."
Xu Lingyi's eyes were filled with deep sorrow. "In fact, I never thought that I would meet a man who treats me wholeheartedly."
Crystal clear tears slid down her face, and each drop seemed to drip into Li Jinan's heart.
"It was you who gave me hope, made me fall for your sweet words and believe them without a doubt, and made me think I was the luckiest and happiest woman in the world."
"Now you have shattered all these hopes with your own hands."
“Don’t make promises you can’t keep.”
As she said these words, she bit her lips hard to prevent herself from crying out loud, and she didn't want to appear too weak.
Li Jinan closed his eyes and didn't dare to look at her again.
He held her in his arms with his big hands, ignoring her struggles and attempts to escape, and just held her tightly, but waves of dense and sharp pain surged in his heart.
"sorry……"
He repeated this sentence, "Yier, I am sorry for you. All of this... is my fault."
"My mother requested this marriage, and now the Queen Mother's decree has come down. The Cui family's daughter will come to Changshan soon, and I have no choice but to marry her. If I disobey the decree, my mother will be punished..."
He knew that saying these were futile and were excuses.
But he still wanted to tell her all this, to let her know his difficulties, and also wanted her to stop hating him so much.
Only then did he realize that he could not bear her hatred.
Xu Lingyi scoffed, tears streaming down her face. "Your Highness, you only said that you had no choice, but are you truly free of any selfish motives?"
She couldn't push him away, and her voice became a little sharper.
"You are a prince after all. If you really don't want to marry, can the Queen Mother kill you? Yes, the Concubine Dowager may be punished, but will the Queen Dowager take her life for this matter?"
Li Jinan couldn't say anything.
"You said you had your reasons, but between me and the Concubine, you chose the Concubine."
She exposed his excuses without mercy.
"You would rather have me demoted to a concubine, embarrassed, and become a laughing stock in Changshan City than protect the Concubine Dowager, even though she once tried to kill me, right? No, perhaps it's not just because of the Concubine Dowager, you also want an heir, right?"
Her voice was bitter and choked, and her face was filled with endless sadness and grief.
Li Jinan's hands were shaking constantly. He wanted to explain, but his throat was so hoarse that he couldn't make any excuses.
They both knew that this was the truth, even if he didn't want to admit it.
"There's no point in saying more, Your Highness... Since you've chosen the Consort Dowager and your future heir, then please release me. I only ask for a letter of divorce."
This is what Li Jinan is most afraid of hearing from her.
He wanted to have children, but he also could not accept losing her.
She is the only woman he holds dear to his heart in all these years since he came to Changshan, and she is also the woman he has liked for more than ten years.
"No way, Yi'er, we absolutely can't get divorced."
Xu Lingyi laughed bitterly: "You don't want to give me the divorce letter, do you really want me to become your concubine?"
Li Jinan lowered his head and didn't dare look at her. "In my heart, you will always be my wife. No one can look down on you."
"Then what do you regard your new bride as? And what do you regard me as? It's not others who look down on me, but you and the Concubine Dowager."
After she finished speaking, she felt nauseous. Xu Lingyi covered her chest and couldn't help vomiting.
Li Jinan stood there in a daze. He wanted to help her, but she pushed him away.
Her reaction made him take a few steps back, his pupils shrinking slightly, his mind went blank for a moment and he just stared at her blankly.
He couldn't believe that she hated him so much.
Did he really make her so sick?
Li Jinan recalled the three years since they got married. They had always been in love and in harmony, and they rarely had any arguments.
Even in the few times they had quarreled, it had never been as intense as today, making it unbearable for him.
"Yier, let's calm down for a few days..."
Li Jinan didn't dare to look into her extremely disappointed eyes again, let alone see how disgusted she was with him.
He fled in panic.
"Li Jinan, let me out."
Looking at his fleeing back, Xu Lingyi shouted at him loudly.
Li Jinan just paused, and finally strode out.
"Li Jinan!!"
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