Did I do something wrong?
Ye Ziqiu has always believed in selfishness. He will hold on to things that are beneficial to him and will ruthlessly discard things that are not beneficial to him.
But when she reached middle age, she found that this was not the case.
You reap what you sow.
Look at the son I raised, he is just as selfish as I was.
He only saw himself being bullied and had no idea that his mother was also enduring inhuman torture.
He is like a replica of himself, only pursuing what is beneficial and ruthlessly discarding what is not beneficial.
How much had she lost? Family, love, friendship, even freedom.
Is it worth it to exchange these for benefits?
She didn't know if it was worth it, she only knew that she had to move forward. Just like she gave up her son, she could only pursue what was right for her.
Even if the end of the road is a dead end, she will make a name for herself.
Without her son as a burden, Ye Ziqiu acted without restraint. She teamed up with her illegitimate son to kill her ex-wife's son, and after her husband died, she chose to support her illegitimate son as the heir.
The illegitimate son still had some conscience and gave Ye Ziqiu some money, then kicked her out of the house without hesitation.
Is it sad or lamentable that a person ends up living alone in old age?
Ye Ziqiu didn't know. She took the money and moved into a nursing home. Seeing other elderly people with children by their side, she envied them.
So she called her son, but the number was unavailable, and her daughter couldn't get through either.
Later, she learned from her former neighbor that her son went to live abroad and her daughter inherited the family business.
They lived well without me.
And what about her family?
Ye Ziqiu took some time to go back to her mother's home, where earth-shaking changes had already taken place.
Her younger brother followed Qin Chuan to start a business growing oranges and has long become a well-known agricultural farmer in the county and even the provincial capital.
Her parents have been dead for many years, and her younger brother's family has settled down in the county town and is living well without her participation.
They are all happy, except themselves.
So what caused the current situation?
Is it selfishness, or is it the retribution for her giving up voluntarily?
No, it's not. It's that they can't forgive her. Everything she did was for a reason.
As her brothers, sons, and daughters, couldn't they understand her difficulties? As long as she succeeded, they would treat them well.
But she never understood until her death what caused all these consequences.
It's not because she chose profit that she was despised. It's because she only cared about herself and never thought about how others should live.
She took the initiative to leave other people's lives, so naturally others will not leave her traces in their own lives.
Everything is destined. If there is no deviation, she will live a lonely life.
There are gains and losses. Since you let go happily at that time, don't expect the people and things you gave up to come back.
Life is a game of survivorship. How you choose to live is up to you.
After Ye Ziqiu returned, Xu Jing felt that it was time for him to confront Qin Chuan.
When we returned to the Qin family, it was already dark.
The lights were not on, and Xu Jing found Qin Chuan sitting silently in the corner in the moonlight.
"I'm leaving now."
Qin Chuan raised his head. His face was blurry in the dark night. The words he said seemed very light-hearted, but they felt extremely heavy in his heart.
He still didn't say anything because he felt that the protagonist at the moment was Li Heng, not him.
"I will apply for a major that is not related to agriculture, and then go abroad for further studies." In a disguised way, he left.
"You can live off my shares in the future. Your learning and creative abilities are better than mine. You can also continue the glory of our hometown."
He talked a lot as if he was leaving his last words, but not a single word he said was something he liked to hear.
A long sigh stopped him from continuing his wild thoughts. He watched Li Heng turn around and leave without any reluctance.
The back figure was stretched by the moonlight, and then disappeared little by little.
At that moment, Qin Chuan panicked.
He knew that if he didn't catch Li Heng, they might never see each other again in this life.
"Don't go." Qin Chuan roared, as if he was talking to himself, or as if he was talking to him.
"I respect your choice." Xu Jing didn't look back, but just slowed down his pace.
Ye Ziqiu is similar to him. The former lives in Qin Chuan's heart by making endless demands, while the latter is like an angel who pulls him out when he is stuck in the mud.
"Don't be afraid, no one will persecute you anymore." In other words, even if he let go of her hand, she wouldn't fall directly into hell. She could live well in her own world.
"Do you love me?" Qin Chuan hugged him tightly and whispered in his ear. "You don't."
Li Heng's goal was the same as Ye Ziqiu's, and even their way of loving was the same. They both wanted something from him. Although he didn't understand, he knew that there was no free lunch in this world, and no one would ever help you regardless of past grudges.
Xu Jing turned around and touched his face. "That's right, I don't love you."
His heart stopped beating at that moment, and a hint of bitterness appeared on the corner of his lips. "I knew it, I knew it..."
No one will treat him well without responsibility. The fairy tale world does not exist at all.
"I live for you." Xu Jing looked at him with a smile and withdrew his hand. "If you don't need me, I will disappear."
"What's the meaning?"
"That's exactly what it says." Xu Jing sighed and said, "I'll help you solve all your problems, and when you no longer need me, I'll disappear."
"Then why are you going against me?" Qin Chuan couldn't understand why he was going against his will when he could do whatever he wanted to satisfy him. Wasn't he afraid of getting angry?
"Because I am an independent individual. I have my own joys and sorrows, and I will also experience the ups and downs of life. You said I don't love you, but don't you?"
"No, it's not like that. I love you more than you love me."
Qin Chuan's eyes were red. He hugged him and put his head on his shoulder. "You can feel it, right? I love you."
"Yes, but there is a prerequisite. I cannot touch your bottom line, and I have touched it many times."
Xu Jing touched the back of his head to calm his anxious mood.
"Listen to me, there are no two leaves in this world that are alike. Even the most loving people will eventually separate.
You can't accept my world, and I can't stay in the countryside for you. Then even if we love each other, we will still become parallel lines, never intersecting, and eventually become strangers.
Qin Chuan bit his lip as he figured out a problem. Love is so mysterious. If you want to have something, you also have to lose something.
If he wanted to get Li Heng, he had to accept his world. Whether it was black and white or color, he had to understand and tolerate it. He tried to fit in and learn to love him.
The same goes for Li Heng.
Love is not just about taking, it also requires giving.
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