"You're right, I never liked you."
Xu Jing saw the light flowing in his eyes. The broken light was still beautiful, but unfortunately, no matter how beautiful it was, it was not his.
"You place so much importance on class status, which means you've always been wary of me. You've never been committed to the relationship, and you've even been withdrawing, never getting into the mood. What are you afraid of? Are you afraid that I'll put pressure on you and your family, or are you avoiding risk?"
Xu Jing sneered. It seemed that he had returned to his previous level and was no longer thinking about making peace.
This is good, at least it's good for both of them.
"I won't give my heart away easily. Love is really something that is dispensable to me. If I want it, I have it. If I don't want it, I don't have it."
"Do you know what love is?"
Mo Zechuan retorted: "You don't understand. You are just following a certain routine to live your life. You can't put yourself into it at all, so you don't deserve love."
"Then what?"
After talking it out, Xu Jing felt relieved.
Indeed, he has never felt inferior.
Inferiority complex is just his disguise, a means for him to escape reality.
He spoke of class status in a sarcastic tone more than once, not because he was selfish and sensitive and wanted to gain more by acting pitifully, but because he wanted to escape.
He wanted to escape from the shackles and wanted Mo Zechuan to let go faster.
Because no one will have much patience for people who are of unequal class status but act like a troublemaker all day long.
Patience has its limits and will eventually run out. Then, he will have reached his destination.
"If you still want to stay, I think you should open your heart and let me love you."
Xu Jing couldn't help but laugh. "From what I know, you don't understand love either. If love could be gained through plunder, I would have gotten it long ago. You should learn from Ning Su."
What does it have to do with him?
Mo Zechuan grabbed his hand, very angry, but he could only suppress his emotions. "What did Ning Su do to you?"
"He's very good and knows how to play to his strengths and avoid his weaknesses." Xu Jing slapped his hand away and took a step back. The half-meter distance was enough for the two to continue chatting.
"He is like gentle water, testing me, accepting me, and approaching me in a way that I can accept. I think..."
Xu Jing smiled even more. "If nothing unexpected happens, I can be with him."
"No." He was very angry when he thought that the person he loved most was kidnapped by a sinner.
Qi Xiao Zhou only saw the surface and failed to see Ning Su's sinister intentions.
It’s true that he wants to get Xiao Zhou, but he may not cherish her even if he gets her.
Ning Su would not treat Xiao Zhou as a treasure, he would only make him a broken rag doll.
"He's not good. He had a miserable childhood and real experiences of being bullied. He took vengeance on those who bullied him. Some were thrown into prison, where they lost kidneys or livers, and within a few years, they were gone."
"I know you must think I'm slandering him, but this is the indisputable fact. He is far more insidious and cunning than you imagine. He won't let go of anyone who hurts him. He won't be kind to someone easily either. He always has a purpose."
Mo Zechuan probably didn't know that after Ning Su learned that Zhou Jinxi was gone, she followed him all the way to the hospital.
Then, like a thief, he listened to the entire conversation between him and Zhou Jinxi through a crack in the door.
He originally thought that he had always been in love with Zhou Jinxi, but when he learned that Zhou Jinxi also had feelings for him, Ning Su felt much happier.
He was just planning to go in and declare his sovereignty and bring the people with him, but he heard Mo Zechuan saying bad things about him.
To be precise, it's not a bad thing, that's the truth.
Ning Su also wanted to hear how Zhou Jinxi would respond after hearing these remarks.
If he really got timid and retreated, then the two of them would be destined to become strangers.
And he will let go happily and will not continue to interfere with unreasonable feelings.
Zhou Jinxi's voice came through the crack in the door.
"Self-protection tactics aren't insidious or cunning. If you can't even love yourself, no matter how kind others are to you, it's useless. It's you who despise yourself, not others who have infected you."
This double entendre not only stopped Mo Zechuan from saying what he was about to say, but also gave Ning Su outside the door a new insight.
Indeed, loving yourself is much better than loving others.
"You keep telling me how cruel he is to others because you have other motives. You want to stop me from having any contact with him, am I right?"
Mo Zechuan did not respond, tacitly agreeing with his answer.
"You haven't witnessed how badly he was bullied, but you can tell from the way he retaliated that the dark times he went through were truly terrible."
"It's not that a person is alive just because he stands in front of you perfectly. His living habits and personality have been completely changed by those people. Do you think the current Ning Su is still the same Ning Su as before? Not at all."
It is difficult to change others, but it is very easy to change yourself.
Influenced by material things, too many people have chosen different paths and thus evolved different personalities.
No one will stick to their original intention as always. In the end, they will go with the flow and slowly adapt to this cannibalistic society, allowing themselves to integrate into it imperceptibly.
"The biggest difference between you and Ning Su is that you won't change your personality. You need others to urge you on, preferably with a whip, until you feel the pain, then you will think about changing. But he is different."
Mo Zechuan subconsciously retorted. "What's the difference? He can do it too..."
"He won't." Xu Jing had worked as a psychiatrist and understood how some traumatized children healed. There were only two paths: destruction or self-reform.
Those with mental illnesses feel that the decisions of others have little influence over them and are not as significant as their own sorrow.
"He knows exactly what he wants, and he uses a mutually agreeable method to get what he wants. That's what makes him different from you."
Ning Su didn't need to listen to what was said next.
Because he knows that there is someone in this world who can completely understand him, and this person is the only one he cares about.
People always meet the right person at the wrong time. Although it is a pity, it is a beautiful thing to have him/her.
He pushed open the door, and not only Mo Zechuan was shocked to see him, even Xu Jing was a little confused.
How come anyone can stay outside the special ward? Doesn’t the special ward include these protagonists?
Just as he was thinking, he suddenly felt a damp and hot sensation on the left side of his face.
He saw something extraordinary in Mo Zechuan's shocked eyes.
Just when he was stunned, Ning Su kissed his left cheek in front of Mo Zechuan.
"You heard it all." After being surprised, Xu Jing complained about the quality of the door.
Not only could he not stop it, but he also guessed that Ning Su heard everything he said. Looking at Ning Su's attitude towards him, it was clear that he couldn't get rid of the bad peach blossom.
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