Mo Zechuan's voice revealed despair, as well as a hint of grief and indignation over his unrequited love affair.
"Xiao Zhou, if you really want to, just look back at me. How am I inferior to Ning Su? How can I not compare to others? My status and abilities are there. I will do my best to do whatever you want. Why don't you even give me the last chance?"
Even through the phone, he could feel the suffocation brought to him by the person on the other end.
Two days ago, he saw Ning Su kneeling in front of him and begging him not to break up. Mo Zechuan was quite happy at that time. He thought that this green tea bitch would finally fall one day.
But he never expected that when the same thing happened to him, he was the one who was talking all the time, and there was no sound from the other side. The despair that arose from this almost drove him to autism.
He really has the ability to make people lose their minds.
"Speak up, what are you thinking?" Speak out loud, then he will have a chance to correct himself.
"What I want is stability, a lover with a stable personality. And you can't give me that."
"No." Mo Zechuan retorted with a flushed face, "You clearly said you wanted equality the day you were drugged. How could you go back on your word, Brother Jiang?"
Xu Jing suddenly realized that he seemed to have returned to the past through the phone.
"You know everything."
"I know everything." Mo Zechuan shed tears silently and continued, "Your appearance on stage may fool others, but not me. You are wearing Luo Ying's clothes and playing Luo Ying, but only I know that you are not Luo Ying, but Jiang Xuqing. Brother Jiang, we have a foundation from our previous lives. We are different from Ning Su. Why did you choose him over someone close to you?"
Why did he choose Ning Su? Of course, it was because Ning Su's personality was very compatible with his, and she was emotionally stable. He didn't need to spend time and energy to coax her. Xu Jing wanted his future partner to be someone who could tolerate him, if nothing else.
But what he never expected was that since he fell into Mo Zechuan's trap, the word "tolerance" was too far away from him.
Mo Zechuan has a short temper and is selfish, caring only about his own survival. He's even more difficult to deal with than a hedgehog. A hedgehog at least hurts others but not itself, but he hurts himself as well. Every argument between the two ends in regret for both of them. How many more storms can they withstand?
"Do you like the acting?" A bitter taste appeared on Xu Jing's lips. The food was cold, and his heart was cold too.
"You're silent, which proves you like me. What you like is my unwavering obedience, my gentleness and consideration, my ability to be by your side the moment you need me, to shield you from the elements, and to clear away all obstacles for you. A person like that isn't your lover, but a superman. Go to the temple and make a wish; maybe you'll get it."
"No." Mo Zechuan hurriedly explained. "I didn't think about it that much, I just..."
"You're just unwilling to accept it. You're unwilling to accept that the things you used to take for granted are slowly disappearing, so you come to make trouble with me. Think about it carefully, I've always been catering to you, catering to your feelings, and I've never brought you into my world. That's why you fell into my trap, again and again, and in the end you were hurt all over."
Xu Jing wiped away the tears that had streamed down his face, his expression returning to its usual calm. "Mo Zechuan, you have to move on. You can't stay in a dream forever."
"You mean I can't hug you or kiss you anymore?"
"Yes." Xu Jing closed his eyes. No matter how reluctant he was, the relationship had to be severed. The moment he agreed to Ning Su, he and Mo Zechuan had no more contact.
Xu Jing couldn't have his cake and eat it too, so he couldn't leave Mo Zechuan with even a shred of hope.
"Then how do you deal with the damage you've done to my body and my heart?" Mo Zechuan shouted, "Are you not going to take responsibility? Are you planning to just keep going down this path until the end?"
"Yes, about the money..."
"Don't mention money to me. Do I need money?" What he needed was people. He wanted Xiao Zhou. He wanted this person to belong to him completely.
But now he couldn't seem to find him.
He made Mo Zechuan understand a truth: lifelong entanglement is not as good as a moment of peace.
He was leaving, and taking his heart with him. The cruel man probably only thought of being kind to him when he was on the verge of death.
"Then..." Mo Zechuan thought for a long time, but still couldn't say the words "I wish you happiness".
He hung up the phone with a cold face, and his heart was broken at the moment he hung up the phone.
Tears flowed out one by one, from a stream to an ocean, crying heartbreakingly, crying until I was out of breath. It only took a few minutes to sob softly and cry until I was hoarse, but the wound in my heart would take a long time to heal.
He only knew one thing: from now on, no one would love him wholeheartedly.
Maybe everything was just his dream. When the dream is over, it’s time for people to wake up.
Compared to the gloomy atmosphere here at Mo Zechuan, it is much warmer here at Xu Jing.
"How long are you going to stay outside the door, baby?"
Ning Su's eyes welled up, and he pushed the door open with a smile. "You knew I was at the door a long time ago, and you said all this on purpose to cheer me up, right?"
"No." Xu Jing sorted out the things in the ward, put the cold food in the microwave to heat it up, and then said lightly: "I'm serious."
"You really don't miss him anymore?" Ning Su put the things on the dining table, washed his hands, and sat down. "Don't tell me you never loved him."
"My dear, love can't be eaten."
With a ding, the microwave finished cooking. Xu Jing opened the door, brought out the food, and placed it on the dining table. He also washed his hands and sat down across from him.
While eating, he said: "When I was 18, I felt that love was everything and I could do anything for love.
As you get older, you will find that nothing is more important than love.
Career, wealth, family and even friendship are more reliable than love.
As time goes by, the person next to you communicates less and less, and eventually becomes a family member who accompanies you for life.
Do you know why?
Ning Su shook his head, drank his black rice porridge, and couldn't explain anything.
"Because love has a shelf life. When hormones stimulate the brain, love can be passionate. When the hormones disappear, people regain their rationality. After all, even animals have estrus and cooling periods, so aren't humans the same?"
Xu Jing seems to be self-deprecating, but in fact every word he says is full of gems.
Everything he said was right, but it could also be said to be wrong. He was just changing the concepts, replacing the wrong with the right and the right with the wrong.
It even conveys the idea that love can fade away with the wind, and two people who once loved each other will break up one day in the future and eventually become strangers.
Ning Su did not dare to agree with this and did not want to compromise.
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