Perhaps those problems will naturally resolve themselves after marriage, Wei Jingshen thought.
Before going to sleep, he reminded himself that he should try to find out what Jiang Tian was thinking when he woke up.
But when he woke up, there was no one in the empty villa.
Wei Jingshen is a mentally mature adult. The cutthroat world of business has further honed his mind, giving him wisdom beyond that of his peers.
However, after discovering that Jiang Tian had disappeared, Wei Jingshen was still hit with a heavy blow that left him speechless.
Jiang Tian is gone.
He didn't understand why.
Just then, his phone rang.
Seeing Jiang Tian's number, he answered it with trembling hands.
"Wei Jingshen, I'm sorry, I have to leave. I hope you won't look for me."
A sharp pain struck Wei Jingshen.
He was in pain and confused: "...I don't understand."
Everything was clearly getting better, their relationship was progressing smoothly, and they could take their time to get married, have a few children, and enjoy the most traditional happiness in life together. Wouldn't that be great?
He wanted to shelter her from the wind and rain, and give her a peaceful and happy haven, but why didn't she want it?
“When I last met my grandma, she told me that she could help me. Actually, she didn’t want to help me get married to you, but to help me find another possibility in life. She helped me find a place to do part-time work to earn tuition fees, and she also helped me get into university.”
"Because she could tell that I didn't feel safe around you, and I didn't know how to properly handle our relationship. We are from two different worlds. I was surprised and terrified when you suddenly loved me so much."
“You always think of me first, I can’t run away, that would be letting you down. You’ve done so much for me. If we want to be together, and someone has to compromise, it has to be me, because I have to adapt to your life and your circle.”
"Even though I could foresee that life in a wealthy family would change me beyond recognition, I must repay your kindness. I have nothing else to give you but myself."
Wei Jingshen gripped his phone tightly.
"But my mind doesn't want me to become someone else's canary. I know you've been trying to help me become a better person, contacting schools for me, and letting me see the lives of professional women. But when I think that everything I have is given to me by you, and that if I leave you, I will never be able to find myself again, I'm scared... I hope that everything I can control is something I have earned through my own efforts, rather than something given to me by others."
Wei Jingshen's throat was a little dry: "I gave you resources and taught you how to survive independently. The skills you acquired are your own..."
Jiang Tian smiled and said, "Yes, I understand how good you are to me. But I'm too stubborn. You help me and support me to move forward, but this kind of relationship can never be equal. How can two people who are not equal in status talk about love?"
“I can feel your affection for me. I am flattered. Someone like you could easily win the favor of countless people, yet you chose me. I should be content. But I have hands and feet, and if I am always the one reaching out, then our positions will never be equal. I am very clear-headed, and I know that even if I struggle my whole life, I may never reach your starting point. But at least at that time, our souls were on the same level. If I keep accepting your gifts and always be the one receiving charity, I will be in great pain.”
Her meaning was already quite clear.
She didn't want to live under Wei Jingshen's wing forever.
Although this kind of life is what many people dream of, everyone has their own way of life and way of understanding.
Jiang Tian could never accept gifts from others with a clear conscience.
Especially when talking about feelings with him, if one party always acts as the superior and the one giving charity, Jiang Tian's logic cannot be consistent.
Then she will only feel worse and worse.
When that time comes, she will inevitably have to compromise, either by changing her personality and accepting a life of being "supported," or by pretending to be numb until she is driven to the brink of despair.
Jiang Tian chuckled on the other end of the phone: "Grandma probably noticed my struggles, so she gave me this opportunity. She helped me find a suitable part-time job, and I got the opportunity through the interview. I also applied to that university bit by bit, and luckily they accepted me."
She paused for a moment, then continued, "Wei Jingshen, I don't know if you understand. I can accept charity from others, but not from you. Because I want more possibilities with you. I have to find a balance, a relative equality, through my own efforts."
"I hope we can have a future."
Wei Jingshen's eyes were incredibly sore.
Of course he understood; if he didn't, he wouldn't be here listening to Jiang Tian speak.
But understanding is one thing, feeling sad is another.
How long are you going to be gone?
"I don't know, that's why I'm calling you. It might take me a long time to finish my studies, and there might even be unexpected events along the way. In any case, I hope you won't contact me. If I haven't completed my transformation and achieved independence and self-consistency, even if we're together, it won't last long."
"Are you just going to leave me here waiting? Can't I come to see you anytime? Don't worry, I won't interfere in your life."
Jiang Tian sighed on the other end: "But you can't help it. If the person you like is in trouble, how can you bear not to help me?"
Wei Jingshen fell silent, admitting that what Jiang Tian said was true.
Even if she shed a single tear, he would want to offer her the best things in the world.
“Wei Jingshen, I won’t ask you for any promises or for you to wait for me. I’m leaving not only for you, but also for myself. I was living a muddled life, thinking I would just let it pass by like this. It was your words that rekindled my hope for life. I’m very grateful to you.”
"But ultimately, I still have to live for myself. If a person can't even take care of themselves and only lives for the expectations of others, then she is not a complete person."
At this point, Jiang Tian hesitated for a moment: "If you meet someone suitable while I'm away and can develop a relationship, I won't object. I promised Grandma and accepted the bracelet, but I won't use these things to restrict your life. If you have a suitable marriage partner, send an email to my mailbox with an address, and I will send the bracelet back to you."
"Wei Jingshen, I hope you can be happy."
She's so understanding; she's thought everything through.
Wei Jingshen held his phone, remaining silent for a long time.
It's not that I don't feel wronged, it's not that I don't feel angry.
But he also knew that Jiang Tian was right.
Subconsciously, he always wanted to take over her life.
"I'm about to board the plane. Is there anything else you'd like to say to me?"
Jiang Tian asked him.
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