Jiang Ting seemed not to hear her words, skillfully picked up his awakened daughter, and played with her for a while.
Jiang Tian frowned: "Your Majesty, I remember every word you said. Are you going to go back on your word now?"
Jiang Ting's arms, which were holding the child, stiffened for a moment. He turned his head to look at Jiang Tian: "What does my existence mean to you?"
He suddenly felt like asking this question.
This woman seems to have never cared about him.
Just like yesterday.
He was still the same guest who visited her home.
He was still the kind of superior who made people feel relieved after he left.
Jiang Tian never saw him.
He wanted to ask Jiang Tian what place he held in her heart.
This question made Jiang Tian ponder for a moment.
Jiang Tian looked up again and suddenly sighed: "I'm sorry, I'm selfish. Actually, I can tell that you may have feelings for me. But the love of an emperor is too shallow and too unattainable. I dare not think about it, nor do I want to think about it. My husband has already occupied the highest and most important place in my life. It is difficult for me to accept a second person for the rest of my life."
Jiang Ting's expression remained unchanged.
If Jiang Tian still couldn't see his feelings for her after things had come to this point, that would be strange.
He made it so clear in the delivery room, in the smallest details.
Even though Jiang Tian couldn't believe it before, she can see it now.
She was a woman with meticulous attention to detail.
But she still doesn't intend to accept it.
Even if he didn't ask the question, Jiang Tian would definitely pretend not to hear it.
"Is it just because of Yan Jing'an? But he told you before he died that he didn't want you to be lonely for the rest of your life. If there is a suitable person, he would be more eager than you to have a good marriage with him. Just like when you wanted to find that scholar, didn't you also think about living a good life with him while cherishing the person in your heart?"
"In your eyes, am I not the right person?"
Silence is spreading.
Jiang Ting didn't want to spell it out.
If they've come this far, and they still pretend to be strangers, pretending they know nothing about each other, then they'll never have a happy ending.
For Jiang Ting, his life has been relatively uneventful.
He was determined to fight for everything.
He was the one who fought for the throne.
Why was he able to stand out among so many princes?
He even dared to fight, was able to fight, and succeeded in winning.
Now, he wants to fight for it too.
After a long pause, Jiang Tian slowly spoke: "If I were to find someone to spend the rest of my life with, I would definitely not choose the emperor."
Jiang Ting felt a chill in his heart.
The emperor represents supreme authority and the highest position under heaven.
As long as one can curry favor with the imperial power, he will enjoy wealth and honor for the rest of his life.
But Jiang Tian said in a resolute tone that she would not seek out the emperor.
If she had no prior contact or connection with him, her saying such things would only make people laugh.
After all, given her status, how could the emperor possibly take a liking to her?
But things are different now; he has fallen in love with her.
"Why don't you look for them?" Jiang Ting's voice was low.
Jiang Tian looked up at him, her eyes filled with doubt: "And what about you? I'm more curious about why you would fall for me. The distance between us is like an insurmountable chasm. If it weren't for my husband, you would never have seen me in this lifetime."
Yes, they are so far apart.
If he hadn't met her, he could have been a normal emperor.
But that's exactly what happened.
On that sunny day, after seeing him, it felt as if someone had knocked open his heart.
The cool, drizzling atmosphere brought a sense of relaxation to Jiang Ting, who had been in a state of anxiety since taking office.
Later, he began to observe her slowly, unconsciously.
Yan Jing'an has high standards, and the people he likes are definitely not unsuccessful.
Jiang Ting dared to say that.
How could a man of his caliber be so easily captivated by a woman?
Jiang Tian is indeed unique and outstanding.
Every time they met, Jiang Ting discovered different strengths in Jiang Tian.
Unlike most virtuous wives and loving mothers in this world, Jiang Tian is even somewhat unconventional.
What Jiang Ting admires most about her is that she always puts her own feelings first.
She certainly loved Yan Jing'an, but her love was not one of losing her dignity or being subservient.
She and Yan Jing'an admired each other and resonated with each other on a spiritual level.
The two of them usually treated each other as equals.
In this era where the husband is considered the most important person, Jiang Tian never let worldly pressures break her spirit.
She always lives for herself.
He admired her personality.
She is also extremely talented.
Yan Jing'an was skilled in composing poetry and prose, and her poems were exceptionally good, possessing a unique and unrestrained quality.
She can paint, play the zither, and is always full of whimsical ideas in her daily life.
Every time Jiang Ting entered that small courtyard, he felt completely relaxed, and the turmoil of the court seemed to disappear from his mind.
It is extremely difficult for someone in his position to find someone who can make him feel relaxed.
Subconscious attention may be the beginning of developing feelings of attraction.
Later, Jiang Ting became aware of his own emotions, and he chose to suppress them, retreat, and even run away.
He knew how absurd it would be for him to fall in love with the wife of his subject.
At this point, Jiang Ting's voice trembled slightly: "Do you think I haven't tried? I've tried every possible way to get rid of my feelings for you. I know it's wrong. It would be a mistake for anyone. But I haven't succeeded."
He restrained himself for so long.
His heart would race whenever he saw her.
But he never dared to reveal even a hint of it.
Every time he spoke to her, he would clench his hands, which were hidden in his sleeves, and try to relax.
Her relaxed and natural demeanor only made Jiang Ting more and more nervous each time.
Only after she turned around did Jiang Ting slowly exhale.
He survived another day, a day in which no one else noticed his feelings.
They had known each other for two years, and during those two years, he endured this every time he went to see Yan Jing'an.
Liking someone can be harder to hide than being sick with a cough.
Yuwen Zhuo didn't offer any help, and she discovered it.
Jiang Ting was glad he had kept it hidden, which allowed her to place her trust in him, even if it was only a small part. As a result, their relationship had grown much closer.
Even Jiang Ting himself didn't know where their fates would lead them.
Will they ever cross paths?
But he still managed to take that step.
Even if there's only the slightest connection, he'll still try.
“I am so happy that we have a child. To be honest, I haven’t slept for more than two hours these days. My heart is filled with sweetness whenever I think of my daughter. She is our child, and I am so grateful for her arrival.”
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