Chapter 360 Admiration
The princess sneered, "Xiaowu, I am first the princess of Dayuan, the only support of the emperor, then the mother of Nianqing, and finally myself. I have been trapped in shackles for many years. The marriage with Huainan was a last resort. I was unwilling and unwilling, so I ran to Huainan, wanting to see who the person I was marrying was, but I didn't expect to fall in love with him at first sight. But fate played a trick on me. Huainan was destroyed, your brother was killed, and I was pregnant. If I want to keep the child, I have to marry immediately, otherwise I have to abort him. Once I give birth to him, he will have to live in hiding for the rest of his life. So I married the youngest son of the Lu family and let Nianqing recognize the thief as his father. I want to overturn Huainan's case, but I have to take into account the health of the late emperor. He is my biological brother from the same mother. I know he made a big mistake, but he is the late emperor, who is afraid of Huainan, and he is also my brother. What can I do? If I want to overturn the case, I have to... "When the late emperor passed away, I knew he was weak and couldn't hold on for long. After the late emperor passed away, the emperor was young, and Lu Jing was regent. Xiaowu, did you know that? If he didn't know that Nianqing was the blood of Huainan and me, Lu Jing couldn't be the regent. Although the late emperor trusted him, he would never give him the power of regent, because Nianqing is my son, and he knew that Nianqing would return to Huainan, so he kept it in reserve and let Lu Jing be regent to check and balance me to prevent me from having too much power and the emperor being sidelined. All my life, I have been dragged forward by power and have no choice. It's ridiculous that even though I knew that the late emperor was calculating against me and guarding against me, I still tried my best to keep the emperor's power from being sidelined by Lu Jing. Now, you are married to him, you have a deep relationship, and you have children. If Nianqing is partial to you. There is a blood feud between the royal family and Huainan, I am afraid that one day...what happened in Huainan back then will happen again."
Su Qingwan felt a slight pain in her heart. If what happened in Huainan happened again, the eldest princess's butcher knife would target her bloodline.
"Your Highness, what do you want?" Su Qingwan said, "Let's talk openly. First, Lu Jing will not betray the emperor. He is a man who values righteousness very much. The late emperor was his mentor and helped him to a high position. He will be loyal to the emperor for the rest of his life. As for the revenge for Huainan... When Huainan was vindicated, the late emperor passed away, and the Lu family was destroyed, I had gradually let it go. It was meaningless to continue to entangle with him. Killing people is just for temporary pleasure. Can I kill all the royal family members? What is the difference between me and the late emperor? Nianqing has grown up by your side since he was a child, so you don't need to worry that he will seek revenge for Huainan. Although blood ties cannot be severed, feelings need to be cultivated over many years and slowly. Nianqing has never seen his brother, my father, or my mother. He has only heard their stories and knows his life experience. He is also born in the royal family, so he will not have hatred towards the royal family, and Your Highness does not need to worry about it."
"Can I trust you?"
Su Qingwan thought to herself, Your Highness, do you have a choice? But she would not say such a shameful thing, "Nianqing will always be the bridge between you and me, Your Highness, I hope he can gain a foothold in Huainan more than you do. To be honest, if I really have to worry, I am more anxious than you, because I am only Nianqing's aunt, and you will always be Nianqing's mother. This is a fact that no one can change."
The eldest princess felt relieved and couldn't help looking at Su Qingwan's belly. In fact, there were some things she knew very well and there was no need to point them out. She was worried that Su Qingwan and Lu Jing's center of gravity would shift after they had children.
She was not unaware of what the Li family had done to the Lu family some time ago, but she just sat on the mountain and watched the fight. She had no intention of murdering Su Qingwan, but she also wanted Su Qingwan to take the initiative to ask her to intervene.
But Su Qingwan didn't do that. She and Lu Jing solved the problem, and the Li family was completely expelled from the power center of the capital.
The princess couldn't help but ask, "Xiao Wu, when you and Lu Jing were arranged to marry, I thought it was just an arranged marriage. Now... are you really in love with Lu Jing and want to stay with him forever?"
She knew better than Su Qingwan what marriage meant.
"Your Highness, I married Lu Jing because I wanted to live a good life with him. How to balance Huainan and the court is something you have to worry about. I want a family, Huainan needs me to maintain stability, Lu Jing happens to favor me, and I don't hate him. Why should I give up my good life and marry someone who will make things difficult for me?" Su Qingwan chuckled, "I have been wandering for many years, and Lu Jing is the only one who makes me feel that I can settle down."
Lu Jing was in the private room next door. When he heard these words, the corners of his lips curled up slightly. Su Qingwan's emotions were very subtle and restrained. Lu Jing thought that he would never hear the words "I love you, I admire you, and I want to spend my life with you" from Su Qingwan in his life.
However, her words are more touching than liking you or admiring you.
As long as you know Su Qingwan's past, you will know that she is a very defensive person who has no home anywhere except Huainan. She is a gust of wind and only believes that Huainan is her home.
Now, this bird that has been wandering for more than ten years is willing to stay under his eaves.
She likes him!
From the beginning of her marriage, she never thought about divorce. Maybe she acted a little too sincerely, deceiving herself and him, but from the beginning to the end, she was managing this relationship seriously.
Lu Jing let out a long sigh.
Human emotions are two-way and require feedback. Although he kept telling himself not to be anxious, he had a lifetime to spend with Su Qingwan, and time would tell. One day he would be able to impress her.
It's not that he couldn't feel Su Qingwan's love. His mother said that if one truly loved someone, the other person would definitely be able to feel it. Su Qingwan took good care of his daily life. She was emotionally stable and rarely got angry. Apart from the government affairs in Huainan and her hatred for her brother, it was difficult to arouse her emotions. Because of the hatred for his brother, he didn't even dare to ask for her love. He felt it was too much to ask for her love.
He once thought that Su Qingwan would never like him in this life, and even if she did, she would never say it out loud, because there would always be the life of her eldest sister-in-law between them.
He didn't dare to ask for anything more. This marriage was forced upon him. As long as Su Qingwan was by his side and was his wife, and they lived together day and night and she was within his reach, he had nothing else to ask for.
But people are greedy.
I have a legitimate marriage, but I also want unforgettable love.
We have the warmth of companionship and acquaintance, and we also want the deep affection of knowing and staying together.
Greed turned into an ugly monster, constantly circling in his heart. He had no choice but to devour her love to get fed. He was afraid that one day he would not be able to lock the monster in his heart and would do something to hurt both of them.
Therefore, he was eager to resolve his brother's issue, hoping to eliminate her estrangement as soon as possible.
Unexpectedly, on such a beautiful day as New Year's Eve, hearing the little bit of love that Su Qingwan revealed from her tightly closed heart, he felt like he was showered with nectar and relieved of a heavy burden. The increasingly greedy monster in his heart also received gentle caress.
It turned out that she really regarded herself as his wife and was willing to spend her life with him.
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