Lin Wei had a very tense July of that year. She began to have nightmares all night long. Sometimes she would be immersed in nightmares and cry constantly, and sometimes she would wake up from her dreams.
Zong Shao was a light sleeper, and he would wake up as soon as she made any movement. When he saw her crying, he would comfort her. When he saw her waking up, he would ask her what was wrong. But usually it would be fine if he didn't ask. Once he asked, Lin Wei would not be able to hold back her tears, and in the end he would still have to get up and comfort her.
One time, while crying, Lin Wei recalled the plot of the original novel. She didn’t dare to ask during the day, for fear that Zong Shao would think too much, but at night she didn’t care so much and asked Zong Shao what he would do if she died?
When Zong Shao heard this question for the first time, he frowned and told her not to say such discouraging words. She was still so young and had not even lived half of her life, how could she die?
But Lin Wei thought that she died so young in the original book, so she cried and asked, "What if?" Zong Shao had to give an answer.
Zong Shao had no choice but to think about it. After a long while, he said, "I may be in pain and sadness, but I should live with my children."
If he had no children, he might have made different choices, but when children are born, they are burdened with responsibilities.
They are not only each other's lovers, but also the parents of their children and their support.
Therefore, if Lin Wei died unexpectedly, he thought he would not abandon his children and die with her. Similarly, if he died, he also hoped that she could live well.
But Zong Shao knew in his heart that this answer might not satisfy Lin Wei, and he didn't want to lie, so after careful consideration, he still said this.
But when he said this, he couldn't help feeling a little nervous, afraid that Lin Wei would be angry and also afraid that she would be disappointed.
After hearing this, Lin Wei cried even harder. Zong Shao quickly apologized in a low voice, but the more he apologized, the harder she cried. He had no choice but to pull up her hand and slap himself in the face.
The slap was not heavy, but the crisp sound made Lin Wei stunned. She looked at Zong Shao with tearful eyes and listened to him say sorry. She was still crying, but she couldn't help laughing.
She stretched out her hand, which he was holding, and stroked the nonexistent palm print on his face, choking and saying, "Why are you so stupid?"
In the past, when she thought about how in the original novel, Zong Shao took care of the child for the rest of her life after her death, she found it difficult to equate it with reality. Even though she later believed that Zong Shao loved her and that if she really died, he would take care of her for the rest of her life like in the novel, things that never happened were, after all, just stories to her.
Only now, after hearing Zong Shao's answer, she knew that if she could survive, what happened in the novel would always be a story. But if she died, then everything would become real.
Zong Shao would make the same choice as in the novel.
So stupid.
…
Lin Wei cried until late at night that day. When she woke up the next day, she felt ashamed to face anyone and decided to control her emotions before going to bed.
But there is always a gap between ideals and reality. She thinks so every time before going to bed, but when she wakes up from a nightmare, it is difficult to control her emotions.
After half a month, not only did Lin Wei look haggard, but Zong Shao also had dark circles under his eyes.
Zong Shao's dark circles are not uncommon. He has always been full of energy. In the past, when the camp was doing training, he could only sleep three or four hours a day. After a week, everyone else was like eggplants hit by frost, but he was still full of energy.
Zhou Jianhai had known him for so many years but had never seen him like this, so he asked him when he had some free time.
Zong Shao didn't hide it, but he didn't persuade her either. He just said vaguely, "Weiwei has been having nightmares these days and is prone to crying at night."
"Nightmare, what kind of nightmare?" Zhou Jianhai asked.
Zong Shao didn't know what kind of nightmare Lin Wei had. She refused to tell him when he asked her. He could only speculate based on her questions: "She must have dreamed that something happened to her. Every time she woke up, she would ask me some strange questions."
Zhou Jianhai immediately asked: "Is it to ask you what you would do if she died? Would you marry someone else?"
"Will your sister-in-law be like this when she's pregnant?"
"Yes, of course not." Zhou Jianhai looked up and said, "You don't know, I was tormented during that period. I said I would not marry her, but she didn't believe me and thought I was lying to her. I said I would marry her again, but she was still unhappy and scolded me for being heartless. I was so worried."
Zong Shao said: "Weiwei didn't disbelieve me."
Zhou Jianhai glanced at Zong Shao, suspecting that he was showing off.
"How long has sister-in-law been in this state?" Zong Shao asked.
"How long?" Zhou Jianhai recalled, "It was quite long, but not as often as your wife, maybe once or twice a month. Giving birth is like this. There's an old saying, isn't it? Giving birth is like going through the gates of hell. It's normal for women to be afraid."
Zong Shao frowned: "Is that so?"
"How else could it be? You weren't around when Lin Wei was born, so you don't know. You should know next time."
Thinking of Lin Wei's haggard appearance, Zong Shao thought that it would be better not to happen next time, and said, "Weiwei has had nightmares almost every night recently, which seems to be different from my sister-in-law's situation."
"She was okay some time ago?"
Zong Shao recalled, "She has been a little tense since she got pregnant, but it wasn't so obvious before. Her mood swings have been more severe recently."
"Have you asked her?"
"I have asked her. She always cries when I ask her at night. When I ask her during the day, she just says she is fine and she just had a nightmare."
Zhou Jianhai thought for a moment and said, "I think this is caused by the pregnancy. She has big mood swings. I think she will be fine after the baby is born. Don't worry."
Zong Shao sighed and hoped so.
…
Lin Wei also noticed the dark circles under Zong Shao's eyes. After entering July, not only did she not get enough rest, but Zong Shao also did not sleep much at night.
But she never got enough rest, she only slept for five or six hours, and she could make up for it during the day.
Because Zong Shaoze had to coax her, he could only get some sleep in the first half of the night recently. When he finally closed his eyes in the second half of the night, it was time for him to go to the military camp.
After arriving at the military camp, Zong Shao had basically no time to catch up on sleep. Although officers and cadres did not need to train every day like ordinary soldiers, he was in charge of the soldiers' training and had strict self-discipline. Every day he was either on the ship or on the training ground. Occasionally, he would return to the battalion office to make training plans.
Everything else was fine, but Lin Wei was just worried that he wouldn't be able to endure the training. After all, the intensity was quite high, coupled with lack of sleep. He might be able to hold on for ten days or half a month, but he would definitely not be able to handle it for a month.
Lin Wei has basically given up on treatment, although she knows intellectually that she has predicted the future and taken precautions, so she has a good chance of surviving.
But when she woke up from a dream in the middle of the night, she couldn't care less and fear still took over. And her fear was something Zong Shao could not soothe for the time being.
This is a matter of life and death.
So after considering it, Lin Wei decided to sleep in a separate room from Zong Shao so that he could sleep well. As for her...she could cry at night, since she could still continue sleeping after crying.
However, as soon as her plan was proposed, it was severely opposed by Zong Shao.
Lin Wei thought Zong Shao had misunderstood her meaning, so she explained, "We're just sleeping in separate rooms for now. I'll sleep together when I feel better. That way you can get a better rest."
"I've had a good rest, how about you?" Zong Shao asked.
"I..." Lin Wei pursed her lips and said, "Anyway, I get up late in the morning and can make up for my sleep during the day. Besides, I am not as tired in school as you are in the military camp."
Zong Shao said: "But I don't want you to cry without me by your side."
Lin Wei was silent for a moment, then lowered her head and said, "Even if you were by my side, you couldn't do anything."
"At least I can hold you."
Lin Wei's eyes were slightly hot, she looked up at him and said, "But you can't keep going like this, your body won't be able to take it."
"I'm fine. I've been able to get through several days and nights before. Now I can still sleep at night. And I don't always have to endure this. I can still make up for the sleep during holidays..." Zong Shao said, and suddenly stopped.
In fact, he regretted it very much. Although he did not catch up with Lin Wei giving birth to Mingming and Ruirui, he had seen how she looked after giving birth, and he always knew that pregnancy and childbirth were painful.
But in the past he ignored this pain, so after arriving on the island, when Lin Wei said she didn't want to have a child so early and wanted to use contraception, although he agreed, he actually welcomed the arrival of the child in his heart.
Otherwise, given his personality, after deciding to use contraception, he would definitely find out what method was best, and he would not have been so indulgent in the past six months.
It was not until Lin Wei became pregnant with this child that he realized that the pain brought by an unexpected child was not only physical, but also psychological torture to her.
If he had taken this matter seriously earlier, if he had restrained himself during the New Year period, Lin Wei might not have become pregnant with this child, and she would not be in so much pain now.
He was wrong.
Zong Shao stroked Lin Wei's face and said, "I want to be with you. Let me be with you."
He should have been with her, seen and experienced it, so that he could understand her hard work and dedication as a mother, and also learn from it.
Looking at Zong Shao's determined expression, Lin Wei nodded: "Okay."
…
In the next half month, the two still did not sleep separately. Lin Wei would still wake up at night and cry uncontrollably, but she felt that she was not as scared anymore.
Because she can touch the people around her just by moving her hands, and she can even feel the presence of people around her without moving her hands.
She knew that he would always be with her.
Therefore, the closer it got to that day, the less likely she would lose control of her emotions, and the two of them could barely get a good night's sleep.
It was not until the last day of July, during dinner, that Zong Shao told Lin Wei a piece of news: "A typhoon may land in the next few days, so you should be careful at home during the day."
Lin Wei, who was picking up vegetables, trembled a little, and the vegetables fell back. Lin Wei looked up and asked, "Which day?"
"It's expected to be the 2nd or 3rd," Zong Shao noticed that Lin Wei's attitude was not right, and held her hand and said, "Don't worry, this typhoon is not big. We will stock up some food at home in the next two days. Just close the doors and windows and don't go out."
But this did not comfort Lin Wei. She had originally guessed that the typhoon was not big, and now it only confirmed her guess - the cause of "her" death in the novel had no direct connection with the typhoon.
Lin Wei responded vaguely, put away her chopsticks, picked up the rice in the bowl, and ate it grain by grain.
After a long while, she suddenly looked up and asked, "Can you take a day off the day after tomorrow?"
Zong Shao paused and asked, "What's wrong?"
Lin Wei didn't tell him the reason, she just looked at him and said, "I thought you were at home that day."
Zong Shao no longer hesitated and nodded: "Okay, I will ask for leave as soon as I arrive at the camp tomorrow."
Lin Wei hummed, lowered her head and continued to eat. After a moment, she said, "Remember to apply to drive the car back."
Lin Wei was really scared when he first heard about the coming typhoon when he went to the island with the army. He even specially exchanged his duty time with Zhou Jianhai. But after seeing so many typhoons, Lin Wei was no longer so afraid of them and no longer asked her old friend to come back early.
But Zong Shao didn't ask any more questions, just said, "Okay."
After receiving the reply, Lin Wei felt relieved and lowered her head to continue eating.
If Zong Shao didn't get leave tomorrow or applied for a car, she would pretend to have a stomachache in the evening and ask him to take her to the hospital. If he got the day off, she would postpone it until the morning of the next day and pretend to have a stomachache, so that even if there was a typhoon, it would not be difficult to go to the hospital.
She also prepared a lot of biscuits and snacks. If it rained so heavily that she couldn't drive, she would lie in bed all day with the food.
Having made up her mind, Lin Wei fell asleep that night with anxiety in her heart.
Before going to bed, she thought she would continue to have nightmares that night, but in fact she had a dreamless night. In the whole month of July, she finally slept until she woke up naturally one day.
After getting up the next day, Lin Wei took advantage of the time she went to the state-owned restaurant to get meals in the morning, noon and evening to stock up on a lot of food.
Zong Shao also drove back in the evening. Although he was criticized by their battalion commander for asking for leave without reason, their battalion commander Ye saw the dark circles under his eyes and knew that his wife was not in good condition recently. In addition, he seldom asked for leave, so he let him take a day off.
Before going to bed at night, Lin Wei moved all the food she had stored upstairs, and asked Zong Shao to bring the thermos and cups upstairs.
Mingming watched his parents moving these things upstairs and asked with his mouth wide open, "Is something big going to happen in our family?"
As soon as he finished speaking, Mingming was slapped on the head by Zong Shao: "I told you to shut up."
Mingming touched his head innocently, thinking that his father was really unreasonable. When did he tell him to shut up? Although he had some objections in his heart, looking at his parents' serious expressions, he didn't dare to say them out loud and only muttered to himself.
Lin Wei smiled and said, "Mom is preparing for something big. You and Ruirui should bring the pillows over. We will sleep together tonight."
"Is it okay? Can we sleep with mom tonight?" Mingming looked surprised.
Ever since Lin Wei became pregnant, Mingming Ruirui seldom slept with her, especially in July, they never slept together once.
Lin Wei nodded and said, "Okay, go get a pillow."
No matter what happens tomorrow, she wants the whole family to be together tonight.
Mingming Ruirui happily went to get the pillow, but the two children did not dare to sleep next to Lin Wei, for fear that they would not sleep well at night and kick their mother's belly.
Although there was their father between them, the two children were still very excited, especially Mingming, who chattered non-stop.
Neither Lin Wei nor Zong Shao interrupted him, but just listened with a smile on their faces.
So that night, both children went to bed late, and as for Lin Wei and Zong Shao, they didn't sleep a wink all night.
But they didn't speak, they just closed their eyes and pretended to sleep, until the first beam of light in the morning shone through the curtains, Lin Wei opened her eyes and thought,
It's a sunny morning.
Then, she covered her stomach, turned her head and whispered to Zong Shao's ear: "A Shao, my stomach hurts."
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