Chapter 62: Grandpa's Notes
"To put it simply, people with alexithymia have problems expressing and identifying emotions. It's not a mental illness, but more of a negative personality trait."
Zhai Da stopped pushing his bicycle.
Shen Rui also stopped:
"Emotional expression disorder is only a minor problem. After all, many people are not good at speaking or are introverted. However, a small number of people with particularly severe emotional disorders also have difficulties in 'emotional cognition', which is more troublesome."
"They can't correctly identify their own emotions, let alone understand others'. They suppress their happiness, sadness, and anger, and are prone to misjudging others' states. Just like when you're stabbed, you'll feel pain and fight back, but they might just quietly watch the wound bleed and calmly ask the stabber what he's doing."
Zhai Da trusted Shen Rui's intelligence and his judgment. The key was... everything matched...
He can't tell which is a joke and rarely expresses his emotions. Even when faced with something that would break an ordinary person, he just sheds tears silently.
Even...Zhai Da thought of an even more uncomfortable possibility.
After going through so much, he still gave Lu Benqing gambling money...even though he was starving for a long time...was it because he misjudged the promise of his beastly father?
Zhai Da exhaled a breath of foul air: "Is this situation a big deal?"
Chen Rui shook his head. "That depends on the specific situation. Mild cases can be interpreted as being rather 'bored'. Slightly more serious cases, if they are willing to interact with society, can, through intelligence and experience, barely imitate normal behavior patterns, so they won't cause major problems. But ultimately, it's not a good trait."
"Most importantly, their emotions have been neglected and suppressed for a long time, leading to a lack of happiness and vulnerability in interpersonal relationships. Over time, this can lead to other mental health issues."
Chen Rui patted Zhai Da's arm and said, "So I hope that when you're interacting with Lu Wei, you can be understanding. She wasn't born like this. As for the reason, if you continue to be friends, you'll gradually understand it."
Zhai Da pressed on, "How can we improve this situation? Medication?"
Shen Rui shook his head: "Although everyone's degree is different, but medicine is never the antidote to this kind of problem, people are."
People...are...
The two continued to move forward. Chen Rui did not bring up the topic again, giving Zhai Da some time to digest the situation.
We arrived at the residential complex where Shen Rui lived. The old man in the security room smiled and nodded in greeting. It was obvious that Shen Rui maintained good interpersonal relationships with most people.
This community is even older than Sanmao, probably at the level of "Da Mao", with bungalows and buildings interspersed. The garbage station is overflowing, and an unpleasant smell is emitted as the temperature gradually rises.
This is not surprising, as Shen Rui comes from a family of woolen mill workers, and teachers' salaries are not high.
Zhai Da suddenly felt a little sorry for Shen Rui. Such a smart and gentle person, a PhD from R University who came from a small town, was he just a "small town test-taker" in the eyes of some people?
Are there many people around him who laugh at him for not making a big splash? What's the point of studying?
While climbing the stairs, Zhai Da said:
"Teacher Shen, I think Mr. Yu is a good person. It would be great if you could go to Xu City to work and join Mr. Yu's company."
"Even being a consultant is better than being a teacher."
Shen Rui didn't seem surprised, but he didn't answer Zhai Da, probably because he felt that this topic was unnecessary to discuss with a student.
Zhai Da got himself into trouble.
Arriving at the home on the third floor, Chen Rui opened the door, revealing a neat and cozy two-bedroom apartment. The smell inside reminded Zhai Da of a library, the smell produced by a large number of books piled up.
Just looking inside from the door, there are three bookcases of various types, and they are all packed to the brim.
It can be seen that Teacher Shen Rui does not have a wife or girlfriend, so there is no room for a second person.
Considering the other person's age...I guess his family must be worried.
Oh...that's not right. Teacher Shen doesn't have a mother either, so maybe no one is urging him.
Since they were just going to pick up something, Zhai Da said he would not go in, so as to avoid taking off and changing shoes. Shen Rui walked into the innermost room and came out after about three to five minutes, holding a notebook in his hand.
The moment it came into view, a green broken line appeared in Zhai Da's field of vision.
Grandpa's relic...is a special item...
Shen Rui brushed off the nonexistent dust on the notebook and placed it in Zhai Da's hands:
"Since it wasn't a personal letter, I just flipped through a few pages."
"I won't answer your question just now, but perhaps you can find the answer from this notebook."
"From ancient times to the present, the answer to the word 'pursuit' should not be just money."
"Of course it's a bit too early for you to think about this now."
Zhai Da looked at the notebook in his hand. The crimson plastic cover was somewhat degraded and had a few spots of age. Apart from the giant's head in the center, there was no other decoration.
It is very thick, and it is not an exaggeration to even call it a "book". The spine is two fingers wide.
On the back, there are two lines of short printed words.
"The working people are intellectualized, and the intellectuals are labored."
...
"Congratulations to the host for discovering the green special equipment [Yu Lihua's Metalworking Notes (Incomplete) (1/4)]: This is the training material that Lihua poured his heart and soul into, but not many people have read it."
"Ownership: Acquired, Activated."
"Equipment Effect 1: Carrying this item slightly increases your metalworking learning ability, and provides a double bonus when researching the contents of the notebook itself."
"Equipment Effect 2: Focus on the notebook itself, with a very small chance of [temporarily] resonating with the notebook's owner. The chance of becoming a 'bond' in terms of blood, spirit, and emotion is greatly increased, and special feedback is provided."
"Special Effect 'Residual Wisdom': Those who have successfully triggered resonance have a chance of experiencing a flash of inspiration while studying, working, or doing anything related to 'manufacturing'."
"Unlocking mission: independently create ten items."
"Special Effect 'Standing Heart': ??? (Equipment incomplete)."
"Unblocking mission:???"
Note: My hand, which could control the accuracy within two threads, could no longer restrain itself when writing down the notes.
Trembling.
Zhai Da opened the cover of the notebook, which was full of notes on handwork or metalworking, including the production, specifications, and key points of some basic parts.
It seems to have all kinds of turning, milling, planing and grinding pliers.
In addition to the text content, there are also many hand-drawn pictures.
The paper is yellowed and old, but because no one has flipped it, it looks brand new and smooth.
Shen Rui said, "It seems to contain the training manual that your grandfather wrote for the new workers in the factory. Later, the information room was cleared out, and my third uncle picked it out and didn't throw it away. Now I'm returning it to you."
"Originally it was supposed to be given to your mother, but...it was fate."
Zhai Da was puzzled and stroked the words on the paper with his index finger.
The grandfather who passed away when he was one year old and whom he could not find any memory of, now left his mark on his fingertips.
Even the tiny indentations left by the tip of a pen are fed back to the brain through fingerprints.
Zhai Da was stunned for a moment.
The next moment, the vision became blurred.
He seemed to be pulled away quickly and tied to the back of the high-speed train and moved backwards.
After a loud "buzz!", I appeared in a familiar yet strange room...
His room...
Or rather, his room 20 years ago.
A figure in a dark blue coat was writing something at the desk.
The same position was the desk where he usually studied, facing the window.
Yes... he remembered... his mother once said that after she got married, his grandfather moved into the small room and gave the master bedroom to his daughter and son-in-law.
It turns out... I have always been in the same place with my grandpa...
This scene at this moment seems like a dislocation of time and space.
Zhai Da wanted to walk forward and pat the man on the shoulder, but unfortunately he seemed to be just a "perspective".
The figure in the coat coughed a few times and seemed to be in some pain.
But his spine was straight, not bent at all by the pain.
Then, he wrote a few words.
On the last page of the notebook.
"Zhai Da...Zhai Da?"
Zhai Da came back to his senses and looked at Shen Rui in front of him.
Shen Rui asked doubtfully: "What's wrong with you? Are you feeling uncomfortable?"
Zhai Da shook his head. "Sorry, I was distracted. I was a little too shocked... What I have in my hand is actually... written by my grandfather himself."
Shen Rui smiled and said, "Let's go back and take a look. Of course, this will not affect our studies."
Zhai Da walked out of Shen Rui's house. The other party was about to pack his luggage, after all, he was going to Xu City tomorrow.
He stood in the unfamiliar corridor, dazed for a long time... Was that strange "memory" just now the so-called "resonance"?
Finally, he took out his notebook and turned to the last page.
He was curious about what grandpa wrote at the end...
The end of the notebook.
"The wheat ripens thousands of times, but the people live long for the first time."
Zhai Da read it softly...
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