In other words, whether you feel pain or not is your own business.
Let bygones be bygones, why must she know? Jiang Xiaochen didn't believe that letting her know those things would necessarily be a good thing.
Moreover, before they came to the human world, they had already agreed that no matter what the truth was, what the past was like, or what the future held, they would learn to let go.
Otherwise, it will only bring Zhong Yan an even greater disaster!
Is that the outcome they wanted?
Obviously not.
Zhong Yan could sense his avoidance, and her heart was filled with complicated emotions. She didn't know how to bring it up; this was really hard to say.
"Fine, don't tell me if you don't want to!"
"No."
“Jiang Xiaochen, I’ll say it again: I hope you won’t interfere with any of my decisions, and I hope you won’t make me the center of your world. You know perfectly well that everyone has their own life, so why do you have to place your hopes on me? To put it bluntly, it’s not realistic at all.”
"you……"
“I was under a lot of pressure and was in a lot of pain. I was often afraid and uneasy, and didn’t know what to do. Jiang Xiaochen, have you ever experienced that feeling? It’s like everyone knows what’s going on, but you’re the only one who doesn’t know. I watched you all getting closer and closer, constantly making concessions, constantly telling me that everyone was doing it for my own good.”
"sorry……"
"Does 'sorry' even help?" Zhong Yan had to admit that she was actually a very lazy person, especially when it came to dealing with these kinds of problems, as she had absolutely no experience.
Jiang Xiaochen was speechless; it was the first time he had ever heard her speak to him like that.
"Zhong Yan, I know you did it on purpose last time."
"Then why..."
"I just can't control myself. The thought of your rejection of me makes me incredibly sad. It even makes me feel like my time on earth was completely meaningless. You don't care about me, and you don't care about them! Most of the time, you seem detached from this world." Jiang Xiaochen spoke one sentence after another, becoming more like a chatterbox. In reality, he had wanted to say these things for a long time. Seeing her struggle, he wasn't unmoved, unconcerned, or unsettled!
However, the two of them simply couldn't communicate.
No matter what he said, Zhong Yan seemed not to listen. Under such circumstances, he suddenly felt speechless, suddenly began to doubt himself, and suddenly felt that his existence was meaningless.
Zhong Yan was stunned; wasn't she just as shocked?
Couples should be the closest people in the world, and given their relationship, they should, by all accounts, trust and comfort each other.
In reality, they are constantly suspicious of each other.
The incident from last time could have erupted at any moment. Zhong Yan's exams and going to university are just a trigger.
Both she and Jiang Xiaochen understood this principle, but neither was willing to give in easily. Those obstacles were like a line lying across their hearts, stuck there, unable to move forward or back down.
Ultimately, it all boils down to a lack of trust, mutual suspicion, and mutual betrayal.
That's enough!
What's the point of saying anything now?
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