Chapter 174 The Self-Torture Strategy Succeeds Again
Hearing the woman's sad question, Lu Jingheng really wanted to cry.
What is love?
Did he hurt her so deeply that her heart died and she even forgot how to love?
"I'm sorry! Yangfan! It's my fault."
Lu Jingheng wanted to reach out and hug her, but suddenly he didn't dare to. He was afraid of scaring her, and even more afraid that she would get angry and resist him.
From the confusion in her eyes, he could feel her indifference to feelings and her ignorance of love.
Perhaps in her mind, she has given up on love because of the pain, humility and hardship of love.
In order to love him, she gave up her self-esteem, lost her only grandmother, lost the happiness of being a bride, and struggled to support a wedding alone.
Even that didn't earn him a good look.
She let go, completely let go, forgot everything, and closed her heart.
She had once discussed this issue with him very coldly, and she would never love again.
She gave up and just stayed herself.
"Yang Fan! I was wrong. I turned you into this. You were originally a lively, gentle, and considerate girl. I was a bastard and broke your heart. I will change, I will definitely change."
"Answer me, what is love? Will you really die without me? I don't believe it." Bai Yangfan's eyes were cold and without a trace of warmth. "Lu Jingheng! Stop deceiving yourself. Go back. Don't bother with me anymore. Why bother?"
"No, I won't leave." Lu Jingheng shook his head and smiled bitterly. "Before, I thought I would never fall in love with anyone. Ever since you killed a wild boar in the mountains that day and saved me, and wanted to draw a clear line between us, I have slowly fallen in love with you.
I've discovered that you're truly exceptional, even more exceptional than I imagined. Your performance has astonished me, moved my heart, and thrilled me. Especially since I've discovered that being close to you allows me to sleep soundly, I feel like this is the most precious gift God has given me.
I began to approach you non-stop, pestering you. I was very happy with you, happier than ever before. If I couldn't see you for a day, I would miss you, I would miss you very much.
When I came to Kyoto and you drove me away, I felt like the sky had fallen. I didn't dare to get close to you, yet I longed to be close. Every time I had to find an excuse to come see you, I couldn't muster the energy to do anything without you.
My old boss scolded me several times because I was always distracted and absent-minded. Those days were very painful. I deeply understood the bitterness of your unrequited love.
That night I came to see you. If you hadn't accepted my approach, I don't think I could have held on any longer. I was tired, exhausted, and in poor health. The person I loved didn't want me anymore. I felt like the world, no matter how big it was, had nothing to do with me.
Fortunately, you allowed me to get close to you. You don't know how excited and happy I was at that time. Yangfan! I'm sorry! I know that you were obsessed with me as much as I was obsessed with you, but I was stupid at that time and always felt that you were not worthy of me. Only now do I know that it was actually me who was not worthy of you.
After listening to Lu Jingheng's long-winded speech, Bai Yangfan was still confused: "You mean loving someone means missing him or her?"
"Yeah!" Lu Jingheng nodded.
Bai Yangfan thought about it seriously and said, "I don't miss you. I don't think I love you."
This sentence made Lu Jingheng laugh and cry. He smiled bitterly again: "You will fall in love with me in the future. Go back to sleep! Don't think about this problem. You have to go to school tomorrow. If you don't sleep well, you will be exhausted. I will keep watch for you outside. You should sleep well."
Glancing at the floor outside the door, Bai Yangfan glared at the bastard: "Either you go home or go sleep with Qihang. If you get sick from the cold and can't go on the mission, grandpa will scold me to death. Lu Jingheng! You did it on purpose, didn't you?"
Hearing the woman ask him to go into the house and sleep, Lu Jingheng smiled widely. He turned around, closed the door, and pulled Bai Yangfan into the house.
"I didn't mean to do that. I really have no other choice. I can sleep well here. If I go home, I might not even sleep for an hour tonight. I have a serious sleep disorder, and even hypnotists can't help me."
After saying that, he looked at Bai Yangfan eagerly, and the meaning was very clear: Only you are useful to me.
Not wanting to listen to the bullshit, Bai Yangfan went into the room and closed the door. Lu Jingheng was not angry either, and happily went to Qihang's room. His self-torture trick had worked again.
From now on, don’t use any other tricks in front of women, just use this one, it will definitely work.
Bai Yangfan returned to her room, undressed, and lay down in bed. She thought for a long time but couldn't figure out what love was. Lu Jingheng said that love is missing someone, but she didn't have anyone to miss. She had lived two lives and no one was worth missing.
If I have to say there is one, it is only worth it, but that is not love, it is hate.
Twelve was not born at this time, and no one knew how long he had been wandering by the Naihe Bridge. He probably had not even had the chance to drink Meng Po's soup.
The dog man said that when you love someone, you will miss them and do this and that, but she didn't have any such emotions.
Does it mean that she doesn't know how to love at all?
The bastard said that he fell in love with her after she killed the wild boar and saved him. If he had known that she would not be so greedy and kill the wild boar.
But according to him, he likes himself, not the original owner.
I feel that this man is quite stupid and pitiful. The original owner is such a good girl. She is willing to do anything for him. Why should I like her? She has never been a heartless person. She has never had any relationship with any man, and she doesn't understand what love is.
It’s really unfair to like her.
Might as well buy a pet to like.
Lu Jingheng in the other room didn't think so. He felt that women become so cold only because they are hurt in love. Once they become passionate again, the two of them will definitely live happily.
No matter how long it takes, he will wait.
His woman has always liked him, otherwise why would she be so soft-hearted as to let him sleep in.
When he thought of this, Lu Jingheng began to laugh foolishly.
A person grins foolishly.
Afraid of waking up my brother-in-law, I covered my mouth and smiled foolishly.
The quilt shook with laughter, then he closed his eyes and fell asleep with a silly smile.
The next morning, he got up early and cleaned the house, sent his brother-in-law to school, and bought breakfast for Bai Yangfan.
After buying the food, I ate with her, then stood up, said goodbye and left.
Bai Yangfan frowned slightly as he watched the bastard hurriedly leave. Why was he still accompanying her if she was in such a hurry? Why not leave earlier?
No wonder my stomach has never been well. It’s probably because of irregular eating habits and eating too fast.
I don’t know what this person’s eyes are. Can’t you see that she doesn’t like him at all?
Can't you see that she is a cold-blooded, heartless and ruthless woman?
The bastard has poor eyesight and fell in love with her, a heartless woman. He is so blind.
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