Lu Beixiao's inner monologue:
I didn't feel sad when I saw her being locked in the gas chamber, shooting herself, and burning to death. Killing the scorpion, shooting myself, and following her, it was a simple thing, there was nothing to be sad about.
The eternal separation of life and death is tragic, and one's hair turns white overnight.
When she disappeared and I was searching for her for a few days, I felt very calm, a calmness that is hard to describe in words. When I found her and saw that she was still breathing, at that moment, I was excited and happy!
What does it mean to lose and find again?
That's it!
Although she cannot move, has no consciousness, cannot speak, and cannot even blink, as long as she is still alive and we are still breathing together, I am content!
Every day I treat her like a normal person, chatting with her, talking about small talk, sweet words, and everything in between.
I always believed that she would wake up.
At first, everyone thought so, even the eight-year-old Lu Xiaogun and Lu Xiaowu thought so!
However, time passed day by day, month by month...
They all wondered if she would always be like this. I was the only one who persisted. In fact, there were many moments when I knew that I was deceiving myself.
Watching her old video, which I had seen several times before, I only had one feeling: sweet!
So sweet to the heart!
I will also recall the more beautiful and sweet memories we had together. In this life, the girl has brought me a lot of heavy happiness. She said in her words that in this life, she only wants me to be happy!
So, with her foresight of this life, she tried her best to help me save my good brother!
But Ye Qiao, you saved everyone, but ended up like this!
Ye Qiao, open your eyes and take a look at what I, Lu Beixiao, have become after being “tortured” by you.
In the end, I couldn't hold back and couldn't help but cry!
Because, I look at you in the video, so lively, cute, and domineering, and then I look at you on the bed, motionless, and except for breathing, there is no difference between you and a dead person!
I'm so fucking thinking that you'll never call me "Brother Xiao, Brother Xiao" or act like a spoiled child again, "Lu Beixiao! Lu Beixiao!"
The ground roared, "Land birds. Land birds. Land birds. Beasts" gnashed their teeth! My heart felt like it was being cut by a knife!
Do you understand?!
You won't punish me by making me kneel on the remote control, eat durian peels, or eat stinky tofu anymore. You won't abuse the scumbag with me or show off your love for me. You won't share my joys and sorrows with me. You will just lie there unconsciously. When I think of all this, I get mad and I'm going crazy!
Do you understand?!
At dusk, the afterglow of the setting sun bathed the entire courtyard. Dim light filtered in through the French windows, reflecting onto the bed and illuminating the person lying motionless...
The tall and straight man, his face covered in tears, walked step by step towards the bed...
At the door of the room, the little boy was stunned when he saw his father, who always taught him that a man should "shed blood but not tears", crying heart-wrenchingly with tears streaming down his face.
It turns out that even my father, who is so invincible and upright, can cry...
Later he understood that his father would cry, but only for his mother...
The man walked to the edge of the bed, sat down, and held the motionless person in his lap, tightly wrapped in his arms, his chin lowered to the top of her head, his eyes closed, and tears flowed even more freely...
Deep in the throat, a low whimpering sound came...
Who is crying and holding her tightly?
It seemed to be Brother Xiao, her Brother Xiao. She smelled his unique scent...
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