Xu Yingying said, "Jiadong can take care of me."
Yu Qiuying then told Zhou Jiadong some basic precautions. Finally, she said to the two of them, "Since you don't want to have children so early, you should take proper contraceptive measures from now on. Abortion is very harmful to a girl's body. You can't be so willful just because you're young. You'll suffer a lot."
After saying that, he glared at Zhou Jiadong.
Zhou Jiadong awkwardly touched his nose and replied embarrassingly, "Okay..."
Xu Yingying bit her lip. "Actually, I didn't initially intend to abort the child, but I wasn't mentally prepared to be a mother..."
Actually, she was afraid. She was afraid that after having a child, her figure would change, she would get fat and ugly, she was afraid that she would be trapped by her child, and she was afraid that she would eventually become like her mother, crazy and hysterical...
She is still unsure whether her mother loves her or not.
Over the years, she has tried to find traces of her mother's love in her memories, but whenever she tries to recall them, the first things that come to mind are those suffocating memories...
From the age of five, she could remember that her mother was always hysterical, and she spent every day listening to her mother's curses.
Her mother would often hit her when she was on the verge of a breakdown, and then hug her and cry, saying sorry and that she loved her very much.
But her mother often scolded her, saying that it was all because of her that she had become like this, that she had trapped her, and that if it weren't for her, she would have divorced her father long ago.
Her mother would often yell at her, "It's all your fault! It's all because of you! I shouldn't have given birth to you!"
The year she entered junior high school, her mother and father divorced.
Before leaving, her mother hugged her and cried for a long time, saying, "I'm sorry, Yingying, but Mommy really loves you..."
She never saw her mother again.
To this day, she still doesn't understand whether her mother loved her or not, nor does she understand why her mother acted that way.
So she was afraid. She was afraid of having children. She was afraid that if she had children, she would become like her mother.
However, Xu Yingying was actually a little sad about aborting the child.
She grabbed Zhou Jiadong's hand and asked, "Jiadong, if I get fat, ugly, or even crazy after having a child, will you hate me and divorce me?"
"No, why would I divorce you? Don't overthink it," Zhou Jiadong awkwardly comforted her.
Xu Yingying's tears welled up again, but she smiled and said, "Then you promise, you swear to me."
Zhou Jiadong glanced awkwardly at his mother and eldest sister, his voice low, "I, I promise, I swear, no matter what you become, I will never divorce you."
Yu Qiuying and Zhou Cailian exchanged a glance. Well, let's hurry up and leave. We shouldn't be third wheels here.
"Yingying, you get some rest. Third brother, take good care of Yingying. Call us if anything happens. We're heading back now."
Zhou Jiadong escorted Yu Qiuying and Zhou Cailian to the stairwell. When he returned to the ward, he saw Xu Yingying staring blankly at the ceiling.
He hurried over and asked, "Yingying, can you tell me why you're unhappy?"
“I’m not unhappy, Jiadong. Will you always be this good to me and always listen to me?” Xu Yingying looked at the man in front of her. Actually, she didn’t approach him because she fell in love at first sight. She was just arguing with her father at the time. But after spending time together, she had the idea of marrying him.
Because he is obedient.
She needs an obedient man who belongs entirely to her and is under her control.
At first, she didn't think too much about it. It was just marriage; if he became disobedient later, she could just get a divorce.
The longer they spent together, the more she found herself becoming dependent on him and liking him more and more.
"Yes, I will." Zhou Jiadong didn't know what she was thinking or why she asked that question. He wasn't good at comforting people, so he just answered truthfully.
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