Chapter 143 Misunderstanding Back then, she was straightforward and didn’t go so far as to be shameless…
Ji Shubai hasn't been to the Chai family for a while. Compared to the frequency of seeing each other every one or two days before, he now feels a sense of melancholy as if a long time has passed.
Song Jin missed him a little, so she leaned over the table and thought about him slowly.
If we talk about who can compete with Lao Lu, Ji Shubai is undoubtedly the best candidate.
She is young, wears a black hat, has power and social status, while Song Jin has nothing except youth and a little fame gained through the knowledge of the 21st century. She can only hope that a man will share it with her.
"Division" is a nice way of saying it, while "dependence" is an unpleasant way of saying it.
She had no way to get it on her own, so she could only depend on others, just like businessmen depend on officials. Here women had to depend on men. Even if Song Jin was unwilling, she had to admit that it was too difficult for a woman to survive independently in the Ming Dynasty.
Getting married is like a big gamble. After Song Jin’s temper subsided, he suddenly began to regret not agreeing to participate in this gamble with Ji Shubai that day.
If I were Ji Shubai's wife, would I be able to stand up straighter and tougher when facing my father today? Would I be able to be tougher? When I openly transferred people away and drove Old Lu out of the Ji family's old house and let him find his own way out, would he still think about taking a concubine? Would he still be able to take one?
Unfortunately, there is no medicine for regret in the world.
Song Jin felt a bit of a headache. Life was probably just a constant vacillation between "I have to rely on myself" and "I regret it".
"Master, what's wrong with you?"
Bao Bao was working on an arithmetic problem when he saw Song Jin rubbing her eyebrows. He asked her with concern.
"nothing."
"Then why do you rub your brows?"
Song Jin smiled softly: "My eyes hurt."
"Then close your eyes and take a rest. I can calculate it myself. When I'm done, I'll go to the yard and play with paper airplanes."
Song Jin smiled and really closed his eyes.
I don't know if this can be considered as a telepathic connection, but as the sun set that evening, Song Jin felt restless and couldn't concentrate on writing. He simply threw away his pen and sat in the yard in a daze. As he was there, a figure walked in at the gate of the yard that had been empty for a long time.
Ji Shubai finally had time to come and see her. He walked out from the dim light, looking extremely unreal. It was not until he stood under the golden candlelight that Song Jin was sure that he had really come.
"......grown ups."
For a moment, Song Jin almost blurted out his name. She had goose bumps all over her body, as if her expectations in the dream had come true, maybe she could really participate in this gamble.
"haven't seen you for a long time."
"haven't seen you for a long time."
"I just talked to Chai Heng in the front yard, so I came a little late."
Song Jin smiled at him. She didn't know if it was because Old Lu's scolding in the morning made her feel uncomfortable. The patriarchy became a hurdle that she couldn't get over in her heart. The moment she saw Ji Shubai, her vulnerability uncontrollably flowed from her eyes.
Ji Shubai saw her pair of bright and expectant eyes, but he didn't know the story behind it. He just thought she missed him. He became more and more excited, and even his fingertips began to tremble.
"You said before that you had something important to tell me, what was it?"
Song Jin vaguely felt that the incident was related to him.
Ji Shubai came here today indeed for that matter.
The wife of Lin Hanchi, the magistrate of the government office, has gone.
Mrs. Lin had been seriously ill since last year and had been taking medicine to recuperate, but she passed away this year.
When Ji Shubai saw Lin Hanchi, a man, crying on his wife, the first person he thought of was Song Jin.
What would happen to me if she left one day?
He felt that he would cry too, and at that moment he suddenly realized that he actually wanted Song Jin to become his wife, and he wanted to live with her day and night before he died.
So after helping Lin Hanchi with the funeral, he rushed to find Song Jin as soon as possible, wanting to tell her what was in his heart. For this purpose, he even sought advice from the counselor Chai Heng to find out how to talk to Song Jin, after all, she was the one who had rejected him once.
Chai Heng said frankly that in this kind of matter, it is best to be straightforward and to keep trying if you fail.
When Ji Shubai asked Chai Heng in detail how he had been so shameless in marrying the young lady from the Rong family, Chai Heng chuckled, "Back then, she was straightforward and didn't go to the stage of being shameless."
A bad military advisor, but there were not many people Ji Shubai could ask for advice, so he accepted it even though it was bad. So he said goodbye to Chai Heng and came to find Song Jin.
As he got closer to the courtyard where Song Jin lived, Ji Shubai became more and more nervous. He was afraid of saying the wrong thing, afraid of being rejected, and afraid of anything that might lead to his failure.
It was just like this when I took part in the palace examination.
At this moment, Song Jin was standing in front of him and asked him what the big thing was. Ji Shubai wanted to blurt out the words that he had practiced countless times on the road.
"I, I want to get married."
After stammering, Song Jin's face changed from full of expectation to cold as ice in just a moment.
Ji Shubai still had something to say, but after seeing Song Jin's expression, he immediately realized that he had said the wrong thing, and stammered to explain: "I, I mean--"
"I'm getting married too."
"What did you say?"
"I am getting married, so it will be inconvenient for me to meet you privately in the future. Please respect yourself."
After saying that, she went back to the room, turned around and closed the door without saying another word to him.
Song Jin doesn't like to be entangled in ties, giving her hope while marrying someone else. She hates such men and cuts off her connection with Ji Shubai like cutting the Gordian knot.
After she calmed down, she thought that the fact that she was alone until the age of 30 in her previous life was partly due to her personality. However, personality is something that is even harder to give up than blood.
This strong and decisive character has been with her from the last life to this one, inseparable, forcing her to never bow her head or compromise for a moment in front of Ji Shubai's feelings.
In any case, Ji Shubai was getting married, and she, who still had covetous thoughts about him, should not meet him privately again. She did not want to indulge her thoughts and interfere in other people's marriages, and she did not want to know who that woman was.
Because no matter who it is, she will only be jealous.
She wanted to cut off her thoughts, and the best way was to get married.
When Old Lu heard that Song Jin decided to find a matchmaker to arrange a marriage, his face darkened.
"What about Master Ji? He still won't marry you? You've been together for so long, why haven't you managed to seduce her?"
Song Jin had long been accustomed to this kind of criticism. Although he felt uncomfortable inside, he knew that not talking back would make him feel more relaxed.
Her old trick was to see herself as a puppet, which isolated her from much pain.
Correspondingly, she also covered her memory of Ji Shubai with a layer of vague veil, letting his face slowly become a phantom in her mind, and she was unwilling to let him make any waves.
She was filled with regret, and it was not until the matchmaker Mrs. Wang entered the house that she realized she had no way out.
Song Jin will not be unable to get married, the question is who will she marry into?
For her, getting married is like jumping from one fire pit into another. She doesn't know whether it is easier to deal with staying in Lao Lu's fire pit or finding another strange man.
Looking at Mrs. Wang's happy face, she hesitated between dancing and not dancing.
"Oh, this girl is very pretty. Leave her to me and I will find you a satisfactory husband."
When Song Jin heard the word "husband's family", he raised his chin slightly, and his face finally showed the air of life.
"Please help me with this, Mom. My requirements are not low."
"Go ahead. Everyone knows that the daughter of the Lu family's food shop is famous. It would be strange if she didn't have some requirements."
Song Jin smiled and did not ask whether the name was a good name or a bad name. He just put forward his request lightly.
"The man I want to marry must at least be a juren, young and good-looking."
Mrs. Wang thought for a moment and the smile on her face faded.
Speaking of juren, Suzhou is also a well-known place for imperial examinations. Every time juren came to Beijing, the number of juren from Suzhou was either first or second. It is understandable that a famous woman would want to marry a juren.
But what are the requirements for being young and good-looking? The fact that there are many juren does not mean that there are many young juren, not to mention that young and good-looking juren are hard to find even with a lantern. If there really is one, many young ladies will be vying for it.
Thinking of this, Mrs. Wang couldn't help but glance up and down at Song Jin, thinking: How could she be the one to take care of such a popular item?
Who knew that Song Jin’s request was not over yet.
"My family wants a son-in-law."
When Mrs. Chen was seeing Mrs. Wang off, Mrs. Wang stood at the door and held Mrs. Chen's hand and said, "You, tell your daughter to wait patiently. I will wait until the autumn examination is over next year, and then I will choose among the successful candidates to see who will be the one that suits your daughter. Go back, don't see me off."
Mrs. Wang left, and when she reached the street corner she couldn't help but look back at Lu's Food Store.
What background? It's fine if she wants to be a juren, but she also wants to marry into the family of the emperor. Even princesses don't dare to be so picky. She deserves to be unmarried for the rest of her life. No wonder the legendary Lord Ji didn't marry her. She was really bold in asking for it.
Song Jin is getting married, and the one who is devastated is Ji Shubai.
That night he was so nervous that he went to talk to Song Jin about getting married again. However, he said the wrong thing out of nervousness, and changed "I want to marry you" into "I want to get married". Before he could explain, Song Jin replied that he also wanted to get married.
As the door closed, he felt that he and Song Jin were completely separated. He knocked on the door unwillingly and asked, "Who are you going to marry? Who are you going to marry?"
I have never been so jealous of a man in my life.
Ji Shubai stumbled out of the courtyard without getting a reply, and met Chai Heng who was waiting for good news from him in the hall. However, instead of good news, he got a distraught man.
"Hey, what's going on?" In fact, I knew without thinking that I was rejected again.
It shouldn't be.
He helped Ji Shubai sit down on the chair. Ji Shubai didn't say anything, but leaned on the table with his shoulders shaking.
"What happened?"
"She, she's getting married."
"Get married? With whom?"
Ji Shubai shook his head and said nothing. Chai Heng couldn't help but sigh and ordered someone to ask his wife to come over.
Women, I always understand women better.
Mrs. Chai came and saw Ji Shubai sitting there with red eyes. She exclaimed, "Oh, what's going on?"
Chai Heng quickly shook his head and told her not to ask any more questions. He leaned close to her ear and told her the story. Mrs. Chai said, "That's not right. I don't think she was indifferent to you before."
"So, this woman changes her attitude faster than turning the pages of a book."
Chai Heng blurted out, and his wife gave him a glare. He shrank his neck and immediately fell silent.
"What did you say to her?"
After hearing Mrs. Chai's question, Ji Shubai said, "I'm getting married." Mrs. Chai suddenly realized what was going on and asked who came up with the idea. Ji Shubai then looked at Chai Heng.
In an instant, Chai Heng let out a scream like a pig being slaughtered.
"Ma'am, please be gentle—"
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