"So this is the reason why you left in such a hurry." After many years, Zhang You finally understood why they missed Qiao Si's coming-of-age ceremony.
If she were in his shoes, she would make the same choice.
"Well, Master passed away last autumn. I was busy dealing with Master's funeral at the time, so I didn't pay attention to what was happening in the capital. By the time I heard that Prince Qiao was in trouble, it was already too late... I'm sorry I couldn't help you."
"You don't have to apologize to me." Zhang You chuckled and spoke slowly, with a melancholy in her tone that she didn't even notice: "I'm no longer the princess's."
Upon hearing this, Yu Sheng looked up in surprise.
"I was lucky enough to survive. I wasn't involved in the turmoil in the capital, and I don't know what happened. I only heard from others that the dynasty was overthrown and the new dynasty was replaced.
...As for the princess, I don't know how she's doing now." Zhang You spoke slowly. Even now, when she mentioned it, she could still recall the resentment of being treated as an abandoned child by Qiao Si.
"Have you ever thought about going back?"
Zhang You gave a bitter smile and raised his eyes again. His dark eyes were filled with unpredictable emotions. “There’s no going back… I’m her abandoned child.”
Yu Sheng paused while drinking his tea, obviously not expecting such an answer.
No wonder she ended up here alone...
Yu Sheng has been doing business in Jiangnan with Yu Shengsheng in the past few years, so how could she not understand what Zhang You meant.
It was just that as an outsider, she had no way of getting involved in all the love and hate, so she just gently comforted Zhang You: "It's all in the past. You are now a new person. It's a good thing to start over."
"Well, you're right. It's time to change my identity and start a new life. I almost forgot to mention that I'm no longer Xia He. My name is Zhang You."
…
They hadn't seen each other for so long that they talked for a long time, from noon to dusk. When night fell, Zhang You invited Yu Sheng to stay at her house and they talked about their experiences over the years all night long.
Perhaps it was because it felt so good to have someone to talk to, or perhaps it was because the feeling of having someone by your side made people think of the past. Zhang You cried spinelessly after returning home.
Looking at Yu Sheng, she recalled many things from the past. Although she hadn't drunk any alcohol, she felt like she was drunk, her mind a mess, filled with scenes from the past.
She thought of Chunhua, who slept next to her bed and took care of her gently like a sister every time she was sick.
She recalled the years when the four of them lived together, and she was always dragged by the three of them to learn martial arts, but she really had no talent and no perseverance, and she only learned some fancy moves.
She recalled the relaxed and leisurely time they had in Dingzhou. The scenery was great then, they were all young, many of them were still alive, and they didn't have to worry about much.
She also thought about how some people had disappeared from her life over the years, and she and her servants had to stay in the capital, walking on thin ice and being very cautious.
She thought back to the moment of their final separation. Everything happened so suddenly that she didn't even have the chance to say goodbye to Qiuyue Dongmei and the others.
She also remembered that when she fell off the cliff, Chunhua protected her tightly and would rather fall off the cliff herself to protect her.
So many memories.
It hurts so much.
She thought she had let it go.
But in the middle of the night, those memories quietly crept into my mind.
It surges like a tide, easily creating huge waves in the mind.
Zhang You hugged Yu Sheng and cried heart-wrenchingly.
"Why did you let us be scapegoats? Why did you abandon us?
She had clearly promised that she would never let us get hurt again and would never give up on us...
In fact, if she didn't say it, we would have done it for her, but she said, "I can't get over this!" Whenever I think about it, I can feel the sadness and helplessness of being abandoned by them at that moment!
There's no going back...
"But why did Hua'er push me away in the end? Is it really important for me to survive? I would rather die with her on the same day of the same month of the same year! But she pushed me away, and she left alone first..." She had been holding these words in her heart for a long, long time. Once a hole appeared in the cage of emotions, all the remaining emotions would be vented. The more Zhang You spoke, the more painful it became, and she couldn't stop crying.
Perhaps her crying was too contagious. Yu Sheng was infected by her emotions and recalled the events of those years, and was overwhelmed with sadness for a moment.
Over the years, her master had patiently taught her, guided her to be herself, and taught her business. She had long known that her master would not live long, but she still couldn't accept it. Even when the moment of her master's passing finally came, she still couldn't accept it! When she buried her master in the Yu family's ancestral tomb, she wished she could die right there. But she also didn't want to let her master down for all the years of teaching her, nor did she want her master to be heartbroken that the apprentice she had taught for so many years would die just like that.
But she was living in a daze. During this period, she wandered around aimlessly, from winter to summer, from Tangye to Taiping.
It was not until she walked here and met Zhang You that she suddenly realized that so much time had passed since her master left.
But she still missed her master and couldn't let go of every little thing in the past.
She was still comforting Zhang You, but before she knew it, she started crying too.
Zhang You didn't remember when she fell asleep from exhaustion, but in her dream, she saw an old friend she hadn't seen for a long time...
Perhaps what you think about during the day will appear in your dreams at night. In his dream, Zhang You saw the eleven-year-old Qiao Si.
Everything has not started yet, they have not met yet, and those people are still alive.
Zhang You returned to Prince Qiao's mansion and saw the bright and beautiful girl with radiant hair. She wore a red dress with her long black hair tied high behind her head. Holding her silver spear, she was practicing the moves Prince Qiao had taught her in the courtyard.
Zhang You was so fascinated by what he saw that he called her name softly. She called out, "Qiao Si."
The voice was very soft, but the wind still carried it to Qiao Si's ears. She turned around and looked at him, with a brightness in her eyes that Zhang You had never seen before.
"Are you calling me?" The girl came over, looking so lively and bright.
Zhang You was stunned for a long time before she said, "Yes."
"Do you know me? Why haven't I seen you before? Where are you from?" The girl chattered incessantly and was extremely lively.
"Me?..." Zhang You wanted to say something, but she hesitated for a long time before saying it. "You'll know later."
"You are such a weird person." The girl frowned slightly and was about to turn around and leave.
Zhang You was reluctant to disturb Qiao Si, who knew nothing at the moment. She was too innocent and too beautiful. She didn't want to experience the reality again as she did in her dream.
So she just looked at Qiao Si's back as he left, and said with mixed emotions: "Qiao Si, goodbye."
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