Chapter 519: Taking the initiative to confess to you
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[On October 17, 2011, Lu Yuanqiu and I were rehearsing a stage play in the band practice room. I played Shuicao's mother and he played Shuicao's father. Lu Yuanqiu and Liu Wangchun had a little dispute over the performance because Liu Wangchun wanted to play Shuicao's father. I felt that Lu Yuanqiu was more suitable, but I didn't dare to say it.]
In the photo, Lu Yuanqiu was frowning as he was having a serious discussion with Liu Wangchun, and he was wearing circles of green cardboard.
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[On December 4, 2011, Lu Yuanqiu just kissed me on the corner of my mouth. I was so nervous. This maple leaf also kissed him on the corner of his mouth. Would the maple leaf be nervous?]
The photo shows a slender hand holding a red maple leaf.
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[On December 31, 2011, we were about to go on stage. I was worried about the coordination, but Lu Yuanqiu was very relaxed. He was really generous.]
The photo shows Lu Yuanqiu hiding behind the stage and lifting the curtain to peek at the stage from behind. He looks like a thief.
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Lu Yuanqiu flipped through the pages one by one. He blinked and shook his head slightly as he looked at the contents recorded in each photo. At first he still had a smile on his face, but the more he looked, the more sore his eyes became, and his eye sockets gradually turned red.
Lu Yuanqiu had never been so moved.
I have never been cared for in this way by anyone, not even my parents.
The light in the dormitory was very dim. There was only a lamp on his desk, which illuminated the photo album on the table and Lu Yuanqiu's face with mixed emotions.
Little swan, little swan, no... little angel.
After flipping through the photo album, Lu Yuanqiu suddenly discovered that there was a long paragraph of text written on the inside of the last cover.
[Lu Yuanqiu, I write these words at the end, I hope they don’t affect your mood when you start looking through the photo album from the beginning.]
[Actually, your 19th birthday present is something else. This photo album was originally a gift I was going to give you later, maybe when you graduate, or when you turn 20? I didn’t plan to give it to you now, after all, there are only a few photos at the moment, and they were taken over a semester.]
[How should I put it? This gift is not complete at the moment, just like my feelings for you. I gave it away prematurely out of panic when I was not fully prepared. I feel a little overwhelmed and don’t know what to do. This is not what I want.]
[You should like this gift, right? But I feel awkward about handing over a secret.]
【I have a small request! 】
[Can we not talk tomorrow? Just one day is fine.]
"What the hell is going on if I don't talk tomorrow?"
"panic?"
Was it because he heard that Long Liandong was going to send a gift that he sent this gift, which had been expected to take a long time to prepare, in advance?
Lu Yuanqiu couldn't help but laugh. They just used a basic attack and tricked you into using your ultimate skill before you could even prepare for it... No, Lu Yuanqiu thought of how Long Liandong sang the birthday song in the afternoon. It seemed that Long Liandong was in a difficult situation too.
He glanced at the thickness of the album. It was actually quite thick. Although the photos in it were not recorded every day, there were dozens of them in total.
The gift was indeed thoughtful, but Lu Yuanqiu's eyes stayed on the line "the gift is still in the stage of preparation but not yet fully prepared" for a long time.
At this moment, the door of dormitory 401 was slowly pushed open. Zheng Yifeng took out the toothbrush from his mouth and asked curiously, "Are you still not asleep? Didn't you drink?"
"Come, come, come."
Lu Yuanqiu waved at him furtively. Seeing this, Zheng Yifeng walked in with some confusion. He glanced at the other three people sleeping on the bed and asked in a low voice, "What's wrong?"
"Look, this is the birthday present Bai Qingxia gave me." Lu Yuanqiu proudly held his head high and showed him the photo album.
Zheng Yifeng casually flipped through a few photos, and an expression of envy suddenly appeared on his face. If Su Miaomiao could give him a gift like this... forget it, Su Miaomiao would never give it to him.
He raised his head and looked at Lu Yuanqiu: "You have expressed your feelings to this extent. It seems that it doesn't matter whether you two confess or not."
Lu Yuanqiu took the photo album back and sighed, "Not confessing means that the relationship cannot be confirmed. She is quite traditional in her thinking. If the relationship is not confirmed, she will instinctively resist overly intimate physical contact, even if the other party is me."
Aren’t you guys close enough… Zheng Yifeng retorted in his heart.
After Lu Yuanqiu finished speaking, he turned to the last page of the photo album and handed it to Zheng Yifeng: "Look at the words at the end. She panicked because she heard that Long Liandong was going to give me a birthday present."
Zheng Yifeng nodded: "I know."
You know a lot, kid... Lu Yuanqiu thought to himself. He raised his chin slightly and asked, "Can you help me analyze it?"
Zheng Yifeng looked up after reading it: "In fact, I have always wondered why Bai Qingxia likes you so much and cares so much about Long Liandong getting close to you, but still hasn't broken the news with you. It seems that she is not ready yet."
"But I can probably tell...she meant to confess to you when she was ready. Maybe this photo album was a confession gift, but because of Long Liandong, she got anxious and was forced to give it away early. Now it seems like it's not going to end well. The fundamental reason is that she's not ready yet."
Hearing this, Lu Yuanqiu turned his head and looked at the passage again. It seemed that there was indeed that meaning. He immediately laughed: "Aren't your reading comprehension quite poor?"
Zheng Yifeng chuckled and responded with the words he said on New Year's Eve: "Those involved are confused, but those who are on the sidelines can see things more clearly. As someone involved in the situation, your ability to judge will be affected."
After he finished speaking, he took a moment to brush his teeth.
Lu Yuanqiu curled his lips, but after understanding Bai Qingxia's thoughts, he still smiled happily.
Take the initiative to confess to me, look forward to it...but the question is, when???
Zheng Yifeng took the toothbrush and continued, "But it depends on why she is not ready. Find the reason and solve it. Then she should be able to take that step bravely."
Lu Yuanqiu nodded. He knew very well that Bai Qingxia still had a bit of inferiority complex. Family reasons and the comparison with her "enemy" Long Liandong were like a vicious cycle that influenced each other, making her always trapped in the internal friction of "not worthy".
But what Lu Yuanqiu actually wanted to say was, I am not worthy of you, little swan. But even if he said this, Bai Qingxia would regard it as comforting her.
She had to see certain results happen for herself...similar to Uncle Bai returning to normal?
Uncle Bai has always been a burden that she can't let go of, as if she can't regain her freedom and do something without seeing Uncle Bai getting better.
Logically speaking, whether Bai Songzhe recovers or not will not affect Bai Qingxia's relationship in college, but Lu Yuanqiu knows that no one can truly empathize with Bai Qingxia's inner situation, because no one has ever walked the same path as her, and no one can personally experience all the shadows she has gone through.
(End of this chapter)
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