"you--"
"you--"
After they stopped, the two spoke at the same time, but Ji Siyuan stopped and gestured for Chi Chan to speak first.
"You still haven't answered my question from before: why did you choose this major?"
"And what about you? Didn't you want to go to Nanxing University? Why did you end up coming to Tsinghua University?"
"..."
A long silence followed.
After more than a month apart, the two had become much more estranged, and an indescribable atmosphere of deathly silence permeated their relationship.
"sorry."
Chi Chan suddenly spoke.
"All those things I said about the probationary period before were just to appease you. You're right about everything. I just want to keep delaying until school starts, and then find some excuse to say we're not a good match."
"so--?"
"Whether it's being in the same city, going to the same school, or simply not liking long-distance relationships... any reason will do. But in the end, I never expected to get such good results on the college entrance exam..."
Ji Siyuan was just staring intently at Chi Chan, but Chi Chan became more and more guilty as she spoke.
I feel like a scumbag woman, deceiving other people's sincere feelings.
However, that is indeed the case.
"I don't want to hear any of that. I just want to hear the real reasons in your heart for rejecting me."
Ji Siyuan had been fooled by Chi Chan more than once, and what Chi Chan said just now was certainly part of the reason.
But Ji Siyuan didn't think that Chi Chan would make such a foolish mistake as to offend him because of these superficial reasons.
Yes, in Ji Siyuan's mind, Chi Chan was very calm and realistic, and was the best at weighing the pros and cons before doing anything.
Even though they were friends, Ji Siyuan was confident in himself, and a friend like him undoubtedly held a certain weight in Chi Chan's heart.
To put it more bluntly, Chi Chan still has a lot of 'use value' and 'residual value' for him. Chi Chan is unlikely to choose to appease him and offend him for some trivial reason she gives.
Chi Chan closed her eyes and took a deep breath.
At this moment, she truly loathed Ji Siyuan's stubborn personality.
Chi Chan smiled bitterly: "Ji Siyuan, do we have to be so clear about things? In the end, we won't even be able to be friends anymore?"
Ji Siyuan did not respond, but Chi Chan knew that Ji Siyuan was waiting for an answer.
One reason why he would rather risk losing him as a friend than tell him why he wouldn't give it a try.
Chi Chan couldn't persuade Ji Siyuan, so she could only say dryly, "Actually, the reason is very simple: I don't want to try with you because I'm afraid that I will eventually fall in love with you."
Ji Siyuan was extremely surprised in the darkness.
He had considered many reasons, but he never expected that Chi Chan would be concerned about this reason.
Ji Siyuan looked at Chi Chan with great confusion.
He didn't dislike Chi Chan and thought being with Chi Chan was a good choice. Why did his conclusion turn out to be the opposite when it came to Chi Chan?
Are you afraid you won't be able to control yourself and will fall for him?
So you refuse to be with him?
After revealing the answer that had been hidden in her heart, Chi Chan felt much more relieved.
He even smiled and said, "Don't you think this answer is ridiculous?"
Because of a game, you feel you've wronged me and offer to take responsibility. Plus, you might not dislike me, so you seize the opportunity to propose being together? Actually, the very act of you offering to 'take responsibility' is ridiculous!
After listening, Ji Siyuan wanted to say that he was not like that. Perhaps he had this idea when he first proposed taking responsibility, but his idea changed when he brought it up again later.
However, when he told Chi Chan what he was thinking, Chi Chan didn't believe him at all.
Or rather, whether you believe it or not is no longer important.
"Ji Siyuan, you've never really understood yourself, have you?"
You're good-looking, intelligent, and come from a good family...
Although he is a bit aloof, there is nothing wrong with his way of dealing with people.
This kind of guy is the dream guy of every girl.
However, the fact that you don't even like a girl like Ye Zijing, who is your equal in social standing, only makes me feel that there is an insurmountable gap between us.
So, I'm not good enough for you. Rather than uncontrollably falling for you in the end and then painfully being broken up with, it's better if we never even started. Do you understand what I mean?
After saying her last sentence, Chi Chan closed her eyes in despair, awaiting Ji Siyuan's verdict.
"Oh--"
Ji Siyuan let out a cold laugh.
My heart felt empty for a moment.
He had always admired Chi Chan's composure, but now, as Chi Chan wielded the sharp knife of composure and stabbed him without hesitation, he felt nothing but bitterness.
"You really are—"
Realistic, selfish, indifferent, ruthless...
In the end, Ji Siyuan didn't know what words to use to describe Chi Chan.
On the contrary, Chi Chan chuckled self-deprecatingly and then casually picked up where Ji Siyuan left off: "See, I was right. If we make things clear, we definitely won't even be able to be friends in the end."
With your outstanding qualities, you're sure to meet a girl at Tsinghua University who shares your ideals and is a perfect match in terms of family background and appearance. Then, you can say the word "responsibility" to her!
When you meet a girl like that, I will definitely wish you both well!
Don't hesitate to invite your old classmate to your wedding!
After finishing speaking, Chi Chan turned and left.
She was afraid that if she stayed even a second longer, she would lose the smile on her face.
Ji Siyuan stood there, not trying to stop him.
Chi Chan's pace quickened until she finally stopped.
She looked up at the sky, blinked rapidly, trying to hide something glistening in her eyes.
Whether it's a past life or this life, no matter what changes Chi Chan's outward personality has undergone.
Deep down, Chi Chan has always been a very proud person, and this pride is reflected in her never easily admitting defeat.
This is also reflected in the fact that she is a person who admires strength.
Her views on choosing a partner are inherently influenced by her admiration for strength.
Therefore, Chi Chan and Chi Minghe were always at odds in their past lives.
At its core, Chi Minghe is just a migrant worker with little ability who only knows how to do manual labor to earn money.
Chi Chan, who admires strength in everything, naturally looked down on Chi Minghe. She disliked Chi Minghe as a person and therefore constantly found fault with his actions, finding him nagging and meddling too much…
After being reborn, Chi Chan, whose edges had been smoothed out by the realities of society, learned to be considerate and empathetic.
But his deeply hidden views on choosing a partner remain unchanged.
Chi Chan is still someone who admires strength. She hopes that her future partner will be someone she will admire for a lifetime, and that such an admired person will have her completely filling their eyes and heart.
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