Shu Jia couldn't explain the reason for her inexplicable resistance.
So Shu Jia said to Li Qingji, "This is too fast. I can't accept it. Every stage of dating should be gradual."
Li Qingji nodded in agreement.
One or two such answers are fine, but over time, with too many rejections, Li Qingji isn't stupid; how could he not sense Shu Jia's resistance?
As a result, the two had their first argument since they started dating.
Li Qingji felt that his girlfriend didn't love him at all, otherwise why would she keep rejecting normal physical contact between lovers?
Shu Jia couldn't refute it, because Li Qingji was right.
Shu Jia didn't mind Li Qingji's past relationships at all, nor did she have any desire to know about them.
Although Li Qingji is consistent in his relationships, it doesn't change the fact that he has a "central air conditioning" personality. When Li Qingji is showing concern for other girls, Shu Jia remains completely unmoved.
However, whenever Li Qingji couldn't resist making physical contact with her, Shu Jia would subconsciously back away and refuse, instead of looking forward to it with joy and acceptance.
After this argument, the two parted on bad terms.
Shu Jia felt that the relationship was completely over. The breakup didn't cause Shu Jia any pain or discomfort. She only felt relieved. Finally, she didn't have to think of excuses to refuse Li Qingji's dates or refuse his physical contact anymore.
The only thing Shu Jia couldn't get over was that this breakup wasn't Li Qingji's fault, but her own.
In other words, Shu Jia felt quite sorry for Li Qingji. After all, Li Qingji hadn't done anything wrong in this relationship. It was she who didn't love Li Qingji from the beginning, but accepted Li Qingji's confession.
"Of course it's your fault, you heartless scumbag who deceived someone's feelings."
The roommate felt heartbroken about the argument between the two.
"Besides, Li Qingji had already turned over a new leaf, but he ended up falling for a heartless scumbag like you. How heartbroken and desperate he must be!"
Shu Jia: ...
After hearing what my roommate said, I suddenly felt even more guilty.
I didn't like her, but I've been with her for so long. It seems like I really did deceive her feelings.
However, she and Li Qingji had already parted on bad terms, so she could only make it up to him in other ways later.
I need to find an opportunity to apologize to them when I have time.
Shu Jia secretly made up her mind.
But just two days after he made up his mind, Li Qingji came knocking on his door.
When Li Qingji, who was always so elegant, saw Shu Jia again, she was disheveled and unkempt, and had lost a lot of weight in just a few days.
From the moment he first saw Shu Jia, he nervously and cautiously apologized to her: "I was too hasty. If you're not ready, we can get along like ordinary friends and slowly develop our relationship."
After Li Qingji said that, Shu Jia realized she couldn't bring herself to say "break up completely" and "apologize."
And just like that, Li Qingji and Shu Jia reconciled.
After they reconciled, Li Qingji treated Shu Jia even more attentively than before. Regarding intimate contact, he seemed to have suddenly entered a meditative state, as if he had seen through the illusions of the world.
Since Shu Jia didn't bring it up, he didn't insist anymore. Moreover, during their dates, Li Qingji always knew exactly how to handle Shu Jia.
With such high emotional intelligence, it's no wonder that Li Qingji is a well-known romantic in the academy. Even Shu Jia later had to admit that she was too cold in this relationship.
However, Shu Jia felt that it was alright to maintain this relationship with Li Qingji, and she didn't object to it.
Before they knew it, the two had been together again for more than half a year.
The students were all amazed. As expected of the goddess Shu Jia, she actually managed to make Li Qingji, this playboy, turn over a new leaf.
Outsiders only see the beautiful surface of the relationship; only Shu Jia herself knows the true feelings behind it.
Shu Jia herself was quite surprised that this relationship, with its ups and downs, had lasted for so long without ending.
This also left Shu Jia puzzled. She didn't know why, even though Li Qingji was tolerant of her and put her first in everything, Shu Jia could never fully devote herself to her relationship with Li Qingji.
When she was a child, wasn't the hero she imagined someone who would always tolerate her and do whatever she wanted? Why is it that now that she has met such a person, her heart still can't beat like a drum?
Perhaps the real driving force that kept her and Li Qingji together for nearly a year was not the growth of their relationship, but rather her guilt.
They've been dating for almost a year, and aside from holding hands and hugging every day, Shu Jia still finds it hard to accept even kissing.
To date, their intimate relationship has remained at the stage of kissing on the cheek.
Shu Jia knew very well that Li Qingji had given far more than she had in this relationship. Therefore, when the two argued, unless it involved matters of principle, Shu Jia was always the one who understood and backed down.
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With her senior year approaching, thesis topic selection, thesis writing, defense, internship... coupled with the surge in work tasks and workload brought about by the rapid development of Chenxing Media, Shu Jia's already scarce free time was squeezed out completely.
At that time, Li Qingji, who had already found a job and finished writing his thesis, was at his most relaxed.
This leisurely pace was reflected in the fact that Li Qingji began to meet with Shu Jia more frequently.
Perhaps Shu Jia rejected him too many times, or perhaps Shu Jia's indifference was too obvious; in any case, this time, the two had the most intense argument since they started dating.
"I understand you say you're busy, but every time I ask you out, you're busy. Are you really that busy? So busy that you don't even have time to have a meal with me? Do you even remember that I'm your boyfriend? Everything else is more important than me, Shu Jia. Ask yourself honestly, have you ever truly cared about me even once?"
"I really don't have time. My supervisor told me I have to revise my paper and hand it in to him this week. I haven't edited this episode's video yet, and there's also a project at Chenxing that I need to follow up on urgently..."
"Enough! You've never cared about me. Shu Jia, I really doubt whether I can ever warm your heart!"
Li Qingji gave Shu Jia a deep look, his eyes filled with a sadness that Shu Jia had never seen before.
Shu Jia had seen all sorts of Li Qingji: confident, handsome, affectionate, sunny... but she had never seen Li Qingji like this before.
Shu Jia stood there stunned, deeply moved by that look. By the time she realized what was happening and wanted to apologize to Li Qingji, he had already disappeared.
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