Why should we draw such a clear line between us?
He hugged Ji Qingzhou, whispered his name softly, and called him tenderly and distressedly over and over again, "Zhou Zhou."
Ji Qingzhou's heart softened instantly. He clenched his fists unconsciously. He neither pushed Chu Cheng away nor hugged him back.
He whispered, "This is the last time, Chu Cheng, don't do this again next time."
Chu Cheng said nothing, he let go of him slightly and looked at him. Ji Qingzhou lowered his head and his expression could not be seen clearly.
Chu Cheng lowered his head to kiss him, but Ji Qingzhou slightly turned his face to avoid his kiss. This was the first time he rejected his kiss. Even when they first met, when Chu Cheng tried to kiss him, he would not avoid it, and would even be very considerate and offer his other face to him, tactfully suggesting that he could also be kissed here.
But now, he rejected Chu Cheng's kiss. He said, "Don't do this. This is inappropriate."
Chu Cheng stared at him quietly without saying a word.
"You should let me go." Ji Qingzhou said softly.
Chu Cheng stared at him without blinking, but did not let go of the hands holding Ji Qingzhou.
"Let go." Ji Qingzhou reminded again.
Chu Cheng didn't let go and continued to stare at him.
Ji Qingzhou looked up at him helplessly, staring at him with a pair of eyes, and said stubbornly, "You should let go."
Chu Cheng looked at his black and white eyes, not understanding how he could let himself go again and again without any psychological burden. Does Ji Qingzhou like him? He thought, if he likes him, why can he let him go so stubbornly, and draw a clear line between him and himself so decisively without any hesitation. But if he doesn't like him, why doesn't he push him away? Obviously, he only needs to push himself away to leave, so why does he let himself let go first again and again?
Why didn't he push him away first?
"If you push me away, you can leave naturally." Chu Cheng looked at him, "You don't need me to let go, as long as you push me away, you can leave, right?"
Ji Qingzhou was stunned for a moment. He didn't expect Chu Cheng to say such a thing. He stared at Chu Cheng, feeling stunned and uncomfortable. He lowered his eyes unconsciously to hide his sadness at the moment, but he couldn't help feeling a little sour in his heart.
He had never pushed Chu Cheng away, whether during the contract period or now after the contract ended. Except for the initial struggle when Chu Cheng wanted to drive, he had never refused Chu Cheng at other times when he wanted to hug or kiss him, or even do other things.
He liked Chu Cheng so much, how could he bear to push him away. But now, Chu Cheng asked him to push him away.
Ji Qingzhou's eyes were slightly hot. He stood there, wanting to raise his hand but unable to do so. If he could push Chu Cheng away, he would have done so when Chu Cheng just hugged him. Why did he wait until now? He suddenly felt that Chu Cheng was very annoying. It was obviously him who took the initiative to hug him, but he asked him to push him away. It was obviously him who set the deadline, and he didn't like him, but he still pestered him after the contract ended.
He has been gradually adapting to life without Chu Cheng. He has put his heart into it and just wants to live his present life well, but Chu Cheng still wants to make things difficult for him.
Ji Qingzhou felt wronged, but more uncomfortable. He slowly raised his hand, telling himself that they would always come to this point, from verbal rejection to physical rejection. Even if it wasn't today, tomorrow, or someday in the future, he would push Chu Cheng away and tell him, "Let go."
Since they have broken up, they should have ended it cleanly. If he could verbally reject Chu Cheng's care and concern, he should also reject Chu Cheng's physical contact.
He should have pushed Chu Cheng away. He should have pushed him away as early as when Chu Cheng hugged him.
Ji Qingzhou raised his hand without looking at Chu Cheng, trying to push him away, but before he could touch Chu Cheng, his hand was grabbed. Ji Qingzhou looked up in surprise. Chu Cheng was looking at him, and he held his hand to stop his action.
Ji Qingzhou didn't understand what he wanted to do. It was him who made him push him away, and now he was holding him. What did he want? He couldn't see clearly, so he simply struggled in Chu Cheng's hand, trying to break free from Chu Cheng's hand and push him away, but Chu Cheng held it very tightly and he couldn't break free at all.
"What are you doing?" Ji Qingzhou was angry and helpless. "You asked me to push you away. What are you doing now? Chu Cheng, let me go."
As he struggled, Chu Cheng felt his movements, slightly exerted force on the hand that was holding him, and hugged him again, holding his hand tightly.
Ji Qingzhou raised his other hand to pull the hand that he was holding, but heard Chu Cheng whispered in his ear, "Don't push me away, don't push me away, Zhou Zhou, I was wrong, I shouldn't have done that to you, I was wrong, can you forgive me?"
His voice was very low, filled with depression and pain. Ji Qingzhou listened and stopped what he was doing.
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