Xu Yixing lowered his head, tears welling up in his eyes, he didn't know whether he was crying for himself or for his father.
How could this world be like this!
If he couldn't even trust his father's past love, how would Xu Yixing cope with himself and face himself after having died once?
After returning home and sending Siqin and the others away, Xu Yixing buried himself in the quilt, hiding his crying voice deeply in the not-so-thick quilt.
But unlike before, this time she couldn't fall asleep. The memories in the fog came back bit by bit, and while she was still awake, they hit her dizzy and her head was swollen.
She first saw herself, a small person, with her neck stiffened, scolding someone. Then she saw that person, although scolded by her, was still walking away happily, and even the deep scar on her arm that was visible to the bone seemed to no longer hurt.
Arms... Scars... Grandson's worries!
Xu Yixing remembered that Sun Ziyou had a scar on his right arm. At that time, he had asked him how he got it, but he didn't answer and looked at him with a strange look on his face. Later, when he asked urgently, he said that he was injured in the army.
Could it be that the injuries he suffered when he was a child were caused by me?
Although she couldn't quite remember what she had done at the time, Xu Yixing could clearly feel that she absolutely hated that man to the core and was deliberately teasing him.
The scene changed, and she saw herself sitting on a horse again, talking to a few people around her. Then everyone looked at the man in the middle of the stables, only to see that he was being dragged behind him by a big horse in an almost embarrassing manner.
The horse was tall and strong, and the person being dragged was just a child of the same age as him, not even as tall as the horse, and was struggling to keep his balance and not be pulled down.
Xu Yixing couldn't see the man's face clearly, but the scars on the half arm were vaguely visible.
This is still Sun Zi's worry.
When he saw his grandson's expression, he laughed heartily, and the people around him laughed along with him, like a group of emotionless executioners.
"I've already told you he's just an idiot. He'll do whatever I tell him to do! Hahahahaha!"
Xu Yixing could certainly recognize the voice of her childhood, so harsh and sharp. She covered her ears tightly, but it was no use. The voice came from her mind, laughing into her heart without any resistance, making her uncomfortable and distressed.
Going further, she returned to the time when there was no scar on the figure's arm. The two stood opposite each other, and it seemed that the little boy was very happy, happy to be friends with her.
"Hey, do you dare to compete with my bodyguard in swordsmanship? If you can beat him, I'll let you play with my Western horse."
"It's a deal!"
Xu Yixing smiled bitterly. He knew that he couldn't stop the situation, but he still wanted to remind the child that this was very dangerous.
Our bodyguard is tall and strong, with a big knife on his back. You are as small as a chicken, how can you be his opponent!
Moreover, the Western Region horse is the largest one in the stable. Her father never lets her touch it because it has a bad temper and is difficult to train. Letting his grandson You ride it is like deliberately trying to make him fall to death.
Xu Yixing didn't even need to recall how the knife wound on Sun Ziyou's arm and the scene of him being dragged by a horse came about.
It seems that I was really bad when I was a child, at least I was very bad to my grandson You.
The picture kept changing. Anyway, as long as it was a memory about Sun Ziyou, he was either playing a prank on him or trying to encourage others to isolate him.
Xu Yixing didn't want to recall the past, but she also saw some other things at the same time. She had to know why she treated her grandson like this. It was definitely not without reason!
"You know shit! I'm training your cold tolerance. Practicing martial arts shirtless in the snow is real skill!"
"Can you please act like a man? You can't even lift such a light stone. Otherwise, I'll call you Miss Sun from now on. Shame on you!"
"Tsk, you can't even outrun my hound, how can you be my friend? I'm telling you, I like kids who can run fast!"
"You're so disgusting, why didn't I just throw you to death?"
"Get lost! Do you think you deserve to like me? Why don't you buy a mirror and look at yourself properly?"
"If you bother me again, I'll let my dad beat you up!"
. . .
These words were becoming more and more excessive, and Xu Yixing now felt unfamiliar listening to them. She seemed to understand a little bit. Gao Yao said that Sun Ziyou asked her to learn the meaning of the harsh old lady's words, which was indeed a very accurate evaluation.
Among these extremely unbearable memories, there are also some relatively warm scenes. For example, Aunt Bai told me every day what the schedule was, who I would meet, what I would do, and then fed me a sweet little pill every night.
However, Xu Yixing didn't remember what this candy pill was. Did he have the habit of eating candy before going to bed at night? No, I haven't eaten it since I grew up.
It was not until Xu Yixing fell seriously ill that she finally knew what that thing was.
She was lying on the bed, with darkness before her eyes and only the sounds around her ears. It seemed that she might be asleep or unconscious.
"Doctor, look, what should we do? This child has had a high fever since he came back from the palace. This..." It was Dad's voice!
"Old General, don't worry. In my humble opinion, the young lady seems to have been subjected to a strong stimulus, which is why she is so frightened and unconscious. I dare to ask, what exactly did the young lady go through? Perhaps if we can find the source of the stimulus, her illness will be cured."
"That...actually, I don't know either." Dad suddenly became angry and spoke louder. "Those useless servants, accompanying the young lady into the palace and actually lost her, should be beaten to death! But, hey! After Xing'er came back, he kept muttering a name. I heard it sounded like the child from the Duke's Mansion, named Sun Ziyou."
The doctor didn't say anything for some reason, but Xu Yixing immediately felt worried: Here it comes, the reason is finally coming!
The door opened, and a man walked in. He seemed to have received his father's permission before he whispered in the room, "Master, I've already inquired. Young Master Sun didn't enter the palace that day. The Sun Ziyou she mentioned shouldn't be the one from the Duke's Mansion."
This is the voice of Uncle Xu Qian when he was young, but why is it said that Sun Ziyou did not enter the palace? This is not right...
"Did you hear it right?...Okay, got it...You can go out..." Dad's voice was a little intermittent, as if because he and Xu Qian had gone to the door. Now only the doctor was left by Xu Yixing's side, wiping his forehead with a cold towel.
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