Then - step on the accelerator to the bottom, and the power surges in, accompanied by the deep roar of a beast.
There is no moon tonight.
There was only the howling wind.
Everything before my eyes is fleeting.
The two of them seemed to have entered another world, where there was no sorrow or pain, only the speed of venting.
Lu Sinian longed to go to another world.
Escape from that scene just now.
Escape from what you've experienced before.
However, the faint fragrance of the girl beside him always lingered, making him unable to leave completely.
That world doesn't have this reassuring feeling.
Or, he could be drowned in the darkness forever with her.
After who knows how many rounds, the blockage in Lu Sinian's heart didn't seem to be so painful anymore.
He let out a long sigh.
After a while, Su Xiaoli asked, "What can I do for you?"
Lu Sinian was sad, and then confused.
——You and I go to the eternal night together, we are drowned in the darkness together and never come back.
He couldn't say it.
After a long, long time, Lu Sinian said, "Be my tree hole."
Su Xiaoli focused on the road, didn't look at him, but nodded.
She slowly parked the car to the side of the road.
From the third lap onwards, the Lu family’s private car has been catching up from a distance, and they will deal with 959.
"Let's go for a walk." Su Xiaoli turned off the engine and suggested softly.
Lu Sinian did not object.
In the dark and empty space, Lu Sinian, accompanied by Su Xiaoli, walked along the mountain road, step by step, looking at the lights in the distance.
Lu Sinian didn't say anything, so Su Xiaoli just quietly accompanied him and continued walking forward.
Both of them were wearing flat shoes and there was no sound at all.
Lu Sinian was tall and had long legs. He walked absent-mindedly. As he walked, he suddenly realized, "Is she still there?" He couldn't help but look back.
Seeing him stop, Su Xiaoli also stood there.
The two looked at each other quietly for a while.
Lu Sinian's heart finally calmed down, "Let's go."
This time he walked much slower, and Su Xiaoli was able to keep pace with him.
"Just now during the meal, he..." Lu Sinian wanted to apologize, but didn't know how to start.
"I don't understand Cantonese, so I didn't understand anything..." Su Xiaoli said honestly, "I just saw that you and grandpa were suddenly unhappy."
Lu Sinian was slightly startled and suddenly realized.
"It's a good thing you don't understand Cantonese." Lu Sinian felt a little relieved.
Su Xiaoli actually doesn’t care.
Even if she understood Cantonese, Lu Jiahao's words would probably not touch her heart. At most, she would feel disgusted for a while, but she would not be as excited as Lu Sinian.
She doesn't have such a bad father, and she won't make things difficult for herself, nor bear the emotions that shouldn't be blamed on her.
After all, when you resist something with all your strength, you consume the most energy.
Most of the time, Su Xiaoli is not an emotional person. It’s not that she is numb, but she doesn’t want to make things difficult for herself.
A person's mental energy is limited and must be used effectively.
After walking aimlessly for an unknown amount of time, Lu Sinian finally spoke slowly: "My grandfather took me to the old house to be raised since I was born. He taught me personally and would accompany me every day no matter how busy he was."
"Yeah." Su Xiaoli listened quietly.
"I didn't understand it when I was little, but later I found out that the two people who were only allowed to see me once a month were my father and mother. When I grew older, I saw other children playing and shopping with their parents, and I used to fantasize about it..."
"Um."
"When I was 7 years old, my grandfather finally allowed my parents to take me to stay with him for a few days. One night during that time, I saw my mom and dad, each holding a sharp knife, trying to stab the other.
At the door of another bedroom, a naked man stood and watched with a sneer.
"My father was drunk or had taken some drugs at the time. He was crazy. He and my mother stabbed each other twice."
Su Xiaoli was stunned and her throat was blocked.
I didn’t expect that the gentle Lu Sinian had seen such a bloody scene.
As parents, Mr. and Mrs. Lu Jiahao act more like barbaric and ignorant brats.
When adults act like children, the real child is forced to grow up quickly.
"After that, grandpa never allowed me to go home with them again. For several years afterwards, grandpa wouldn't let them see me at all."
"Later, these two people were too lazy to come to the old house. When I followed my grandfather to learn business, I saw them even less often."
"They both have girlfriends and boyfriends outside all the time, and some of them... I heard they are much younger than me."
Su Xiaoli sighed, he really had the heart to do that.
"My aunt is the same. She lives a life of luxury. She only loves spending money and dating boyfriends, most of whom are foreigners.
She gets up after midnight every day and opens her eyes only after drinking strong coffee. She waits until the sun sets before she finds a pretty boy to go out and have fun with her.
"Yeah." Su Xiaoli responded.
"My parents forced me to go on a blind date because they wanted to get some of the Lin family's dowry after I got married, and also get some of my grandmother's - that is, Lu Jiahao's biological mother's - original shares and her dowry."
"Yeah." Su Xiaoli nodded. She remembered that Miss Lin Er said that Lu Sinian had been proposed to once during the Spring Festival, but unfortunately it didn't work out.
No one would be able to achieve his parents' "pure" purpose.
"Grandpa always said that they are not real Lu family members. I am so afraid that I will become like them..."
"Sometimes I wonder if it would be easier if I wasn't a member of the Lu family, I wouldn't have to have such parents, and I wouldn't have to bear the entire Lu family's future."
"If one day I can't hold on anymore..." Lu Sinian looked bored.
Su Xiaoli's facial features softened, and she said softly, "Actually, it doesn't matter who they are. You have a grandfather, and now you have a grandmother and us. Grandpa loves you and cares about you, and you respect him..."
"But my biological parents—"
"If they have given up on you and are only using you for their own selfish ends, they are not your parents at all."
Lu Sinian was silent, his eyes red.
He looked down at Su Xiaoli. The girl's eyes shone like cold stars, and her face was like a snow-white gardenia.
"Is this... okay?" Lu Sinian murmured.
"At least, they are not worth you hating yourself." Su Xiaoli looked into his eyes and said, "They are even less worth you being cruel to yourself."
Lu Sinian didn't say anything, but a sparkling light slowly emerged in his eyes.
Every word uttered by Su Xiaoli was like a soft hand embracing Lu Sinian's heart, bringing the warm warmth that belongs to the human world.
A person who has been disappointed by his parents for a long time and has long transformed that disappointment into self-loathing deep in his heart is like a drowning person, floating up and down in a dark vortex and almost being swallowed up.
Now, a tough spring willow branch finally hung down from the shore, giving the drowning person hope that he could reach the shore alive.
"Although I cannot fully understand your pain..." Su Xiaoli whispered softly and paused. (End of this chapter)
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