Chapter 371 Self-doubt
Su Xiaoli felt relieved.
Dr. Zhang looked up and smiled, then stood up, pushed his wheelchair to the place with the most comfortable lighting, and turned on a soothing piece of music.
"What can I do for you?" Dr. Zhang smiled gently.
Su Xiaoli sat firmly in the wheelchair and concentrated for a long time.
After a long while, she asked, "Can I... talk about anything?"
"Of course. No matter what, I will keep it a secret for you." Dr. Zhang's voice was very soft and soothing.
Su Xiaoli glanced at the professional qualification certificate on the wall, nodded, and then closed her eyes.
The terror of that night… came all at once.
She was suddenly pushed into the dark sea again, and the freezing cold water and unbearable pain enveloped her once again.
Looking into the pain is, to some extent, a secondary injury.
Su Xiaoli felt a distended and painful chest due to lack of oxygen, and was unable to breathe as if a huge rock was pressing on her.
After a period of confusion, she began to endure the trembling as much as possible and said, "I experienced a..."
Dr. Zhang seemed to have not heard this kind of story often and was shocked and moved.
An hour passed in the blink of an eye.
Su Xiaoli opened her eyes from her memories, wiped away her tears, and waited until she was no longer so excited before she slowly stood up and said goodbye to Dr. Zhang.
She made an appointment for the next time at the front desk.
She has been there three times so far.
At this moment, Su Xiaoli was sure that she could not escape any longer, and she looked at the sea outside the window.
As her heartbeat quickened, she tried to recall what Dr. Zhang had taught her:
——"If you can, you can generously invite fear in and see how it manifests within you, noticing where it is felt most strongly in your body."
It's... the heart.
Her heart was beating violently.
— "Look at the fearful situation head on and ask yourself: 'What is the worst part of this situation? What am I afraid of?'"
Having struggled at the gates of hell, death is no longer enough to scare her.
And the worst thing is...
She was afraid because the look of another person flashed through her mind from time to time.
When she had no strength to fight the darkness that night, it was Ling Yicheng who pulled her back. That strength made her feel a bit like dependence.
Dr. Zhang said she now has severe self-doubt.
Su Xiaoli was not sure whether it was love.
She repeatedly experienced inner collapse and struggles.
Time passes quietly.
Gu Feihan knocked on the door and came in, and saw Su Xiaoli looking at the sea again, as if her soul had flown away and only a body was left.
His heart seemed to be hit by gravity and his brows furrowed.
Ever since Xiao Li came back, he liked to look at the sea when he had nothing to do. He couldn't understand the things in her eyes, and he was afraid to understand them.
As the person who knows this girl best in the world except Su Xiaoli herself, Gu Feihan was completely panicked when he saw her like this.
She was no longer the Su Xiaoli he first met.
In the past, she was smart, cute, well-behaved, frank, full of wonderful ideas, and had a bit of a temper...
Even though it has small teeth and even though it will bite you when angry, it will only cause a slight itchy pain.
The slight itchiness and pain would only make him want more, and make him pamper her, love her and care for her even more.
As for the current Su Xiaoli...her fangs and claws have grown rapidly. If anyone is "bitten" by her again, even if he doesn't die, he will be almost dead.
Of course, such changes are not what worries Gu Feihan.
As a man who grew up in the New China and received an equal and free education, his mother, sisters and sisters-in-law can all support him. He will only be proud of strong women, especially his own girls.
However, being proud of Xiaoli is one thing, but she always needs my care and attention.
More importantly, the relationship between two people also needs to be cared for.
What really made him afraid and panicked... was that it seemed like there was another person hidden in Xiaoli's heart.
He also felt Su Xiaoli's struggle.
It's not that I don't want to forget that person, but that I can't forget him. It's not that I don't want to contact him, but that I can't contact him.
He didn't know what kind of relationship there was between her and Ling Yicheng.
Maybe... Xiaoli himself doesn't know.
But Gu Feihan knew clearly that the little bastard, like himself, regarded Xiao Li as the light of their spiritual world.
Xiao Li was like a spring knife, helping the little bastard remove the wounds of the cold winter and also bringing the bloom of spring.
Such a beauty is a fatal dependence for any man, and his desire for it will never end.
But it is destined to be a time bomb between him and Xiaoli.
"It's going to rain again." Gu Feihan deliberately suppressed his panic, anxiety, and even suspicion. He took a deep breath and whispered slowly.
These words suddenly brought Su Xiaoli back to reality from her memory of drifting on the sea.
She nodded silently, and after a long while she asked calmly, "Is Ling Yicheng awake too?"
Gu Feihan seemed to have been hit on acupuncture point. After a long pause, he finally nodded.
Su Xiaoli secretly let out a long sigh of relief.
The little guy is lucky after all. People in the underworld live on the edge of a knife, so it is a blessing to be able to keep his life.
Anyway, he is still alive, which is not the worst news.
Gu Feihan frowned slightly, "He... is considered a tainted witness. Although he has made contributions, he has made such a big mistake..."
"Even if you have a lawyer to defend you, you still have to spend a few years in prison before you can finally get out."
It’s hard to say how many years he will be sentenced to. It depends on how much inside information the little bastard has and how much he can reveal.
No matter what, his adventure of walking between black and white brought him great benefits, and he finally had the hope of living an upright life in the future.
But...what happens after you get out of prison? Gu Feihan recalled the scene when he saw the two of them at the beach.
The two people's hands were tightly clasped together, and their wrists were tied together with a red rope.
The two of them had experienced life and death together at sea.
Su Xiaoli was silent, and her calmness was somewhat frightening.
The sea surface is calm, but there are waves on the seabed.
Gu Feihan felt a dull pain in his heart, and the rising resentment turned into weakness in an instant.
He squatted down subconsciously and stared at her face worriedly, not daring to miss even the slightest fluctuation.
He was afraid of her silence, afraid that her memories that he had no way of understanding would become an eternal puzzle and a wall. On the other side of the wall, Ling Yicheng and Xiao Li were locked and tied together.
"Xiao Li... don't leave me again." The tone was almost begging.
Gu Feihan pressed her two cold little hands tightly against his cheek, his voice full of difficulty and hoarseness, with a hint of morbid madness.
The man tried hard not to be swallowed by the surging frustration, and his face showed an unprecedented look of frustration and loneliness.
Su Xiaoli could even understand Gu Feihan's feelings.
Because...the fear of both people is the same.
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