Chapter 462 Loving People is Like Growing Flowers
"Little devil, what are you thinking about?" Yaya sensed that Huo Jiusi was in a wrong mood.
Huo Jiusi withdrew his hand guiltily, avoiding Yaya's probing eyes: "I didn't think anything."
"You thought about it!" Yaya said firmly, "And it has something to do with me."
Yaya thought about Huo Jiusi's words and roughly guessed what Huo Jiusi was thinking.
"Just because I'm independent doesn't mean I don't need you." Yaya looked up at Huo Jiusi's eyes: "How many times do I have to tell you that you are very important to me."
"But Yaya, you will be fine without me." Huo Jiusi's voice was muffled, and sounded very aggrieved.
Yaya smiled and said, "Isn't this as it should be? Each of us is an independent individual. You have your own life, your own responsibilities and missions, and I have the same."
"Besides each other, we have family, friends and our own dreams. We are not the same person, we are two different people."
"Little devil, I know you want me to be inseparable from you, to become your dodder, to be able to live only by relying on you. Without you, I will die."
When Huo Jiusi heard Yaya say the word "death", he hurriedly denied it: "Yaya, I don't think so."
He just wanted Yaya to be inseparable from him, not to die.
The thought of Yaya dying made him go crazy.
"But if I am like a dodder, and can only depend on you, then without you, I will die, right? I don't have the ability to survive independently."
Yaya motioned Huo Jiusi to stop talking and listen to her first: "Little devil, I am not going to become a dodder, and I will not become a dodder just because you want me to. I want to be a trumpet creeper, a towering tree that can stand shoulder to shoulder with you."
"Not only can you shelter me from the wind and rain, you can protect me, I can also protect you and shelter you from the wind and rain."
"But you never understand me. You say you love me, but in fact your love is selfish and overbearing. I don't like you like this."
Yaya always plays it straight, especially with Huo Jiusi. She doesn't like two people who like each other to guess each other, and instead of saying something directly, they act hesitantly, which leads to many misunderstandings.
This was the reason why her parents had so many misunderstandings in her previous life, and gave the old witch and the ugly monster the opportunity to sow discord between them.
If two people make their thoughts clear to each other, and they can understand each other, that's even better. But if they can't understand and can't reconcile, then it naturally shows that the two people are not suitable.
For Yaya, Huo Jiusi treats her very well, but her personality is the most important, because if she does not have an independent personality, she is not even a person, so what else can she talk about.
Just like her grandparents and so many people of the older generation who used their lives and blood to exchange for the country's independence, because they knew very well that a country can only be called a country if it is independent. Otherwise, it is a puppet, a slave of others, and will be oppressed and exploited all its life.
This is true for the country and for individuals.
"Little devil, I don't want to be your subordinate. I want to be your companion, your friend. You and I are equal."
After Yaya finished speaking, she looked at Huo Jiusi calmly. Huo Jiusi was shocked, but he quickly calmed down and smiled. This was his Yaya.
Yaya has always attracted him, not only because she healed his inner pain, but also because of her vigorous vitality.
Yes, she is a trumpet creeper, not a dodder. If she really were a dodder, perhaps I wouldn’t like her so much.
"Yaya, I'm sorry."
Huo Jiusi squatted down and put his hands on Yaya's shoulders: "I am sick again. I want to monopolize and control you."
"You were originally a trumpet creeper, but I wanted to turn you into a dodder. You're right, I'm really too selfish."
Seeing Huo Jiusi admit his mistake so readily, Yaya felt a little at a loss. She thought she was going to have a fight with Huo Jiusi.
"No, I do speak a little harshly, I just don't like you being like this."
"I know, and I don't like myself like this, but sometimes I can't control myself, and I'm afraid."
Huo Jiusi hugged Yaya tightly in his arms: "Every time I see you talking and laughing with others, I will be crazy jealous and crazy scared. I am worried that one day you will not want me."
"I'm afraid you'll leave me for someone else, and then I'll be alone again."
"How come?"
Yaya patted Huo Jiusi on the back and coaxed him softly: "I won't leave you. You are very important to me. We have lived together for so many years, and you are like air to me."
"Neither of us can live without each other, but I don't like you interfering with my freedom. I like making friends."
"They like you. My Yaya is loved by everyone." Huo Jiusi was still very scared in his heart, but Yaya's words made him regain some sanity.
Just now he even wanted to imprison Yaya, so that she would not see anyone except him every day, and her life would be all by herself from then on.
Huo Jiusi did not hide his dark side. He knew that saying so would scare Yaya, but he wanted Yaya to know everything about him.
"Yaya, if I do this, will you hate me?"
“No.” Yaya shook her head: “I know you love me too much and are too scared, but I will be unhappy, just like a flower, and will slowly wither.”
"Little devil, this way of loving someone is suffocating."
Yaya's fingers brushed across Huo Jiusi's eyes: "Loving someone is like raising flowers. You should find ways to make the flowers you raise more and more colorful and more vital, instead of letting them slowly wither. If the flowers you raise will wither, it's better not to raise them in the first place."
"Loving someone is like growing flowers?" Huo Jiusi murmured softly what Yaya said.
Many people know that they want to be loved and know how to love others, but they don’t know how to love others correctly, let alone what love is.
In relationships, whether it is family, friendship or love, especially love, the most common question asked when both parties quarrel is: "Do you love me?"
Also like to ask: "Don't you love me anymore?"
In fact, when these questions are asked, there is a big problem on both sides, because they already have the answer in their hearts, but they are not willing to accept it. They want to get a different answer from the other party to make themselves feel safe and give themselves an excuse.
Yaya knows very well that Huo Jiusi loves her, and she also knows that Huo Jiusi lacks a sense of security. Of course, the more important point is that Huo Jiusi is not very good at loving.
How to describe him? Sometimes Yaya really feels that Huo Jiusi is like a beast that has turned into a human, or a robot that has some emotions.
His rational thinking is very strong.
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