The old queen couldn't hide the happiness on her face, it was revealed from the bottom of her heart, "It's really good, it's been a few months."
She looked at Chang'an and asked deliberately.
"God bless, I hope it's a boy, then Gu Qingfeng can rest assured.
Changan, this was your father's last wish before he died."
Changan was surprised to hear the old queen's words, "...my father?"
"Yes." The old queen dowager was happy. "Your father came to see me before he left. The Empress Dowager and your father had a long talk, but he asked me not to tell you and Xuan'er, so... I didn't tell you... How many months old is the child?"
Chang'an didn't say anything.
The old queen didn't care. She thought to herself, "The belly isn't noticeable yet. It should be... three to four months. If Xuan'er knew, he would be very happy."
When Bei Mingxuan was mentioned, Chang'an frowned subconsciously. She didn't want to talk about this person.
"Grandma Empress, Chang'an came here because he saw your letter and was worried.
But now that I see you, I feel good, and Changan is relieved."
Chang'an stood up and said, "Grandma, please take care of yourself. I won't stay any longer."
"No." The old queen was anxious and jumped out of bed.
He got so anxious that he fell to the ground.
"The old queen."
"Grandma Empress!"
"Don't go." The old queen mother looked at Chang'an with tears in her eyes.
"You little girl, are you willing to stay with me for a while longer because you see that I, an old woman, am really only breathing my last breath?
You may be angry with Xuan'er in your heart, but ask yourself, I, an old woman, have never offended you, little girl."
"... Changan is wrong."
Chang'an and Bai Lu helped the old empress dowager up and sat her back on the bed.
"The last time I saw you, you left before the Empress Dowager could even say a word." The old empress dowager held Chang'an in her palm.
"There's still a lot to say, and you're leaving like that. Do you know how worried Grandma Huang is about you?"
"I...at that time," Chang'an said, "I thought, after all, you are all members of the Beiming family, right?"
The old queen frowned and looked straight at Chang'an, "You are heartbroken, and I am heartbroken too.
But Chang'an, think about it.
If your parents were still alive, what kind of daughter would they want to see? "
"I can't do anything about my mother's death." When mentioning Gu Qingfeng, Chang'an's eyes instantly turned colder.
Even those fiery red eyes could not conceal Chang'an's coldness.
"But my father's death... was caused by my stupidity. I hate Bei Mingxuan's ruthlessness and disloyalty, but I hate my own stupidity even more!"
"No!" The old queen's eyes flashed with a trace of determination, "You know nothing, how can you talk about hatred? You look really stupid now.
In the end, you don’t even know you’re being taken advantage of.”
"..." Chang'an was stunned, looking at the old empress dowager in confusion, "Grandma, I don't quite understand what you said. And you mentioned my father just now."
After hearing what Bei Mingxuan said, the old queen had a plan in mind.
At that time, she also thought that if Chang'an really didn't want to see her, then she would definitely go to Nanguo to see her in person.
Now that Chang'an has come, it is just right. This time, the old queen mother has made up her mind that even if it costs her own life, she must make Chang'an understand that Gu Qingfeng's death has nothing to do with her grandson.
"Alas! You are so persistent, it's frightening." The old queen sighed, "I promised your father not to tell anyone.
But now, seeing you and Xuan'er torturing each other like this, how can an old woman like me bear it? I can only break my promise to your father."
"What?" Chang'an's eyes moved. "Did my father say anything to the Empress Dowager?"
"Your father came to see me before he left," the old queen said, "He said he was relieved to leave you to Xuan'er.
As for the throne, your father said it would definitely be Xuan'er's.
So, there is nothing to worry about anymore.
In the remaining days, he will take your mother to see the beautiful mountains and rivers. After all, it was once your mother's wish.
He was unable to fulfill your mother's wish when she was alive, and only after her death did he have the opportunity to make up for it.
This is the biggest regret in your father's life."
"Take my mother..." Chang'an frowned, and raised his lips to Feng, "What else can you know after the person is dead? It's all in vain."
"Chang'an, listen to what the Empress Dowager has to say." The old empress dowager glanced at Bai Lu and said, "Go and pour me a cup of tea to moisten my throat."
"yes."
The old queen continued, "I'm telling you this not to force you to forgive anyone, but to let go of yourself."
"It's easier said than done. Once it's broken, it's broken..."
"I watched Qingfeng grow up. He was young and promising, and he was an upright person.
The relationship between me and Prince Yi is one of heroes admiring heroes." The old queen mother seemed lost in reminiscence.
“It was all because of the throne that I lost my son, and Shuzhou lost a promising prince and a general.
Over the years, some have died, some have been disabled, some have been betrayed, but in my old woman's eyes, your pain and suffering are just...
A drop in the ocean of the world, and the stupidest thing is... You are wrong, very wrong.
When your father passed away, his body was only a dying candle.
Your father said that he dedicated the first half of his life to his family, country, and brothers, and spent the second half in a muddle-headed state of regret, and the people he felt most guilty towards were you and your mother.
When the old empress dowager said this, she noticed Bei Mingxuan standing outside the door.
Chang'an did not notice Bei Mingxuan's arrival.
Seeing the old empress dowager's surprised look, Chang'an looked over and met a pair of frowning eyes.
There was heartache and longing in his eyes...
But Changan turned a blind eye and said, "Grandma, I will come to see you another day."
As he said that, he was about to leave.
"What are you afraid of?" Bei Mingxuan said as he walked directly in front of Chang'an and blocked Chang'an's way.
"Are you afraid to face me, or are you afraid to face your own heart?"
He looked calm and composed, but no one knew that his hands behind his back were trembling nervously.
He was afraid that Chang'an would just leave without saying a word.
Afraid to see Chang'an's eyes full of disgust towards him.
Chang'an looked coldly, trying hard to suppress the strangeness in his heart. It was a kind of hatred, a kind of pain, and a kind of longing... But this kind of longing in his heart made Chang'an despise himself even more.
She pretended to be indifferent and said coldly, "The Emperor of Shu is still very thick-skinned. I don't know why he thinks that I dare not confront him. Hmm?"
"Since you don't have any, just stay."
Chang'an's eyes were filled with suppressed anger. If the old queen mother hadn't been there, she really would have attacked Bei Mingxuan. "When I see you, I feel so sick that I want to vomit."
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