"After your mother found out who I am, she hid in her room for two days and didn't want to see me. I thought she wanted to leave, so I helped her settle everything, at least to ensure that she would have enough to eat and wear for the rest of her life."
"But she didn't leave me, and our lives continued as before."
A sweet and happy smile appeared on Yan Luoheng's face. "Gradually, I began to fear death, and I rarely went on missions myself anymore. I spent more time by her side."
"A few years have passed in the blink of an eye, and she has grown into a beautiful young woman."
“I know my identity. My hands are stained with blood, but she is different. She is clean and spotless. How could I bear to defile her?”
“I wanted to send her abroad to study and see the world, but she refused without hesitation. She felt that I wanted to drive her away, and she even got herself drunk to show me her stance.”
"She wants to stay by my side and be with me forever."
Yan Luoheng paused again, a bitter smile appearing on his lips. "At that moment, I wavered. I agreed to her decision and let her stay by my side."
"But my world and her world are ultimately incompatible. The more she knows and sees, the more dangerous it will be for her. So at the last moment, I convinced myself to let her leave."
“I bought her a property, which is in her name only, and some stock certificates, enough for her to use for a lifetime, but I rarely show up anymore.”
"Until one day, your grandfather found her."
At that time, he should have been happy for her, but his possessiveness made him feel that someone wanted to take away her love for him.
For a fleeting moment, he even considered taking her to Bai Zhanwang and telling him that he was the one who could take care of her for the rest of her life.
But he didn't do that. It would be a good thing if there were one more person in the world who loved her.
"She suddenly became the daughter of the Bai family. She seemed to have noticed my estrangement and indifference. She said she wanted to see me one last time."
"After that night, she said she would never contact me again and that she would marry a man who would treat her well."
Yan Luoheng said with self-deprecation, "Two months later, I received the news that she was getting married. At that time, I was so jealous that I almost went crazy and nearly led a group of people to kill that man."
Qiao Xi couldn't help but say, "That man is Qiao Guangyuan."
“Yes, it was him.” Yan Luoheng’s eyes were filled with undisguised hatred. “I thought your mother really wanted to marry him, so how could I ruin her happiness? On their wedding day, I secretly hid where she couldn’t see me and witnessed her becoming someone else’s wife.”
"I thought she had let go of her feelings for me, and that I was the one who couldn't let go."
“One day I went to spy on her and found that she was pregnant. Later she gave birth to a daughter, but when I calculated the time, I realized that the child was not hers with Qiao Guangyuan.”
"It's my child with her."
Qiao Xi's hands clenched involuntarily; she couldn't believe it!
The hatred in Yan Luoheng's eyes gradually faded, and a happy smile appeared on his face. "You have no idea how excited and thrilled I was at that time. I wanted to run up to her and tell her that I was willing to give up everything for her and just wanted to leave with her and the child."
"But what I saw was a happy family of three, and I even saw a long-lost happy smile on her face."
"I resisted my impulses and desires and chose to protect her happiness."
“During those years, I was like a voyeur, constantly spying on her happiness and your every move. I knew when you could talk and when you could walk. I even knew when you first called me ‘Dad.’ How I wished that the person you called ‘Dad’ was me.”
"Seeing her so happy, my heart gradually calmed down, but I never imagined that one day she would die in a car accident!"
"At first, Qiao Guangyuan seemed so heartbroken that I thought it was really an accident. But not long after, he brought back that mother and daughter from outside. In that instant, I..."
“I don’t know how to describe that feeling. It’s hatred, it’s pain, it’s…” Yan Luoheng tried his best to suppress the raging anger. “I became increasingly suspicious that the car accident was not an accident, so I ordered people to investigate the truth of the car accident at all costs.”
"You found out?" Qiao Xi asked.
Yan Luoheng replied affirmatively, "Yes, I found it."
"when."
Eight years ago.
Hearing this answer, Qiao Xi laughed, "And then you still pretended nothing happened."
"No." Yan Luoheng stood up agitatedly, pacing back and forth anxiously. "I want to kill him with my own hands. I've even arranged for people to do it."
“But I saw you. I saw you celebrating his birthday with him. Your eyes were full of him, your father. It's like you can't live without him.”
“I can’t let you become an orphan, I…” Yan Luoheng looked at Qiao Xi with heartache, “I also thought that it wouldn’t be a bad thing if the Bai family could take you back, but you don’t have a good relationship with your maternal grandfather and uncles. I’m afraid you can’t bear such a blow, so I want to slowly let you know the truth.”
“Over the years, I have been secretly observing you, and Dad will never allow anything to hurt you.”
"Enough!" Qiao Xi didn't want to hear his high-sounding excuses.
Even if what he said is true, she won't acknowledge him.
Yan Luoheng sat down again, and said with a heart full of guilt, "Xiaoxi, Dad knows that I owe you too much. I will do my best to make it up to you."
"I don't need your compensation," Qiao Xi scoffed. "And you don't need to make any excuses for your selfishness."
"Compared to the power of the Heavenly Fiend Sect Master, you would not give up all of this for your mother."
“I do,” Yan Luoheng said without hesitation.
Qiao Xi scoffed, "Your willingness is to push her away from you?"
Even now, Yan Luoheng still arrogantly said, "I'm afraid she'll get involved, and I'm afraid it will be dangerous for her to stay by my side."
Qiao Xi didn't know if he was genuinely unaware or pretending. "She knows your identity, yet she still wants to stay by your side. Doesn't she know there's danger involved?"
"She may have a thousand reasons to leave you, but she loves you, and life and death are no longer on her mind."
"I'd rather live and die with the one I love than be separated from him," Qiao Xi said resolutely.
In an instant, Yan Luoheng broke down, "Xiao Xi..."
Qiao Xi felt there was nothing more to say to him. "I should go. He must be worried about me after I've been missing for so long."
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