At this moment, Xuanming couldn't help but feel somewhat at a loss.
Mu Zhi stopped pressuring him and simply waited quietly.
Time slipped by quietly, each minute and second feeling exceptionally long, and the two fell into an endless silence.
This was the first time in Xuanming's life that he had encountered such a stubborn and obstinate Muzhi.
He thought to himself: If he couldn't give a definite answer tonight, she would probably keep going on like this.
Finally, after a moment of inner struggle, Xuan Ming's voice trembled slightly, tinged with hesitation, as he whispered, "It's... the latter."
Upon hearing this, Mu Zhi fell into a state of confusion, as if she had lost the ability to think.
Her eyes became vacant, and the answer kept echoing in her mind—
the latter.
She tried hard to recall what questions she had asked, but suddenly couldn't remember at all.
This feeling left her feeling incredibly confused and uneasy.
It seems she was asking if the engagement was canceled because she didn't like her or because she was worried about her future...
His answer was the latter?
So, it's not because he doesn't like her?
Mu Zhi felt an indescribable sadness in her heart.
stupid.
You big idiot.
Finally, Mu Zhi came to her senses. She took a deep breath, trying to calm the turmoil in her heart.
When she spoke again, her voice trembled slightly: "Xuan Ming..."
The two words seemed to be squeezed out from between her teeth, filled with endless pain.
"You are not me, so what right do you have to make decisions for me?"
Mu Zhi's words were choked with sobs, and tears welled up in her eyes, as if they might fall at any moment.
Her tone was extremely complex, containing too many indescribable emotions: heartache, joy, relief, and deep sympathy for Xuan Ming.
Xuanming listened quietly to Mu Zhi's words, and a sharp pain welled up in his heart.
He knew that he had really hurt her this time.
Looking into Mu Zhi's sorrowful eyes, Xuan Ming felt as if his heart was being torn apart.
"I...I'm sorry. I know my own body. Every extra day I live is a blessing from heaven. I dare not ask for more..."
Xuanming felt helpless facing Muzhi, who was crying at this moment.
I don't know what to do.
No one taught him.
What should he do?
Looking at Xuan Ming apologizing to her, Mu Zhi felt even more pain in her heart.
The person you like also likes you.
But he kept suppressing his feelings.
He didn't even understand what love or liking someone meant.
Therefore, he suppressed any thoughts he shouldn't have with absolute rationality.
He only follows his heart and does what he believes is right.
What does he believe is right?
She was afraid that after his death, she would be a widow alone and her life would be difficult, so she wanted to cancel the engagement.
Not because I dislike her.
"Xuanming, you're so stupid, so incredibly stupid!" Mu Zhi couldn't help but cry out to Xuanming.
"Yes, I'm stupid. Don't cry, don't cry, I was wrong." Xuan Ming admitted his mistake again.
Mu Zhi looked at the man in front of her, who was apologizing and trying to comfort her so she wouldn't cry, but judging from his expression, he clearly didn't understand what she had done wrong.
It seems that as long as he hurts her, he is in the wrong.
Mu Zhi was speechless for a moment.
"Go back now."
If she stayed any longer... if she stayed any longer, she was afraid she wouldn't be able to resist rushing over and hugging him, scaring him.
Why is her Xuanming brother still so stupid?
No, it's because she's stupid.
Knowing full well that he lost both his parents at a young age and had no one to teach him about love and relationships, she still let her own temper make things difficult for him.
Even though she knew he treated her differently, she still sulked at him.
Xuan Ming was somewhat stunned. Why was he suddenly being told to leave?
He opened his mouth as if to say something, but saw Mu Zhi suddenly turn her back to him, unwilling to talk to him.
Xuan Ming was somewhat annoyed, and his eyes dimmed.
Is she tired of herself?
That's fine.
That's fine too.
I hope she can have a completely new life in the future, instead of having to revolve around him, a dying man.
Xuanming felt his blood rushing to his head, and his throat tasted slightly metallic.
He clutched his chest and gazed intently at Mu Zhi.
Xuanming tried to suppress the surge of blood and qi, and said in a somewhat deep voice, "Take a good rest," before leaving.
When Mu Zhi turned around and saw that the person had already left, she burst into tears.
"That idiot, why can't he think about himself?" Mu Zhi cried, staring at the door.
It's all her fault; she only focused on his words about announcing the engagement and didn't ask any further questions.
Actually, he wasn't without feelings for himself.
She should have realized it long ago.
Every day, he would cook her three meals a day, consisting of dishes she loved, and he would eat with her dishes that he didn't like but that she loved.
She would secretly collect materials and make her own kite because she casually mentioned that she liked flying kites.
When nervously handing the kite to himself, he pretended to be nonchalant and said that he had asked Shadow to buy it.
When the weather is nice, he will indulge her and accompany her for a walk in the garden or in front of the palace.
Even if she clearly didn't want to go out on a rainy day, he would give in to her sweet talk and agree to go with her to the corridor to watch the rain.
After she came back from the rain, he would hand her the first dry handkerchief and the first bowl of ginger soup, making silly remarks while watching her finish the soup before he would start drinking.
Knowing that she liked humanities books, he would collect them and place them on the table in the side hall where he would take a nap the next day when he entered the palace.
Even knowing she was faking illness, he still specially sent her expensive tonics and rare medicinal herbs.
He even risked his life to secretly leave the palace alone to see her.
Mu Zhi cried as she recalled all the little things they had done together over the past few days.
She was so engrossed in crying that she didn't even notice the person who came in.
Suddenly hearing a cough, Mu Zhi stopped crying and looked up through her teary eyes.
When she realized it was her father, she pouted and cried out, "Father!"
The Grand Tutor was heartbroken when he heard this.
"My dear daughter, don't cry, don't cry. It's not that they have feelings for you too, it's a good thing. Why are you crying, silly child?"
The Grand Tutor sat by the bed and patted Mu Zhi on the back.
Mu Zhi threw herself into the Grand Tutor's arms, crying, "Father, waaaaah, you...you know?"
The Grand Tutor hummed in agreement.
"I didn't know at first, but I found out when Shadow came to the manor. Silly girl, stop crying."
"Father, I... I was just too stupid. I should have known that he... he did have feelings for me." Mu Zhi's heart was in turmoil, and she felt terrible.
“Silly daughter, how can this be blamed on you? They say that those involved are often confused, while bystanders see things clearly. You two are the parties involved, so how could you possibly see through it?” The Grand Tutor comforted her earnestly.
After saying that, she smiled and said, "Now that you've made up your mind, let's move forward boldly. This is such a good thing, don't cry anymore."
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