Even though I still love you, my longing for freedom grows stronger every day.
I long to be able to frolic carefree like my peers, and I long to have my own circle of friends like my peers.
Unfortunately, you never understood my desires.
They only knew how to use extremely barbaric methods to teach me to be tamed through fear.
Afterwards, you got sick, went on a hunger strike, and apologized, which made me think that I was too cruel and heartless.
But when I look back on the past three years and the hardships I've endured, I realize that I've never done anything wrong.
I have always been the victim.
The Song family went bankrupt, and our whole family became victims of capital.
You were drugged by someone with malicious intent, and I, an innocent person, became the target of everyone's criticism, labeled a shameless slut.
Brother Yunting, I really want to ask you, when you hit me, did you ever think that you were the only person I had left to rely on in this world?
Actually, you don't need to say it; I should have guessed it.
You've always liked the obedient and well-behaved Song Xingwan.
What you despise most is Song Xingwan, who has awakened to consciousness and developed subjective thoughts.
That's not entirely fair to you.
After all, you have treated me very well over the years, taking meticulous care of me, and even severing ties with the Huo family for my sake.
But what you don't know is that these are not what I've ever wanted.
What I want is a soulmate who can empathize with me, understand my thoughts, and feel my pain.
Some time ago, due to an unplanned pregnancy, I considered accepting your apology and building a new family with you in order to create a warm and harmonious family environment for our unborn child.
However, every time I see your face, the ferocious image of you violating me flashes in my mind.
I've tried to convince myself to forgive your impulsive act. But when I think of my deceased parents, I can no longer force myself to suffer. My parents didn't bring me into this world to endure such misery and torment.
How heartbroken they would be to see me wasting my life like this?
After the miscarriage, I became even more determined to leave home.
Whether I love someone or not is no longer important to me right now.
Right now, all I want to do is be my most authentic self and earn my own sense of security through my own hard work.
Having made up my mind, there is no turning back in this life.
Brother Yunting, our fate has run its course. From now on, don't worry about me anymore, and don't waste your time on this so-called useless effort.
I only wish that you can continue on your path happily and smoothly.
"I loved you, I hated you, I resented you, and I also thought of you like a tidal wave—Song Xingwanliu."
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