Chapter 516 As Long as You Are Alive
Princess Guangning's voice was full of fear, helplessness and despair, and she was obviously in danger.
Prince Yu's consciousness told him to go in and rescue people as soon as possible, but his body seemed to be frozen, standing there stiffly, his brain buzzing.
What happened when he was ten years old made him afraid of mountains, caves, and even more afraid of darkness.
In addition, he is afraid of contact with people and afraid of sunlight.
Therefore, the windows of his bedroom were nailed with thick curtains, and there was no sunlight in the palace all day long. There was only an oil lamp lit at the head of his bed.
This situation lasted for two years.
Finally one day, the mother could no longer bear it and broke into his bedroom. Completely disregarding her usual decorum, she madly tore down all the curtains covering the windows and threw them to the ground.
The sunlight enveloped him, and he frightenedly pulled the quilt over his head.
The usually weak mother, at that moment, was surprisingly strong. She pulled the quilt off his head, grabbed his arm, and dragged him off the bed, throwing him to the ground.
He screamed and crawled around on the ground, trying to find a place to hide.
But his mother wouldn't let him hide. She grabbed his shoulders tightly, digging her long nails into his flesh.
She shed tears while speaking harshly, "He was just a pariah. You killed him. You protected yourself and saved yourself. You won this fight and avenged your shame. What else is there to be afraid of?"
"You live in this deep palace where people are eaten without leaving any bones. What do these experiences mean? As long as you are still alive, nothing you encounter will matter."
"If you spend your whole life trapped in this chamber like a walking corpse, living in confusion, you might as well be dead."
"Death or life, you choose one."
The mother pulled a dagger from her sleeve and threw it at his feet.
"If you want to live, you must live like a human being."
"If you want to die, I will go with you."
But under the huge stimulation, his body was paralyzed and even his brain was blank.
He just stared at his mother with a dull expression, unable to react at all.
Suddenly, his mother squatted before him and gently wiped the tears from his face. "You are the child I carried for ten months, and now you are almost as tall as me. My master said you are very smart. You master everything he teaches you, and you can even apply it to other situations."
"You have no idea how proud I am. Seeing you so energetic and full of life, I feel that life in the palace has become more interesting and more promising."
"But now, you've locked yourself in your room, unwilling to go out, much less see anyone. You've tortured yourself to the point of losing all life. I just turned around, and my son has changed his appearance."
"How I wish I were just dreaming. As soon as I open my eyes, my carefree son will be back, just like before, smiling innocently and calling me 'Mother'."
"How I wish that everything you have endured could fall on me. I have endured it for you."
"But time cannot be reversed, and there is no way for me to save you before something happens."
"It was my mother who was useless. She brought you into this world but failed to protect you properly, causing you to suffer greatly..."
Before my mother could finish her words, she fainted on the ground.
He panicked and tried to pull his mother's hand, only to find that she was incredibly thin, with only skin and bones left.
Immediately afterwards, the palace maid heard the noise, ran in hurriedly, and took my mother away.
He didn't remember anything that happened after that.
He only remembered that when he woke up, thick curtains were nailed on the windows of his bedroom again and an oil lamp was lit at the head of the bed.
Everything that happened before seemed like a dream.
But he knew clearly that it was not a dream.
He wanted to find a palace maid to ask about his mother's condition.
But he didn't want to see people on weekdays. Except for bringing him meals, the eunuchs would stand guard outside the main hall all the time.
He broke the cup, called the palace maid, and asked about his mother's condition.
The maidservant said, "Your Highness, the Empress hasn't regained consciousness yet. She hasn't been able to eat or sleep well these past few years, and her inner self has been drained away. You're suffering, tormenting yourself, and how could the Empress not be suffering as well?"
In the end, his concern for his mother overwhelmed his fear, forcing him to step out of the bedroom and visit his mother.
His mother lay in bed, the thick makeup on her face washed away, revealing a pale and haggard face. As if sensing his presence, his mother woke up.
The moment she saw him, my mother was so excited that she shed tears.
"Jing'er, I was wrong. I apologize." Her face was covered in tears. She clutched one of his sleeves and said weakly, "As a noble concubine, I don't know how many people are eyeing this position. Even if we don't fight for it, we will still be the target of public criticism."
"Besides, I've been through so much, fighting openly and secretly, and I don't know how many enemies I've made. If you're useless, then we mother and son will have no way to survive."
"But you spent nearly a year recovering from your injuries, staying in your chambers, refusing to see anyone, for another two years, nearly three. I was truly despairing, feeling completely hopeless. I figured, since I was going to die anyway, I might as well push you."
"But I forgot that you're still a child. You've suffered a great disaster. As your closest and most trusted person, forcing you is essentially driving you to death."
"After this illness, I've finally figured it out. Having you by my side is a gift from God, and it's better than losing you. I don't think about the long-term things. As long as you're alive, you can live your life the way you want. Mother won't force you."
He stared at his mother blankly, tears streaming down his face.
From then on, he forced himself to face his inner fears.
Because he was afraid of people, he went to meet them.
Until you are no longer afraid of people.
Afraid of forests, caves, and the dark, he went to the forest and found a cave.
The dark cave was exactly the same as the place where he had the accident.
The moment he stepped into the cave, the unbearable experience uncontrollably reappeared in his mind over and over again.
Those emotions of humiliation, sadness, anger and extreme disgust hit him strongly and tore him apart.
For three whole months, he broke himself down from the inside out, tempered himself again, and turned himself into a normal person.
He thought he was no longer afraid and had no weaknesses.
But until today, when Prince Yu heard Princess Guangning's cry for help in the cave, the same situation and experience suddenly dragged him back to the scene of humiliation he had suffered, and his body was unable to move.
Princess Guangning, who had been resisting and calling for help, also lost her resistance at this time and no sound was heard.
A surge of violent energy rose in Prince Yu's heart. He overcame his body's fear of facing psychological shadows and stepped into the cave with vigorous steps.
Princess Guangning was seen lying on the ground, unresponsive.
Another man in a short brown shirt was about to untie the belt around his waist.
Nothing has happened yet.
Prince Yu smashed the object in his hand hard on the man's head. When the man struggled hard, he knocked him to the ground, quickly pulled out the dagger tied to his leg, and stabbed it into the man's chest.
Extreme anger made him lose his mind, and he did not stop, but stabbed the man's chest again and again, making bloody holes one after another.
Until the man was covered in blood.
Prince Yu threw away the dagger in his hand and gasped for breath.
After an unknown amount of time, his emotions calmed down and his rationality gradually returned. He turned to look at Princess Guangning who was standing beside him.
At this moment, she lay there motionless, staring straight into his eyes. When she met his gaze, tears rolled down from the corners of her eyes without warning.
Princess Guangning's lips opened and closed, silently uttering a few words.
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