Episode 035 Shame and Guilt
Song Yi didn't understand Xu Rushuang's taste.
Just like she didn't understand the entanglement between Xu Rushuang and Fu Xijing.
Song Yi ate this meal very reluctantly. Except when Miki talked to her, she was silent.
Most of the time, Fu Xijing and Miki, father and daughter, were chatting.
Surprisingly, Fu Xijing was not arrogant when interacting with children, and was even a little humorous.
He dotes on Miki but also maintains his principles and is a good father.
Song Yi suddenly remembered the saying: If a man likes a woman, he will definitely like the children she gives birth to.
This sentence is most appropriate for Fu Xijing.
Because Song Yi remembered very clearly that Fu Xijing probably didn't like children.
When they were in Rome, there were many children playing in the villa area where they lived.
Once, Song Yi saw a family of three sitting together and chatting, and stopped in his tracks with envy.
She was raised by her mother, Song Lansheng, and has no memory of having a father.
It would be a lie to say that I am not envious when I see children being cared for by their parents.
When she stopped to focus that time, Fu Xijing was a little dissatisfied. He came back and pulled her, asking her what she was looking at.
She shook her head and said it was nothing.
Fu Xijing glanced over there and asked her casually: Do you like children?
She knew he misunderstood, but nodded anyway.
After she nodded, Fu Xijing said that he didn't like children, so she'd better not have any other ideas.
Thinking of this incident, Song Yi curled the corners of his mouth in self-mockery.
It turned out that Fu Xijing didn't dislike children, he just didn't like her having his child.
Too.
No matter before or now, in his mind, she is just a commodity that can be purchased by paying.
Even if he knew that she followed him because she cheated him out of his money, he would not look up to her for that.
She is a prostitute, her nature will not change.
But Xu Rushuang was obviously much nobler than her.
Song Yi recalled what he had learned from Fu Xiao about Xu Rushuang: a man from a wealthy family and an idealist pursuing lofty ideals.
But she is just an ant whose back is bent by life and who has sold her dignity.
Song Yi doesn't like to be compared with others, but he can't control himself at this moment.
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After dinner, Fu Xijing and Miki returned to the living room, and Song Yi "consciously" stayed to clean the kitchen.
She put the dishes on the table into the dishwasher and was about to stand up when a shadow suddenly fell from behind her.
Song Yi was startled and subconsciously opened her mouth to scream, but her mouth was covered again.
Dry palms, familiar smell, Song Yi immediately realized who the person was.
Fu Xijing let go of Song Yi and turned her around, looking down at her. "Did you get scared?"
Song Yi: "Mr. Fu, I should go back."
Fu Xijing laughed, "Have you forgotten what you promised me just now?"
Song Yi: “…”
She was just making up an excuse to stop him from continuing.
Song Yi took a deep breath and discussed with him in a gentle voice: "Tomorrow, tomorrow I will go to Chanshanju to find you, is that okay?"
"I won't be going back to Chanshanju recently, and..." Fu Xijing leaned closer to her, "Song Yi, don't bargain with me, I don't like it."
Song Yi heard a warning in his gentle words.
She lowered her head and said no more.
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At nine o'clock, Miki felt sleepy and went upstairs to sleep yawning.
When Song Yi came back from the balcony after hanging up the clothes, Fu Xijing was the only one left in the living room.
Fu Xijing stood up and walked towards Song Yi, picked her up and carried her to the room on the second floor.
Within two minutes, Song Yi was pressed down on the bed in the master bedroom by Fu Xijing.
The world was spinning.
Song Yi finally came back to her senses and heard Fu Xijing say, "You really enjoy being a nanny."
Song Yi heard his sarcasm and remained silent.
He asked her to stay, and she told Miki that she was a nanny. In order to avoid her suspicion, she had to keep finding things to do.
Song Yi didn't understand what Fu Xijing was dissatisfied with. It couldn't be that he didn't want her to treat him as a nanny.
Fu Xijing: "Mopping the floor and washing clothes, you really think you're a babysitter."
Fu Xijing's words suddenly reminded Song Yi of an incident that happened many years ago.
Fu Xijing came back from a business trip after a few days and had a cough, so she made Tremella and Pear Soup.
When I sent the stew to his study and knocked on the door, he happened to be on the phone.
The person on the other side must have asked who she was, and Fu Xijing said that she was a nanny.
So, if she really considers herself a nanny now, what's the problem?
Thinking of this incident, Song Yi's face turned pale and his breathing became uncontrollably rapid.
Fu Xijing was probably dissatisfied with her silence, so he pinched her chin and kissed her.
Song Yi closed his eyes, grabbed the sheets under him, and waited quietly for everything to happen.
She tried to numb herself. It would be over soon. It would always end between them. She had to endure it, endure it...
But Fu Xijing had no intention of letting her go so easily.
Not long after, Song Yi was picked up from the bed by him.
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Song Yi shuddered and subconsciously wanted to get up and leave, but Fu Xijing directly pressed her hips, leaving her no room to escape.
Song Yi looked at him with tears in her eyes and a look of panic.
"Now you know to open your eyes." Fu Xijing pinched her buttocks, "I said I don't like you closing your eyes at times like this, you always forget what I said."
Song Yi pursed his lips.
"As punishment, do it yourself." Fu Xijing pulled her hand and supported it on his lower abdomen. "You haven't forgotten this, right?"
…
Song Yi's brain was burning with anxiety.
I don’t know how long it lasted, but my drifting consciousness was suddenly brought back to life by a rapid vibration.
Her distracted vision refocused and she saw Fu Xijing pick up the phone and put it to her ear.
"Ru Shuang." As he answered the phone, he sat up and held her in his arms with his other hand.
Song Yi's hand gripped his arm tightly.
Did he know what he was doing? Did he have to humiliate her like this?
"Is Miki asleep?" Song Yi was forced to lean on Fu Xijing's arms and heard clearly what Xu Rushuang said on the other end.
Fu Xijing: "I slept at nine o'clock."
Xu Rushuang: "What's wrong with your voice? Do you have a cold?"
Fu Xijing: "I was half asleep when you woke me up."
Xu Rushuang: "This isn't the first time I've quarreled with you. Do you still want to lose your temper with me?"
Fu Xijing: "I dare not."
Xu Rushuang smiled: "That's more like it. Remember not to let Miki eat too much sweets. I have something else to do here. I'm hanging up now."
Fu Xijing: "It's up to you if you want to eat sweets."
As Song Yi listened to the conversation between the two, a sense of shame kept rising in his heart, and his face felt like he had been slapped several times.
Especially Fu Xijing’s words “I dare not” just now.
The way he treated Xu Rushuang was completely different from the way he treated her.
Fu Xijing hung up the phone and bent down to kiss her.
Song Yi dodged calmly.
Fu Xijing held her head and stared into her red eyes: "What? Are you feeling guilty?"
Song Yi: "Anyone who has a sense of shame will feel guilty."
Fu Xijing: "Maybe you can think of another way."
He pursed his lips, "For example, taking that legitimate position."
Song Yi frowned, not understanding what he meant.
Under her gaze, Fu Xijing explained slowly, "If you work harder, I'll make you a regular employee. How about that?"
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