Episode 268 Five Years
Through Fu Xijing, Song Yi experienced what it meant to be "a shameless person who is invincible in the world."
She was not good at arguing with others, and when she met someone like Fu Xijing who could handle any move without getting angry, she had no idea how to deal with it.
Fu Xijing seemed to really want to pursue her, but she had no confidence in being with him.
If you can't afford to provoke someone, you can afford to avoid them, Song Yi thought silently. Just endure these few days and everything will be fine after going to Sanya.
Fu Xijing picked up the pillow and stared at Song Yi and smiled. Seeing that she had her eyes downcast for a long time without responding, he patted her shoulder.
"What's wrong?" he asked in a low voice, "Are you feeling unwell?"
Song Yi shook his head to indicate no.
"Are you thinking about breaking up with Bian Cheng?" Fu Xijing put the pillow aside. "You don't have to feel so burdened. There's no such thing as one person wronging the other between you and him."
Fu Xijing understood Song Yi very well in this regard. She was used to taking care of others. Bian Cheng treated her well and they got along harmoniously. Even if she knew about Liang Lixia, she might not be too embarrassed to take the initiative to break up.
That's why he thought of using Zhou Qisheng to provoke Biancheng - in this way, the possibility of Biancheng taking the initiative to break up would be greater.
Song Yi lowered her head and said nothing, because that was not what she was thinking about at all.
Fu Xijing thought she was hesitating, so he chuckled and sighed, "Why were you so decisive when you broke up with me back then?"
How can it be the same?
Song Yi raised his eyelids and looked at him.
Fu Xijing took her face in his hands and met her gaze. "Are you afraid you're getting too deep into this, huh?"
Although he was asking, his gaze was strong and his tone was firm, as if he had already accepted the fact that she loved him.
Song Yi's heart skipped a beat, and she avoided him. "I'm breaking up with you because the agreement has expired. I can find a job now, and I don't need to—"
"You received the postcard from Greece." Fu Xijing interrupted her pale sophistry.
When he said this, Song Yi was stunned for a few seconds, and then his face became a little ugly.
Shortness of breath.
Postcard...how did he know?
"The last time you were hospitalized for pneumonia, I saw it when I went to your house to collect your luggage." Fu Xijing saw Song Yi's confusion at a glance, and without waiting for her to ask, he began to explain what happened to her.
Song Yi listened to his explanation, grabbed the quilt beside him again, and clenched his teeth.
During those two years, Fu Xijing gave her many gifts, and she kept them all when they parted.
The bag and jewelry were not things she liked, and they were too expensive and should not belong to him.
Just like him.
Among the things Fu Xijing gave her, the only thing Song Yi took away were the postcards - which Fu Xijing sent back when he was on a business trip to Greece.
He had never mentioned this matter to her. She thought that he must have just happened to come across it and sent a few pictures casually, and maybe he had forgotten about it.
Because when he came back later, he brought her another gift, which was very expensive.
So, when she received the postcard that year, she didn't ask him what was going on.
She hid the postcard in a book and took it away. She could only take away something that he didn't remember.
When Song Yi just separated from Fu Xijing and returned to China, he went through a period of confusion. Because of exams and work, his life was very stressful and his emotions were very unstable.
Whenever she felt like she couldn't hold on any longer, she would take out these postcards and look at them.
Later, she got a position at a school and her work and life gradually got back on track. She began to consciously forget those two years.
She thought about throwing away the postcards, but couldn't bring herself to do it, so she stuffed them in a drawer.
It has not been turned over for a long time.
Song Yi never thought that one day this postcard would be seen by Fu Xijing.
And... he actually still remembered.
"I thought you didn't receive it." Fu Xijing's voice interrupted Song Yi's chaotic thoughts. "When I sent it, the post office told me that it might be lost."
Since she didn't mention it, he assumed it was lost.
"Why keep it?" Fu Xijing asked knowingly.
His voice was not loud, but his attitude was aggressive, as if he would not give up until he got an answer.
Song Yi was forced into a corner by him. He took a deep breath and looked at him: "Does this give you a sense of accomplishment?"
"It has nothing to do with this." Fu Xijing said, "I just want to confirm that you are kind to me—"
"Yes, I liked you back then." Song Yi interrupted him, "But I also know very well that there is no possibility between us."
"It's my fault." Fu Xijing had already thought about this matter seriously. "I was too harsh in my words."
"It's not your problem, and it's not my problem either. We're just not suitable for each other." Song Yi shook his head. "You were very good to me in the beginning. Just like you said, without you, I might have been-"
"Song Yi, stop talking." Fu Xijing interrupted her. Thinking of his previous attitude towards her, he wanted to go back and sew his mouth shut. "I'm sorry."
After the two of them talked about this matter seriously, Song Yi's emotions gradually calmed down.
When Fu Xijing held her up, she didn't push him away, but just gently closed her eyes.
"Let's put the past behind us." Song Yi said softly.
Fu Xijing: "What about the future?"
"Fu Xijing, I don't want my mother to know what happened back then." Song Yi was silent for a few seconds. "From now on, let's just pretend that nothing happened."
Hearing this, Fu Xijing immediately tightened his grip on her.
Compared to Song Yi's direct rejection, these words made him even more uneasy.
Fu Xijing moved his lips, but before he could say anything, he heard her say, "We are not the same kind of people. If two people want to be together, it's not possible to stay together just because we have feelings for each other."
Their personalities and styles can be said to be completely opposite.
Fu Xijing is vigorous and decisive, with high execution ability. He has a firm sense of self and strong beliefs, and never cares about the opinions of others. This is his innate confidence and capital, and it is also what she will never be able to become.
Back then, she had envied him countless times.
She also knew that there were many problems in her personality, such as being hesitant, indecisive, sensitive and suspicious... If possible, she also hoped that she could live like Fu Xijing.
But we have been like this for more than 20 years, it is impossible to change overnight.
After hearing what Song Yi said, Fu Xijing was silent for a long time.
It was the first time for the two of them to communicate so seriously and frankly.
You can tell that every word she said was from the heart.
But, this is the truth...
"Song Yi." Fu Xijing let go of her and looked into her eyes again. "You can try to believe me. I won't leave you."
Song Yi shook his head.
Fu Xijing was helpless, "You haven't even tried it, how can you be so sure?"
"I think you had the same idea when you fell in love with Miki's mother."
Fu Xijing's shoulders stiffened when he heard this.
Xu Rushuang's matter was there, and he had no way to explain it.
Song Yi had never felt safe and didn't trust him much, and when she saw him "falling in love with someone else", it was hard for her not to put herself in the situation.
There was silence in the ward for a long time.
Finally, Fu Xijing stared into Song Yi's eyes and slowly said, "Let's make a deal, Song Yi."
"Five years," he said. "If I still have the same thoughts in five years as I do today, will that be enough for you to believe me for once?"
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