"Why are you looking at me like that? I know what I said may have hurt you accidentally, but this is reality. Even parents will bow to reality and give up their children.
I've experienced this kind of pain, so I won't let my child go through it again. I'm not questioning you, I'm just worried that if you dislike him one day, he'll be hurt again. Why not..."
"Secondary harm?" Zhan Beiqin looked at her and asked, "You're also afraid of these four words, so you're determined to divorce me, right? Because you were abandoned by your biological parents, because you were deceived and used by Zhou Guisheng, so you don't give your true heart easily.
But you gave me your true heart, but you found out that I have been hurting you, taking revenge on you, and despised you when I saw your appearance in your previous life.
So you're afraid that my acceptance is only temporary, and that if I dislike you again in the future, you'll be even more hurt, right?"
"Since you know, why are you still asking? There are reasons for this, and the most important reason is that you really hurt me.
It was you who had been lying to me, clearly plotting against me and seeking revenge. It was also you who, after seeing my appearance in my past life, showed an expression of disgust and evasion. Zhan Beiqin, did I wrongly accuse you?
"You said I've been lying to you and plotting against you. I'm not wronged by that. I admit it all. But you said I disliked your ugliness because I saw what you looked like in your past life. I don't admit that. You're wronging me!
After I saw what you looked like in your past life, I did try to escape. That was just because I was shocked and found it difficult to accept the fact that I saw what you looked like in your past life.
Because I have fallen in love with you, I have accepted that you are Ren Rongzheng, I have accepted everything about you now, I have cut myself off from the things of my previous life, and I no longer think about the things of my previous life.
I have completely accepted that I am the Zhan Beiqin of this era. My father is Zhan Tianzhu, I have a stepmother named Zhang Shuqin, and my wife is you, Ren Rongzheng.
I have accepted all these things, but suddenly I saw you in my previous life. I had only seen you in my previous life once, before I died.
You are the one who killed me, you are the one who shot the bullet into my heart. You say that I hate you, or that I have a shadow over you. Isn't this normal?
It has nothing to do with your appearance at all. Even if you were as beautiful as Xi Shi in your previous life, you are the one who killed me. You are also the last person I see before I die.
I have a psychological shadow about this person, and an unsolvable knot in my heart. When I have completely accepted my current self, I am suddenly pulled back to my previous life.
I can't stay calm and composed as if nothing happened. I can't face you like before, so I have a temporary escape. It is an escape from the knot in my heart that I can't get over, not because of your appearance.
Zhou Guisheng told you, I just dislike your looks, I just dislike you being ugly, and you believed him just because he said that, but why are you willing to believe him and not me?
I really have never disliked your appearance, and since that incident until now, I still see you as Rumo, and I have accepted it a long time ago. I don’t think you are ugly, and I have never thought so.
I can apologize for the things I did in the past that hurt you, and I can also think of ways to make amends, but you are wronging me by saying that I dislike your ugliness. I never did!
I can swear on my military faith that if I tell a lie, I will be nailed to the pillar of shame, and I will be stripped of my uniform and kicked out of the military area in the most embarrassing way.
Zhan Beiqin was a little excited when he spoke just now, because he really couldn't help it, and he also hated the feeling of being wronged.
"Rong Zheng, please believe me. Every word I say is true. The past was all my fault, my stupidity, my selfishness, but I really don't dislike you. I really love you, it's true!"
Ren Rongzheng turned away and stopped talking. At this moment, she suddenly didn't know what to say, and she didn't dare to look into his eyes again.
"I know you long for family affection. You were hurt once after being abandoned by your parents. Then you regarded Zhou Guisheng as your biological father, but he used you again.
You have been hurt time and time again, and this time I have made you no longer believe in feelings or anyone. I understand all your emotions.
I just want you to give me another chance. I will spend my whole life proving to you that instead of keeping running away like this, you might as well be brave and give it a try, just a try.
Don't be sincere to me anymore, just be patient for the sake of the child and test me first, okay?"
Zhan Beiqin took Ren Rongzheng's hand and forced her to look at him. Ren Rongzheng no longer dared to look into his eyes, because at this moment his eyes were filled with tears and were about to flow out at any time.
Seeing her evasive look, Zhan Beiqin didn't know what was wrong with him. Maybe he was just too excited. He put his arms around her neck and asked her to come over, then kissed her on the mouth.
Ren Rongzheng didn't expect that she would be kissed by Zhan Beiqin forcibly. She tried to push him away, but she couldn't at all, so she could only be kissed by him like this.
He really knew the technique and understood her sensitive points. In just a few seconds, he made her go from resistance to agreement, and then turned her into an emotionless machine that catered to him.
It was not until Erbao started crying that Ren Rongzheng came to his senses and pushed Zhan Beiqin away.
Hearing the child crying, even if he was not pushed away, Zhan Beiqin had to take care of the child first. He hurried over and picked up the child.
"What's wrong, baby? Are you hungry again?"
Zhan Beiqin first walked back and forth in the room holding the child to comfort him, but it was completely ineffective. Ren Rongzheng then said, "He must be hungry. Bring him here and I'll feed him."
"Okay, then you feed him."
Zhan Beiqin handed the child to her. Ren Rongzheng took the child and began to feed him. The little guy ate the milk very happily and closed his eyes after eating for a while.
"He's really hungry. This little thing has a really big appetite. Now there's no one else competing with him for breast milk, and he can't drink enough by himself."
"Yeah, if he keeps drinking like this, he'll get fat in a few days. By the time he goes back, he'll be fatter than his big brother and little sister."
"Yes, he will soon become a little fat boy, a cute little fat boy."
Zhan Beiqin said this with a smile while rubbing his face.
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