Chapter 133
"You mean, cream needs to be whipped, time needs to be whipped, cream needs air to be whipped, and time needs air to be whipped?"
Paradise asked.
The shadow laughed and said, "I didn't say that."
He shook his head: "But, it's not impossible to say that."
Paradise asked: "What do we do next?"
The shadow said, "You look hot. You need to rest."
Leyuan rubbed his wrist and said, "The wound is numb from the pain. I can't move. If I move, it hurts so much that I can't sleep. But when I'm still, it's like a piece of skin is missing from my back. Only the bones are still there. But it's a good thing that the bones are not there at this time."
The shadow whispered, "Go to sleep."
Leyuan responded, closed his eyes, and gradually fell asleep.
The door creaked open and Sick Aga came back from outside, holding a package of something that looked like medicine but also seemed not to be.
Unable to make out what it was, he put the thing down and walked quietly to the side of Leyuan. He heaved a sigh of relief when he found that Leyuan had rested. He turned around to get the thing and opened the package. Inside was a pile of black pills that looked like candies that had been packaged in a not-so-pretty way. The surface gave off a faint sweet smell like that of low-quality chocolate, and inside was some white powder that smelled like medicine.
Sick Aga gave the pill to Leyuan to eat, then took out the ointment that someone had given him and applied it evenly on the wound on Leyuan's back. The next day, Leyuan woke up, sat up abruptly, and touched his back. It was sticky, partly due to sweat and partly due to the residue of the ointment. He quickly got up to wash his hands, and brushed his teeth and rinsed his mouth.
Sick Aga had gotten up a long time ago and was washing his face. When Leyuan walked over, Sick Aga was startled when he put down his hands. If you didn't know, you would think that he was preparing to play hide-and-seek and suddenly found that the person he was hiding was standing right in front of him.
Leyuan smiled at the sick Aga and said, "Thank you for taking care of me last night."
Sick Ajia pulled him back into the house with some concern: "It's windy outside. If you stand there, something bad might happen again."
Paradise said indifferently: "It won't be like that. I'm fine. I'm fine now."
Sick Aga didn't quite believe him, but nodded: "Okay."
He walked around the park twice and asked, "Hey, is your wound better? Does it hurt less?"
Leyuan said, "It doesn't hurt that much anymore. I think there's medicine. Did you give it to me last night?"
Sick Ajia said, "Yes, I was supposed to apply the medicine during the day, but you seemed to have other things to do, so I didn't tell you."
Leyuan sat down: "It's okay if you don't say anything."
Sick Aga asked: "Then shall I go get breakfast now?"
Leyuan looked at it hesitantly and asked, "Will they not send it over?"
Sick Aga said, "It depends on the situation. They don't know when we will wake up. Even if they can deliver food to us, they can only deliver it at a fixed time and place. If we get up late, the food they deliver will be cold. If we get up early, we will be starving when they deliver it to us. Isn't that appropriate?"
He paused. "In theory, they will come, but in reality, whether they come or not, I think they probably won't come. As far as I know, the kitchen is open 24 hours a day, so there's nothing wrong with that."
Leyuan waved his hand: "Then go ahead."
Sick Aga nodded.
Leyuan touched his back and felt that the wound was scabbing. He tore off a small piece and his back started bleeding again. Leyuan went out to wash his hands again and put on his clothes. He felt something sticky and found that it was the blood on his back that stuck to his clothes. No wonder it hurt when he moved.
Someone knocked on the door. Le Yuan went over and found that it was Wu Rizhao's people. He asked him to come over to meet them. Le Yuan followed them. Wu Rizhao sat in his usual seat and looked at him and said, "Although you are injured, you don't have to come over, but I have something to say to you, so you still have to come over. Logically, I should go to find you, but you are the one who made the mistake, so I don't want to go."
Le Yuan whispered, "It's my fault."
Wu Rizhao smiled and said, "Sit down."
Leyuan nodded and carefully sat on the stool next to him. There was breakfast on the table.
Wu Rizhao said: "If you are hungry, you can eat now. Just listen to me while you eat."
Leyuan shook his head quickly. Although his eyes were still on the food on the table, he tried his best to draw his attention back and said to Wu Rizhao, "No, I'm not very hungry now. What do you want to say?"
Wu Rizhao asked, "Are you feeling better?"
Leyuan was stunned for a moment: "Better."
Wu Rizhao nodded: "What do you want to eat next?"
Leyuan said: "I don't have any particular likes, only some that I particularly dislike, and my brother knows them all."
Wu Rizhao asked: "You were beaten, don't you hate me?"
Leyuan whispered, "When it hurt, I felt very disgusted, but now it doesn't hurt that much anymore. Besides, I was indeed at fault in this matter, and it is right for my brother to punish me. Mistakes should be punished, and good deeds should be rewarded. My brother has done nothing wrong, and I have no reason to resent him."
Wu Rizhao somehow heard the hidden meaning and said with a smile: "There is no reason, it's just that the mood in your heart still makes you think this way?"
Leyuan hesitated for a moment: "Not completely. After all, it hurts a lot. I can't guarantee that I don't have any resentment at all, but I definitely don't think that way now."
Wu Rizhao no longer bothered about this question: "Okay."
He waved his hand and asked someone to bring out some boxes. When they were opened, there were some things inside that looked very expensive. Leyuan looked at them and was not interested, but was in awe of them. Wu Rizhao said, "These things are all for you. When you go back, take them back and use them for yourself. You can leave them alone or just look at them."
Wu Rizhao pointed to a small blue bottle and said, "Royal jelly, with some herbs added, can be taken as a medicine. Food supplements are worse than medicine supplements. You have learned a little bit, so you should know this. I will not say more. When you drink water, ask your personal attendant to add a little for you. Stir it evenly, and it will be a good drink."
Rakuen nodded.
Wu Rizhao pointed to a white and blue translucent flower with slender petals that exuded an icy aura and said, "Ice Holy Lotus can reduce internal heat and relieve heat. Just put it in the house and it can also be cool in the summer. It has the effect of cooling down and relieving summer heat. If used as medicine, it is a good herbal medicine for detoxifying snake venom, relieving heat, and removing dampness, wind, cold, and heat. If soaked in water, the effect is similar to chrysanthemum tea, and it can also clear the mind and improve eyesight."
Paradise nodded.
Wu Rizhao pointed to an old diamond-shaped stone that was red, hot, and covered with cracks. It looked like a piece of mud hiding magma, or like chocolate wrapped in durian jam. He said to Leyuan, "This is magma stone. If you put it in the house, it can also keep warm in winter. Just don't make the house too big, and don't have too many people. You can open the windows for ventilation, but don't close them too tightly, or you'll suffocate."
Paradise curiously asked: "Why can't we put it in the house when there are many people?"
Wu Rizhao smiled and said, "It's not impossible, but if you use this thing in a room with a group of people, the room will soon become a steamer. This thing will become a flame, a stove, and a firewood that produces little smoke. I'm afraid something bad will happen."
Paradise asked: "So, the more people there are, the hotter it gets?"
Wu Rizhao nodded: "Yes, that's the case for now."
Rakuen nodded.
Wu Rizhao pointed to a pastry on a white porcelain plate nearby. It looked yellowish on the outside and pink inside, stacked layer by layer, crispy and hollow, sweet and rich in taste. Leyuan blinked, and Wu Rizhao said, "The one on this plate is a dish of flying phoenix peony rolls. It is said that it is made of real phoenix feathers."
Le Yuan murmured, "But, a phoenix is also a bird, right? If it is a bird, its feathers are probably not clean. This sounds like using bird feathers to add to dough to make pastries. It doesn't seem like it would be particularly delicious."
Wu Rizhao smiled and said, “That’s not the case. Although it is said to be a phoenix, the phoenix mentioned here is from one day, at dusk, when a cloud of auspicious colors suddenly appeared in the sky, with large, complex and blurred characters. It looked like a phoenix spreading its wings and ready to fly. It was very beautiful. Everyone looked up and marveled at it. Later, the story of this day was spread to the palace.
When the emperor heard about it, he wrote a poem, saying that auspicious signs had descended from the sky and a phoenix was flying.
So, people called the auspicious clouds seen that night "Phoenix", and the appearance of the auspicious clouds was said to be a flying phoenix. At that time, the owner of a pastry shop stood up and said that after seeing the auspicious clouds that day, he went home to ponder and carefully create a replica of the feeling of seeing the auspicious clouds that day, and created the Flying Phoenix Peony Scroll.
This thing is made of peony petals and peony nectar as the filling, peony leaves as the base, peony branches as decoration, jasmine tea as the base, rose and lemon peels boiled in water and mixed with flour to make the dough, lemon juice for seasoning, and a magical ingredient is added, which is phoenix feathers. The phoenix feathers here refer to a piece of golden powder that fell from the auspicious clouds in the sky, and some say it is real clouds.
If it is well made, it can be kept for at least one month, and up to three hundred years. "
Paradise asked: "What do you mean three hundred years? Has anyone tested it?"
Wu Rizhao said: "There is no test, but if someone really tests this, they would have died long ago, without descendants, and can only ask others to watch. Others don't care, can't eat, and have no blood relationship, so why would they care? Even if it can last for 300 years, no one knows if it is really 300 years. Unless someone uses this as a gimmick, it is not impossible.
不過，我不是跟你說那樣的三百年，只是說，按照這糕點的情況，推測計算出來的時間期限，你可以放心，只要沒有打散了，你就是兩百年之後死了，它也還來得及在爛之前被你吃掉。”
樂園笑道：“那真是太好了。”
吳日照說：“是啊，好得很呢。”
他又随意介紹了一些其他東西，揮了揮手對樂園說：“這些東西先給你，你要是用不上就放在房間裏，要是想吃了想用了，拿出來就可以，你不記得沒有關系，叫你的貼身侍從記得就可以，對了，人呢？”
樂園說：“去廚房給我找早餐去了。”
吳日照笑道：“行，看來他一個人有點忙不過來。不過，下次要是再讓我知道他把你丢在旁邊自己出門去了，我就當他是玩忽職守，要重罰了。”
樂園眨了眨眼睛：“我會轉告他這個事情的。”
吳日照笑道：“這也沒什麽，他不知道，下次我見了，也許還要問一問呢。”
樂園不知道怎麽回答，應了一聲。
吳日照問：“他對你說了什麽時候回來嗎？”
樂園搖了搖頭：“沒有。”
吳日照拍板說：“那你就在這裏吃一點早餐再走吧。回去也許又餓了呢。現在已經不早了，也就是你今天才回來，我沒想讓你去給你老師見禮，你既然決定好點兒了，明天或者後天，你就應該重新去上課了。”
樂園說：“我知道了。”
吳日照讓樂園吃了一點東西，看着他走出去，對他揮了揮手說有空之後再見面，樂園點了點頭，吳日照想了想，讓人用轎子把樂園擡回去，樂園也不想走路了，聽見還有轎子可以坐，順勢就答應了，一群人又是擡轎子又是拿東西，跟着走了一路，簡直浩浩蕩蕩。
到了門口，轎子落在地上，樂園都快睡着了，感覺到好像可以進門了，睜開眼睛，邊上伸過來一只手，扶着樂園下了轎子，樂園轉過頭一看，發現是病阿加，笑道：“啊，你回來了？帶了什麽東西？”
樂園說着，在他手裏打量，沒有看見，疑惑地望向病阿加，病阿加說：“帶了，已經放在屋子裏了，我以為人在屋子裏，進去之後沒有看見，就出來了，沒想到人在這裏，還是剛剛到的。”
樂園點了點頭：“那我們一起進去吧。”
他一邊走一邊問：“你吃了沒有？”
病阿加說：“沒有吃，不敢在主人還沒有吃的時候自己吃了，怕我回來晚了，主人就等得久了。”
樂園說：“那你還挺好的。”
病阿加笑了笑。
一群人跟着進來，手裏都捧着盒子，病阿加看了他們一眼，他們恭恭敬敬規規矩矩站在旁邊，站成了一排，樂園坐下來說：“他們是哥哥派來給我送東西的，東西到了，大概就可以走了，還是要回去的，他們手裏的盒子就是哥哥要給我的東西，讓我帶回來，你給我看看。
安排一下，放在哪裏，都随你的心意，只要要用的時候能拿得出來，找得出來就可以了。”
病阿加問：“我能看看都是什麽東西嗎？”
樂園說：“可以，你讓他們給你看。”
那些人就打開了盒子，一一介紹起來。
病阿加嘆為觀止，眨了眨眼睛，點了點頭，對那些人幾乎有些義正嚴辭似的說：“我都知道了，你們可以放下東西走了。”
他們面面相觑，本來是準備走的，但是想了想，還是說：“我們可以在這裏将東西放好之後再離開，這點小事就讓我們來吧。不要緊的，不需要很久，大人也不會為這個責罰我們。”
病阿加眨了眨眼睛，看向樂園，樂園說：“他們要幫忙，是好事，讓他們幫忙吧。”
病阿加點了點頭，對那些人說：“那好，你們跟我來。”
樂園坐在這裏，這裏是接待客人、吃飯、休息和玩的地方，算是堂屋，邊上是卧室浴室和雜物間，這些東西放在雜物間不太好，但可以放在隔壁的珍寶古玩儲藏室，還有一個書屋，病阿加讓人放了東西，把人送出去，他們就都走了，這裏安靜下來，一下子好像空了許多。
因為少了一大堆的人，樂園更放松了一點，看向緩緩走回來的病阿加問：“你沒有去別的地方吧？”
病阿加問：“什麽地方？我去了廚房，還從廚房走回來，就沒有去其他地方了。”
樂園笑道：“好。”
他将吳日照要對病阿加說的話說了，病阿加點了點頭：“我知道了。”
樂園說：“只是，若要身邊多許多人，我很讨厭他們，也讨厭那樣的情況，若是只有你，我身邊少不得有些時候是沒有人的，平時我也自己過，或許是哥哥覺得我那個時候，身體健康，腦子也正常，就不管許多，免得我覺得受到約束，這次事情之後，哥哥對我的印象有所改變。
他覺得我現在身體不夠健康，腦子也不夠清醒，要是不管不顧，也許還會出事，別說出更大的事情，就算是一模一樣的事情，他也禁不住，就要在我身邊多放兩個人了。”
病阿加說：“放兩個人也沒什麽。我們不打擾主人就是了。”
他頓了頓，望着樂園問：“主人介意這裏多兩個人嗎？”
樂園說：“除非他們不讓我看見，只在我不在的房間裏面做事，在我不出門的時候出門，在我出門的時候也不要跟着我，那才好。這裏的事情确實需要些人手，要是每天都讓其他人過來，我還忍不下去呢。只是不知道哥哥怎麽安排了。”
病阿加問：“如果我去找大人商量，說您需要仆人，您看這裏能多兩個人嗎？”
樂園皺了皺眉：“我不喜歡，如果真是那樣，我就不高興了，不過，事情這麽多，也确實需要其他人，但是，你怎麽能肯定哥哥會答應你？你可是正在接受懲罰。”
病阿加說：“要是大人要懲罰我，也是我應該接受的。只是，大人之前沒有像對待那個仆人那樣對我，是因為我在主人身邊，大人顧忌主人的面子，又怕傷了二人的情面，才留我一命，我知道情況，已經感激不盡了。
若是再有其他人在這裏，大人也不必擔心傷了我，我就不能好好服侍主人，論起來，大人要罰我，無論如何都是應該的，我若是一味想逃這個，也許主人知道了，反而不高興呢，這種事情，早點接受早點好，一拖再拖還不知道會怎麽樣呢。”
樂園說：“那好，你去吧。”
病阿加點了點頭，好一陣子之後，他帶着兩個打掃的婆子兩個灑水的丫鬟四個大丫鬟四個小厮回來了，走近了之後傳來一股血腥氣味，大概是後背也受傷了。
樂園對他們點了點頭，就叫他們各自去做事，不要在自己面前來。
他們就走開了。
病阿加站在原地，猶豫了一下，也要走開，樂園喊住了他問：“哎，那些人裏面，誰是給我每天拿飯菜的？”
病阿加說：“飯菜會送過來，他們會去門口拿進來，等用完了，再拿走送到廚房去清洗。廚房自然有人處理用過的碗筷。他們就可以回來了。”
樂園問：“那他們平時都做什麽呢？”
病阿加說：“打掃衛生，給花草樹木澆水松土捉蟲，洗衣服，拿東西，搬東西，若有其他事情，也可以叫他們。”
樂園問：“那四個小厮是你的意思還是我哥哥的意思？”
病阿加說：“大人的意思是，主人若是要去學習，是應該的，但是身上有傷，一時半會還好不起來，一個人去不太安全，要是出事了，總不能讓老師把人搬出來，那些小厮就怕出事才讓帶的，可以送主人去，再送主人回來，幫主人拿東西，看着主人不亂跑，免得又出去了。”
樂園：“哦，原來是來看我的。看守？”
病阿加笑了笑：“若是主人再要出去，也肯定比上次更危險，不如暫時不要出去，大人也是為了主人着想。”
樂園斜了他一眼：“你以為我不知道？我要是不知道，就要鬧了，我還沒發脾氣呢，你着急勸我做什麽？”
病阿加笑了笑：“是我的錯。冒犯了主人，該打。”
樂園說：“那倒不需要，我還有事情要問你呢。那幾個小厮，他們負責擡轎子嗎？”
病阿加說：“他們可以擡轎子，只是我們這裏暫時沒有轎子，路也不算遠，大人的意思還是讓主人自己走過去。要是主人生病了，他們輪流想辦法把人送回來也不是不可以。”
樂園皺了皺眉：“那他們只能替我拿東西？我的東西不至于多得需要他們來？”
病阿加笑道：“有人拿着東西，總比什麽都自己來更好一些。”
樂園興致缺缺：“哦，可是，我的東西也不多，這不是有你嗎？你可以替我拿，何必要他們呢？”
他想起來了：“我哥哥怕你突然半路不見了，又要我去找你，再出些事情，他不好安心，就讓他們來看着我，防着你，順便把你割開了去，叫你之後也不跟我一起去上學了？”
病阿加說：“是。”
樂園笑了一聲：“原來是這樣啊。”
他換了個姿勢在沙發上仰着頭問：“那你在我這裏豈不是無所事事了？你做什麽呢？”
病阿加說：“我照舊當主人的貼身侍從，只是那四個大丫鬟也可以給主人當貼身的仆人，主人若是有事，吩咐她們如同吩咐我一樣。”
樂園說：“可她們不是你，你也不是她們，你比她們來得早，雖說出了事情，但也算對我盡心盡力了，我哥哥讓這麽多人過來，豈不是要把你擠走？你走了，我跟她們一點不熟，有什麽意思呢。”
他說着又翻了一個方向，有點悶悶不樂。
病阿加說：“沒關系的，主人早晚會和他們熟悉起來。”
樂園說：“我不想要他們。”
病阿加說：“那等主人見到了大人，親自說吧。不然，我去說了，大人會誤會我是嫉賢妒能的人，我就更加不能留在主人身邊了。”
樂園笑了一聲：“我知道了。”
他漸漸睡着了。
病阿加看他不說話了，輕手輕腳走了出去，關上了門，并囑咐其他人小聲一些。
那些人都點了點頭，病阿加才走遠了。
他們不知道病阿加要去哪裏，只是面面相觑，都覺得有點奇怪，甚至蠢蠢欲動想要打報告。
樂園一覺醒來，已經是晚上了，邊上一群人圍着他，團團的，小心翼翼問：“怎麽了？怎麽樣？要不要吃點什麽？”
樂園眯了眯眼睛，從這些模糊的臉之中沒有看見病阿加，問他們：“你們來之前就在的那個人呢？他又不在了？玩忽職守去了哪裏？你們怎麽不看着他一點？”
他們低聲說：“我們不是看他的。”
一個大丫鬟走出來對樂園說：“那個人已經出去了，好久沒有回來，不知道去了哪裏，他走的時候，沒有告訴我們什麽，我們也不是奉命來看着他的，您要是想見他，恐怕要等他想起來了，自己回來了。現在還不是時候，他好像有事，也許再等一段時間就自己回來了呢？”
樂園瞥了她一眼，笑了一下：“那好，你們都出去吧。”
樂園見他們不走，重複了一遍：“出去。”
那些人才磨磨蹭蹭走出去了，出去的時候順手把門關上了屋子裏一片漆黑，樂園窩在沙發裏面，對黑影喃喃道：“奇怪，奇怪，這裏已經有這麽多人了，他怎麽還是老往外面跑？不知道的還以為外面有許多的事情。”
樂園頓了頓，疑惑地問：“他之前是不是什麽都沒有跟我說？我是不是忘了問他，他雖然不見了，但是，臨走之前分明是答應了要替我去老師的住處找東西的，東西呢？他找到哪裏去了？人都能找不見了，我還沒問他呢。他究竟為什麽就那麽出去了？”
黑影說：“多說無益，他現在又不在這裏，問了又能怎麽樣？你保證他說出來的一定是真話？他沒有主動提起來，大概是不想說，要麽就是忘了，但是，這些事情都不能說不要緊，他就是一開始忘了，之後也應該想起來了，就像是你現在這樣，事情還是他的呢。
他應該比你更早知道更早想起來才對，可是，他之前和你說話的時候都沒有說，你就應該知道他在想什麽了。他不想跟你說這些，要麽是把你當外人，要麽是把你當不該知道這些事情的人。”
樂園問：“外人和不該知道有什麽區別嗎？”
黑影笑道：“外人，就說明他從來沒把你當親近的，不該知道，也許他是存了一點想要保護你的心思，但是，僅此而已了，他都不肯對你說實在話，你總不能真的以為他是對你掏心掏肺了吧？
說起來，他這個人也是有些矛盾的，一邊這麽親力親為照顧你說那些廢話，一邊又這麽躲着你，到處逃跑似的亂走，不知道去了哪裏，總是不見人，是不是心裏在想什麽謀財害命的勾當啊？”
樂園看了黑影一眼：“應該不會，我覺得不會，他要是想謀財害命，早就可以殺了我，何必等到今天？”
黑影笑道：“那也不一定，也許他就是想殺人誅心，你要是覺得他是個好人了，他再把你殺了，你就會在臨死之前都覺得他是好人，覺得他有苦衷，可以原諒，或者，恨得咬牙切齒，希望連他一起下阿鼻地獄。”
樂園笑道：“說得好像我已經在地獄裏面了。”
黑影頓了頓，轉過頭去，對着牆上樂園的影子問：“怎麽不算呢？其實地獄也有很多種。不管是真正的地獄還是各種宗教描述的地獄，都各不相同。有些地獄痛苦不堪，是讓人受罪的地方，有些地獄無聊透頂，是讓人發瘋的地方，有些地獄美好如同幻覺，讓人堕落。
你以為的好地方，确實有好處，但，好地方就真是想象之中的那麽好嗎？
我不想跟你說這個的，什麽沒有無緣無故的好處壞處，我只覺得他們腦子有病，他們也不是今天才腦子有病，問題在于，有些人是正常的，只不過，他們要麽不承認，要麽承認了之後就更不正常了，比本來就不正常的人還不正常，我能有什麽辦法呢？只是看着罷了。
我希望一切好處都是真的，但是你我都知道，那是不可能的。難過透頂了，不是嗎？”
樂園眯着眼睛說：“也不是不可能。”
黑影轉過臉來，看向樂園問：“你認得我是誰嗎？”
樂園搖了搖頭：“不認得。”
黑影問：“你以為我應該是誰呢？”
樂園看着它，看了一陣子，突然發現它的臉水波紋似的蕩漾起來，一下子有了些許詭異的顏色，看起來居然有些輪廓五官，像是病阿加的樣子了。
樂園猛地一驚：“你不可能是他。”
黑影笑道：“當然不可能，你忘了我對你說過的話了？你想見誰，我就會像誰。但我終究不是他們。你也早晚會把他們都忘掉，只有一個人是不會忘掉的，但是，你不記得那個人的樣子了，倒不如說，你從來都沒有真正看清楚和意識到那個人的臉，應該是什麽樣子。
甚至，你是迫切地希望他根本沒有一張真正的臉，這樣，你就會高高興興地過下去了。難道不是嗎？”
樂園陷入了困惑之中：“是麽？我不清楚。如果我知道那麽多，我就不會像現在這樣，這也不知道那也不知道，這個也覺得奇怪，那也覺得古怪了。我還有那麽多的不認得的東西，這裏怎麽回事假的呢？不，我是說，就算這裏是假的，也肯定不是我制造出來的幻覺。
因為，據我所知，一個人是不能在自己的夢裏，了解到他不知道的東西的。現在如果是在幻覺之中，我們就是不能知道那些不知道的東西的。可是，我聽見了，看見了，碰到了，哪裏算是假的？我不知道。要是我什麽都知道就好了。可惜，就算是做夢，我也不敢那樣。
因為一旦做那樣的夢，我就會驚醒了，我很清楚地知道，那種事情如果發生，必定不是真的。現在卻不是那樣，我沒有感覺到那種情況，或許是迄今為止，我的腦子已經被快樂喂養得太大了，裝不下其他東西，只有虛假的快樂可以讓我覺得世界是真實的。
我不喜歡假的，但我也不喜歡真的。如果一定要比較起來，我還不如選擇虛假的東西，至少，它們可以讓我感覺快樂。我喜歡快樂。這有什麽不好？這有什麽不對？我不明白。”
樂園嘆了一口氣。
黑影笑道：“沒關系，不知道就算了，我們現在還沒有死，也就是說，不知道那些不知道的東西，也沒有生命危險，我們可以繼續這樣過下去，反正，到死為止，死了之後就更什麽事情都不需要在乎了，如果沒有死，更好了，我們可以玩，想怎麽玩就怎麽玩，多好啊。
只要高興就好了，這是你的想法，也是我的想法，是我們需要的現實，如果世界是這麽美好的生活的背景，真假就是最無所謂的東西了，你看，你愛快樂，我也愛它，那麽，我們在這裏，永遠和快樂在一起，是多麽快樂的一件事啊！
哪裏都很好，沒有哪裏不好，這樣就夠了，這樣才應該啊！不是嗎？
正常人的生活就應該這樣，快樂。除了快樂，什麽都沒有也可以。因為這樣的世界太美好了。你明白我的意思嗎？”
樂園說：“大概知道，你說得很詳細了，我已經清清楚楚了，只是，如果有一天，我的快樂不夠了，周圍的人都死了呢？”
The shadow smiled and said, "Then let's go with them. If this is fake and there is no happiness, there is no need to continue. If this is real, we will be happy again if we follow them. There is nothing wrong with that."
Paradise said, “Yes.”
He murmured, "That's it."