"Not... not drunk?"
Feng Yao stood blankly in front of the small couch, looking at Zhu Longyuan in disbelief.
He wasn't drunk, which meant that he saw everything she had just done soberly?
She was stunned for a moment, then quickly recalled what an outrageous thing she had just done!
He was shy and didn't let her touch his face, but she insisted on chasing him and touching him...
Seeing that he was shy, she even deliberately asked him why he didn't act drunk even though he was drunk. She was too well behaved to be a drunk. The subtext seemed to be begging him to go crazy with her...
Then, she pinched his ears, kissed him secretly, and said that she liked him more and more...
After thinking about this, her face turned red!
Something called embarrassment wrapped around her like silk, making her chest tremble and her breath short, and she didn't know where to put her hands and feet.
She lowered her head and blushed as she whispered, "I...I didn't know you weren't drunk...I didn't mean to do that. So what should I do now? Should I apologize to you?"
Zhu Longyuan also looked at her with an embarrassed face, blushing, and said quickly, "There's no need for the princess to apologize. Why should you apologize for playing with your own husband? I should apologize to you. I was the one who pretended to be drunk, and I was the one who lied to you first..."
Feng Yao secretly raised her eyes to look at him and said softly, "Yes, then why did you pretend to be drunk and lie to me?"
Zhu Longyuan became more and more embarrassed.
He sat there obediently, holding the bowl and hunched over like a child who had made a mistake. He lowered his head and looked at the blanket on the ground, and said in a muffled voice, "I...I...I want the princess to spend time with me first, get to know me better, and make sure you don't regret it. Then we can...I'm afraid the princess will regret it and blame me in the future."
When Feng Yao saw him like this, she felt both distressed and pity for him.
As the son of General Zhu and the elder brother of the Empress, he was born with great strength and extraordinary martial arts skills, and was promoted to the fifth rank at a young age. How proud and high-spirited he should have been!
He recalled how exuberant he had been at the late emperor's birthday banquet, when he'd lifted a rock and hurled stones at the imperial concubines and the errant men. He'd also looked so heroic, his cape fluttering as he led the troops to escort her and her father back to Anyang. He'd also looked so invincible, standing alone against a thousand enemies during the bandit suppression operation in Anyang. But, all because of Song Anqiao, he'd become so insecure in his relationships...
He shouldn't be like this.
He can be honest, shy, gentle and loving to his wife, but he shouldn't be so timid, afraid that he is not worthy of her love and that she will regret it in the future.
As a military commander who has to go into battle and kill the enemy at any time, the most important thing he cannot lose is his indomitable spirit and invincible dominance.
Not only should he be invincible on the battlefield, he should also not be timid in his emotions.
Because emotions are contagious. Over time, emotional insecurity will affect his entire person and will gradually make him less confident in leading operations.
He had to get over the blow and hurt that Song Anqiao had inflicted on him.
He has to be the Zhu Longyuan he used to be.
He is the Longyuan Sword, one of the ten famous swords. When the sword is unsheathed, the sword energy can cut hair and kill people.
Feng Yao stared at him, and the love in her heart for him made her try hard to overcome her shyness.
She mustered up the courage to step forward, took the bowl from his hand, and then sat on his lap, facing each other.
Seeing him in such a panic, she raised her hands to hook his neck and stared at him closely.
"Zhu Longyuan, there's no need to wait until later, no need to slowly understand, no need to give me time, I can tell you right now that I will never, ever regret it. I, Fengyao, don't even care that you once had a wife and children. What other flaws can you have that can compare to this?"
"Minor flaws, huh? Who doesn't have them? I have them too. I'm not a fairy, and I'm not perfect. Just because of your minor flaws, do you mean you're unworthy of love? Those people who spend their days drinking, drinking, gambling, and whoring can live so confidently, so why can't you?"
"Zhu Longyuan, why do you have so little confidence in yourself? Can being hurt by a woman destroy your self-confidence? General Zhu spent 26 years raising you, but it couldn't withstand the harm and blow inflicted by a woman in one day?"
"Sorry, maybe I was a little too harsh..."
"After all, you're just insecure about your feelings. You haven't lost your confidence, haven't abandoned your martial arts, and haven't neglected your duties. Outside, you're still the brave and invincible Zhu Longyuan—"
"But I feel sorry for you, you know? Seeing how timid you are in relationships, and then looking at how brave and unrestrained you are outside, I feel sorry for you..."
She raised her hand and touched his face, her eyes full of love for him.
"Why do you make it hard on yourself because of the hurt others have done to you?"
"She doesn't cherish you, not because you are not good enough, but because she is not suitable for you."
"She is the daughter of a civil official. She loves poetry, painting, playing the piano, and being a dilettante. A military commander like you is naturally not to her liking."
"If she had married a scholar who was knowledgeable, sensible, and willing to have a romantic relationship with her, she wouldn't have ended up like this with her husband. Because her scholar, to please her father, the Minister, would always be around her, satisfying her emotional emptiness, and she would have lived a very happy life."
"And if you had married me back then, I would have been the one who could have gone on horseback rides with you through the spring and toured the military camp, and I would have been the one who could have gone hunting in the mountains with you. You would never have ended up being hurt, betrayed, and attacked like you are today—"
"Because I understand you and I like you. As long as I do something with you, no matter how boring or tedious it is, I will be happy from the bottom of my heart."
"So Zhu Longyuan, please stop thinking that you're unlovable, okay? You're fine. It's not your fault that you've ended up like this with her. You just married the wrong woman, someone who wasn't right for you. That's why your life went astray."
"And now, your misplaced marriage with her has ended, and your marriage with me is on the right track. It's time for you to regroup and embrace a new life. Your new wife will let you know that someone who truly understands you and cares about you won't mind your minor flaws, which can't even be called shortcomings. You are a hero no one can compare to."
"Zhu Longyuan, I believe you are definitely someone worthy of my love. I also believe in my own judgment. I definitely didn't make a mistake in choosing you."
After Feng Yao finished what she wanted to say, she looked at her silly husband quietly, giving him time to react.
As for Zhu Longyuan, his eyes felt sore, his throat was blocked, and his heart was burning hot.
He looked at Feng Yao with red eyes.
In fact, even in terms of love, he was not as cowardly as she thought. If he married the daughter of a sixth or seventh rank official this time, he could still be confident and not have the slightest anxiety.
But her status was too high.
It was so high that it frightened him.
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