Chapter 78 A thousand words cannot express my love for you…
Before going into seclusion, Li Qingyun still had to solve the problem of Chang Yubai's unstable mind and his susceptibility to demonic possession.
However, Li Qingyun couldn't figure out why he had fallen into demonic possession. Without finding the source, he couldn't eradicate this serious illness.
"Yu Bai will have to suffer again," he sighed inwardly.
This time, he no longer doubted whether his apprentice would be dissatisfied, and openly told Chang Yubai about his decision.
He was determined to keep Yu Bai from being disturbed and swayed by external things.
Only by keeping one's mind calm can one avoid being corrupted by demonic energy and becoming a demonic cultivator.
If it is truly a deep and unhealable wound, and you don't know how to calm the sorrow in your heart, then just forget it.
"Yu Bai, do not look back."
As long as you don't look back, you won't remember those hurtful past events, nor will you recall those impulsive actions that caused you to lose control of your emotions.
Just keep moving forward. As long as you only focus on what's in front of you, you won't have any more entanglements.
However, if you walk too far, you may find that your master is no longer with you on that road ahead.
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Li Qingyun became increasingly worried.
Yu Bai always wanted to go out into the world to find out news related to Li Tiansheng.
Yu Bai, however, thought he had hidden it well and was unaware of it.
How could he not know? He also cares about his apprentice's emotional needs and will set aside time to observe what fun his apprentice is having while he is away.
This observation turned out to be quite interesting; it turned out that Chang Yubai had been hearing about Li Tiansheng's affairs all along.
Even if it's just something to talk about after dinner for fun, Li Qingyun sees it as a sign of disaster.
He began to restrict Chang Yubai's outings and forbade his apprentice from always being engrossed in stories related to the protagonist, Li Tiansheng.
He also began to restrict Chang Yubai's actions and interpersonal interactions, wanting his apprentice to be an outsider who wouldn't be easily drawn into the plot.
He could neither restrain the constraints of fate nor eliminate the threat posed by Li Tiansheng. All he could do was advise and admonish, repeatedly leaving his mark on Chang Yubai's ears, telling Yubai to remain virtuous and not to be tainted by worldly affairs.
Your master is still alive and can protect you until now, but if fate is hard to defy... Yu Bai, you must learn to protect yourself.
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Time passed, and Chang Yubai was about to turn one hundred years old.
Li Qingyun found that more and more unexpected events were happening, and he was already feeling somewhat overwhelmed.
He spent a century preparing and searching far and wide for rare and precious materials, all to forge a peerless and handy weapon for Chang Yubai as a surprise for his disciple's 100th birthday.
Because he was afraid of provoking Li Tiansheng, he searched very carefully, trying his best to keep his whereabouts a secret from the world.
Even so, Li Tiansheng still refused to let him go.
No matter how he changed his appearance, assumed another person's identity, or used a feint to pretend he had gone somewhere else, he always managed to run into Li Tiansheng by chance.
The plot has reached its final stage, but Tianji, as the last stepping stone for the protagonist to become a god, is still reluctant to appear, and he is starting to get impatient.
This sense of urgency has even affected Yu Bai.
Even if he stayed in his cave and didn't go anywhere, but asked Chang Yubai to buy things for him, he would still run into Li Tiansheng.
These two people should have never crossed paths before.
Fortunately, although Yu Bai was interested in the life of Venerable Li Sha, he had no intention of contacting him and hurriedly avoided meeting him.
Li Qingyun had to admit that it was time for her to get going.
Before this, he went to the Heavenly Pivot to inquire about the secrets of heaven through the Heavenly Orbit, asking if his disciple could be spared if he were to willingly face death.
“He is my only attachment in this world. I believe that even if he witnesses my death, Yu Bai will not make the decision to be an enemy of Li Tiansheng.”
"I, Xinxiu Qingyun, pray that Heaven will have mercy and spare my disciple, granting him a peaceful life."
The conjunction of the Heavenly Pivot and the Earthly Branch is a sign of response, but the promised answer is vague and ambiguous, and no conclusion has been reached yet.
The celestial compass rotated and turned a hundred times, its outer circular wheel circling in layers, until finally only a large, dark character appeared in the center of the paper—or.
This reminded Li Qingyun of a joke Yu Bai had told—when faced with a difficult choice between xx and xxx, she chose xxx.
Li Qingyun remained silent, just like last time.
The jokes about hell make people laugh, but ultimately they don't affect them personally.
Given the current situation, it's difficult for him to maintain a pleasant demeanor.
It was already a great favor that Fate was willing to pay attention to him. He couldn't possibly find another Jingyuan Stone like he did a hundred years ago and go to Guanwu to ask about the whole story of his destiny.
Well, at least it's not a dead end.
They've lost the spirit they once had.
It really is a dead end.
If he acts as if he's deliberately courting death, would Yu Bai be more able to accept the outcome when he actually dies?
Li Qingyun was unaware.
He had many secrets and thoughts that he couldn't share with his apprentice in detail.
He couldn't tell Bai that his seclusion was to protect him from the established story.
He couldn't tell Bai Jingxin that it was to avoid being entangled by demonic energy, becoming possessed by demons, and being hated by everyone.
He couldn't tell Bai that the reason there was no new weapon was because the materials were hard to come by, and that he could only keep it as a surprise for Bai's birthday.
He couldn't tell Yu Bai that he had gone to great lengths to seek death in order to end the damned plot and get Li Tiansheng out of there as soon as possible so as not to disturb his disciple.
He also couldn't tell Bai that the passage of time had long since changed his feelings for his disciple. If it weren't for the fact that their life together could last a long time, he really wanted to break through the barrier and establish a more exciting relationship.
But in the end, he was unable to stay by Yu Bai's side for long.
If Yu Bai takes this relationship seriously, how will he cope alone when he dies?
It would be better to just remember that you are a master, and that the one who died was just an elder. At least you won't lose both your closest relative and your beloved.
"Yu Bai..." He had too many secrets he couldn't tell, but the words kept rolling to his lips, only to be swallowed back down time and time again.
He didn't know if peeking at the heavens back then was the right decision, but if he hadn't peeked at the heavens, he wouldn't have been disappointed, and if he hadn't been disappointed, he wouldn't have been so fixated on Yu Bai.
If he hadn't witnessed the truth of the world, perhaps he would still be the cold and indifferent Venerable Qingyun, desperately pursuing the non-existent Great Dao, yet failing to achieve anything.
He didn't know which kind of life would be one that Li Qingyun would not regret.
But he was extremely worried about Chang Yubai.
His apprentices were always naive, with a touch of foolishness and naiveté. Such easily deceived people, however, liked to mingle with crowds in their spare time and were unable to truly find peace and seclusion.
He wanted to entrust Chang Yubai to some upright and kind people, such as Piaomiao or Lingfeng.
But when he saw his disciple, whose heart and eyes were full of love for him, he couldn't bear to let those bright eyes be stained with someone else's color.
This is his Chang Yubai.
This is proof that belongs only to him.
So he found reasons for himself, such as the fact that those he wanted to entrust with the task would eventually become involved with Li Tiansheng, which would be detrimental to Yu Bai's ability to live in seclusion.
So, under various pretexts, he had no choice but to cruelly leave Chang Yubai alone.
The last piece of the sword-making jade had already been snatched away by Li Tiansheng, and the gift he intended to leave for Bai was now completely lost.
Just as Venerable Qingyun is also coming to an end, unable to accompany his disciple through the rest of his life's journey.
In the hasty celebration of his apprentice's 100th birthday, he felt ashamed before Yu Bai's expectant gaze and could only manage a forced, imperfect smile.
Two years later, he found an ordinary opportunity to ask his disciple if he wanted to leave the cave and take a look. He heard that the auction houses under the four major sects had added some peerless treasures, which made his disciple very happy. He was full of hope that he could find a good weapon to replace the peace and tranquility he had been working diligently all this time.
Li Qingyun smiled gently, as if she wanted to leave all her tenderness in that moment.
Afterwards, he voluntarily returned to his old profession, playing the villain in the story again, contributing to Li Tiansheng's future and paving the way for his future.
Even if Yu Bai ignores him in anger, she cannot change his decision.
However, he wanted to see Yu Bai one last time before parting ways, but was refused.
But what could he do? He was the one who wanted to leave first.
"Yu Bai, you must remember those instructions."
You need to take good care of yourself and stay safe.
You must learn to forget your master.
The recollection ends here.
Li Qingyun sensed a sorrow as damp as rain.
He gently stroked the face of his beloved disciple from his past life, only to find his hand covered in moisture.
"Liar!" he heard Chang Yubai sob. "You said you would always be my master."
Chang Yubai sobbed uncontrollably, but when Li Qingyun tried to move away to wipe his tears, Chang Yubai pulled her back, pressing their foreheads together.
"Is there anything else? Is there anything else you want to tell me?"
"Please tell me everything at once, Master. Please don't hide anything from me."
"Don't just die alone without saying a word."
Don't leave him alone.
Li Qingyun was unable to move, so he could only helplessly wait for him to finish crying.
Only when those bright eyes could no longer shed tears did the distance between the two slowly separate.
"Yu Bai..." Seeing Chang Yu Bai's red and swollen eyes, Li Qingyun couldn't help but feel sorry for him.
But after he softly uttered the name Yu Bai, the lights in the brothel suddenly went out, plunging the scene before him into an unfathomable darkness.
At almost the same time, Chang Yubai bent down and grabbed Li Qingyun, but because he grabbed her too quickly, he lost his balance and fell to the ground with a thud.
Worried that Li Qingyun would fall and get hurt, Chang Yubai changed his position when he fell. A thud was heard as Chang Yubai landed on his back, while Li Qingyun looked at him helplessly.
Yes, it's visible now.
The moment the thud landed, the brothel was illuminated again.
This time, however, the light was unlike normal; only the red silk gauze covering the entire building shimmered faintly, resembling an ambiguous scene of warm candlelight.
The fish-shaped lanterns, imbued with spiritual power, began to sway and flicker as they swam through the sea of red silk gauze. Their dim light softened the oppressive darkness, and the soft, melodious singing of women could be heard throughout the building. Upon closer listening, however, it was clear that they were singing nothing but erotic songs and lascivious tunes.
However, the gentle atmosphere and soft music made this place of red sleeves seem particularly high-profile.
A whiff of aphrodisiac incense wafted into the nostrils, teasing the already frantically beating nerves of the guests in the building, as if determined to drive them mad tonight.
If Chang Yubai still doesn't understand the deeper meaning behind Li Qingyun's choice of this place to meet, he has truly wasted his life.
Seeing his apprentice grind his teeth in embarrassment, Li Qingyun laughed instead.
"Good disciple, you can't even take it anymore?"
"Do you like the show that Master carefully selected for you?"
Chang Yubai's teeth grinding became even louder.
Li Qingyun was unaware of the pent-up desire of her "disciple" beneath her, and was still focused on teasing the "pure virgin," wholeheartedly guiding Chang Yubai to arouse his emotions, wanting to further fuel the current fire.
As she was laughing, suddenly the world spun around her, and before she knew it, Chang Yubai had pinned her down.
"Li Qingyun, don't rush into this."
"Huh?"
"I haven't told you yet." Chang Yubai was panting heavily, but she gritted her teeth and refused to skip this step. "I love you."
A kiss fell.
Actually, he wanted to say more than just that, but the current situation was too frustrating, and he couldn't bring himself to tell Li Qingyun all his thoughts.
The fire burned brighter and brighter, but this line had to be crossed. He had to tell Li Qingyun his love. Even though Li Qingyun already knew, only when he formally said it would it count, and only then would the master-disciple relationship be truly broken, and he would reach a new level.
Then came the question: "So all my efforts to keep you here back then couldn't even elicit the slightest hesitation from you?!"
"Li Qingyun, how could you dare leave me to die alone?!"
Chang Yubai's eyes reddened even more.
This time, no tears fell, but after the commotion subsided, they shared an even more intense kiss.
Upon hearing his anger, Li Qingyun's heart skipped a beat, and she cried out in alarm, but it was too late to escape.
"Wait, wait... I, I'm white, um..."
Wait a minute, this is completely different from the scenario he imagined!
Li Qingyun never expected that the situation would spiral out of control to the point where there was absolutely no way to turn things around.
"Master, didn't you bring this on yourself?"
"You chose this time and place, so you must have already made preparations to make amends to your disciple."
Chang Yubai's breath was pressed against his earlobe.
Li Qingyun still wanted to struggle a bit. Although he wanted to break the relationship and had thought about taking this opportunity to make amends to Yu Bai, this was not the time to be so tense!
The apprentice's temper had clearly been ignited to the point of exploding; how could he possibly bear it!
Li Qingyun was still trying to negotiate, hoping to escape a severe beating: "Wait! Li Tiansheng is still outside listening!"
Chang Yubai ignored them, picked up the person and threw her onto the flower platform. With the soft couch as a base, he then felt at ease and pressed Li Qingyun completely down on his body.
"Wasn't that something you arranged?" Chang Yubai ignored his excuse for trying to escape.
After speaking, Chang Yubai casually closed the curtain of the flower stand. The red curtain covered the not-so-wide chaise lounge, and the whole place was filled with ambiguous red.
And the white petals that are about to be peeled away.
Li Qingyun covered her eyes in embarrassment and anger, acknowledging that she had completely messed up.
"Keep it down, don't let anyone outside hear."
“I know,” Chang Yubai said. “This is, after all, our private matter.”
"Hmm..."
Li Tiansheng, who was unwittingly provoked: ...
Brothers, what kind of image do I have in your hearts?
Does he not have ears or legs?
There should be a limit to wrongly accusing someone!
He's not a peeping tom!
Can't these two take him seriously for once?!
Li Tiansheng, who had been eavesdropping, even timing the conversation perfectly, and at the opportune moment ordered the brothel to turn off the lights to create an ambiguous atmosphere, and personally threw an aphrodisiac incense stick inside, lamented.
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Author's Note: Li Qingyun: I should have known better than to light incense [laughing and crying with face covered]
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