Xia Lu always remembered how she felt at that time, but reality is always contrary to people.
She still remembers clearly that her elder sister stood on the bridge, took one step, and then jumped down, surrounded by people who were trying to persuade her. She also remembered that she sincerely shouted, "Sister, wait a little longer, don't die, your mother will be here soon."
Soon, she did arrive, and her husband's family also persuaded her after arriving at the scene. Whether they were sincere or not, at least they persuaded her.
When the people from her mother's family arrived at the scene, what Xia Lu will never forget in her life was that the first thing they did was to curse at her elder sister!
What a shame, you should die sooner, why did I give birth to such a thing as you!
You couldn't give birth to a boy, you were divorced, and now you are making a fuss and making people laugh at you!
The sister’s mother cursed and her father shouted angrily, “Jump, or I will kill you when I come back.
” Then she kicked, cried and shouted on the ground. If you didn’t know, you would think she was the one trying to kill herself! But the reality was that she just felt that her daughter had lost the family and embarrassed her!
Xia Lu still remembered that she had cursed.
She forgot what she cursed, but just when she was standing up for the sister and her face was so important - there was a thud behind her, and the sister jumped into the lake! She
could not wait for her family to redeem her, nor for her family to reach out and pull her back from the abyss. Instead, she waited for the hand of a devil, forcing her from the edge of not wanting to jump to having to jump!
It was this family that Xia Lu would never forget. She also remembered that after she went back that day, her mother was shaking her head and sighing. She was not sighing at the behavior of the girl's family, but sighing that after raising her for more than 20 years and getting married, she was still so ignorant and made her parents worry. No one felt how pitiful and miserable the girl was, but only thought that she was ignorant. Everyone went through the same thing, so why did you get divorced? It was your fault.
If you say that people were backward in their thinking and everyone was like that, then that's fine, but the reality is not like that. It's just that many people think that it has always been like this, so it is right. No one has ever thought of resisting, nor dared to resist, and dared not step out of their comfort zone. They were in a difficult situation but didn't think it was a difficult situation, and made mistakes but didn't think it was enlightenment. Many of the sisters she knew would say to her after they got married, "Xia Lu, don't get married too early, you should study more, and you should meet a good person."
But as women, the mothers of these sisters said, "It's great that someone wants you, don't be picky! It's your fault if you can't give birth to a boy."
So when the Xia family wanted to marry Xia Lu into that family, Xia Lu had a feeling of world-weariness for the first time, and felt that everything in this world was troublesome.
She even thought that it would be better if she didn't have parents.
Because she knew better than anyone what would happen to her once she got married. She had to give birth to a boy. If anything went wrong, her parents would not help her. Her life would end like the sisters she hated. She knew it too well. She didn't want that fate. It was at that time that Xia Lu began to resist, to resist, to hate, to be irritable. She hurt others and herself.
In order to ruin the marriage, she smashed and made a scene at home. She even made her father so angry that he fainted. She didn't care. You don't care about me, why should I care about you?
However, the Xia family insisted on marrying her, so she went to that family to make trouble and had a fight with the man in that family. The other party was bleeding and she was covered with scars. It was also when she was exhausted and almost doubted whether she should compromise with the world that Qin Jiangke appeared...
If Xia Lu was forced to stand in the abyss of darkness at that time, Qin Jiangke was the sunshine and Xia Lu's salvation.
Xia Lu saw hope in this man.
He did not have the bad roots of male chauvinism in men. Instead, he was moved by the environment of favoring boys over girls, so he was very kind to his sister and did not let her feel those things. He
did not have the meanness of boys of the same age who liked to bully girls. He respected boys and girls and would persuade those boys not to do so.
He approached Xia Lu, and slowly used his sunshine to heal Xia Lu's scarred heart caused by this environment. He took her out to play, he spoiled her, loved her, he liked her, and said without any disguise that I like you, if you don't want to get married, I can wait for you.
Xia Lu had a bad reputation at that time, and the old Qin family would definitely not agree. He said that he was the one who convinced his parents, and that was his responsibility.
He would often bring Qin Qin out when she was unhappy, sometimes comforting her himself, and sometimes tricking Qin Qin to comfort her.
He would squat down and carry her on his back in places with puddles just to avoid dirtying her shoes.
She said it was pretentious.
He said pretentiousness is a blessing, and he hoped to see her so pretentious every day one day!
Whenever he made money and handed it over to his family, he would spend the rest on her. The first beautiful dress she wore when she grew up was bought by Qin Jiangke! Her family had never bought her one.
When she grew up, she got her ears pierced, and it was Qin Jiangke who took
her there. The first time she wore earrings when she grew up, it was also bought by Qin Jiangke!
He said he knew how badly she was hurt. He said he wanted to use the rest of his life to slowly heal her. She deserved better. He said, Xia Lu, I know you are a kind girl, otherwise you wouldn’t lead those girls to rebel. It’s just that the environment is unfair. He knows, he knows everything...
Everyone thinks Xia Lu is rebellious, but Xia Lu just wants to give those girls a chance to speak. Everyone thinks Xia Lu
is messing around, but they don’t know that if she doesn’t mess around, if she is too sensible, she won’t even have a chance to speak.
Everyone thought that Xia Lu was hopeless, but they didn't know that Xia Lu had been saving herself and others, but she was useless and couldn't save anyone, and she almost buried herself in the end.
But Qin Jiangke understood her. When Xia Lu was almost desperate about this environment and this world, this man was like sunshine. She once thought that he might be a liar, with sweet words, but the accumulated facts proved that he was not a liar.
Liars can pretend for a while, but they can't pretend for a lifetime. Qin Jiangke is not only good to her, but also to others.
Everyone in Qinhuai Street liked him. When he showed up with Xia Lu, some adults advised her to stay away from him. Qin Jiangke would say to them, "Auntie, don't say that. Xia Lu is very cute." Xia
Lu is very cute, Xia Lu is very good.
Xia Lu is very smart, Xia Lu is great.
After meeting Qin Jiangke, this was the sentence Xia Lu heard him say to others the most. He didn't hide it, he always said it positively. He took her to join other small groups, helped the elderly to harvest the fields, mixed with a group of children of the same age, took her to the Qin family, and occasionally left his sister to her -
it was also during that time that Xia Lu went from crying all the time, being sad and numb, to slowly learning to smile. The more she smiled, the more cheerful she became. She learned not to be hard, but to be soft.