Chapter 76: Song Lehan, are you willing to start over with me?
In the evening, Xu Jiangcuo hurried back.
Song Lehan didn't care much. He just glanced at it lightly, then looked away and continued reading the script.
There was a sound of cooking coming from the kitchen, and soon Xu Jiangcuo came over to call her to eat.
There was no other sound at the dinner table except the clatter of dishes and chopsticks.
"Is your stomach still uncomfortable?" Xu Jiangcuo asked when he was about to finish his meal.
Song Lehan raised his eyes to look at him, then lazily looked away and said "hmm".
"Then I'll make you a bowl of brown sugar water later. You have to continue soaking your feet tonight." He made new arrangements.
Song Lehan bit the chopsticks and still said "hmm".
Something is wrong.
Xu Jiangcuo raised his eyes and observed her carefully for a few seconds. Seeing that she was not in the right state, he asked speculatively, "What happened?"
Song Lehan: “No.”
"Then why do you..."
"Xu Jiangcuo," Song Lehan interrupted him, put down her chopsticks, and thought for a few seconds before continuing, "Do you still want to be with me now?"
What?
Be with her?
Xu Jiangcuo's brain went into a state of panic, and all that remained was the thumping sound of his heartbeat.
"I think," he licked his lips, his Adam's apple moved, and he stuttered a little: "I, I have always wanted to."
"Ah?" Song Lehan was puzzled, his face darkening. "You don't have a masochistic tendency, do you?"
She had treated him so well, why did he still want to...
Xu Jiangcuo frowned and explained unwillingly: "I did recover my memory, but only half of it."
"I know we were in the same university, and I also know we were in a relationship."
"But I don't remember what happened afterwards."
After a three-second pause, Xu Jiangcuo asked her tentatively, "So, have we broken up?"
Song Lehan didn't hear the question for a moment, his mind was still spinning around his words "only half recovered".
How can I restore memory in batches?
This...what kind of strange things have happened to her?
Seeing that she didn't answer, Xu Jiangcuo took it as her consent and felt depressed.
"Then why did we break up?" He was curious but unwilling to just stop at the ex-partner relationship with her. "Is it because of my personality?"
Song Lehan came back to his senses, but didn't know what to say.
If I tell the truth, will it hurt him again?
"Yes, we... broke up." Song Lehan didn't intend to hide it anymore, "I was the one who proposed the breakup because I... was fed up with it."
Xu Jiangcuo felt even more lost.
"In other words, you broke up with me because you didn't like me anymore, right?"
This explanation inexplicably makes people feel that she didn't do anything wrong.
Song Lehan nodded, "That's probably the explanation."
"What about now?" Xu Jiangcuo looked at her expectantly, "Do you like me now?"
Do you like...?
Song Lehan himself doesn't know.
What does it feel like to like someone? What does it mean to like someone?
Song Lehan was not clear, did not understand, and did not comprehend.
She looked away and simply changed her words.
"Let's put aside the question of whether I like you or not. What if I tell you that I have hurt you and made you so sad that you would hide away from me? Even so, do you still want to be with me now?"
Xu Jiangcuo did not answer but asked: "How did you hurt me?"
"Just..." Song Lehan couldn't put it into words, only roughly describing it, "Just to make you dislike me, even hate me."
Xu Jiangcuo looked up and thought for a long time.
It was so long that Song Lehan thought he didn't want to answer anymore.
It was so long that Song Lehan felt that he didn't want to be with her anymore.
It lasted so long that Song Lehan felt that he would scold her in the next second.
"Maybe," Xu Jiangcuo said with a long tone, half thinking and half joking, "Maybe I still want to."
Song Lehan: "Why?"
"Because I like you!" Xu Jiangcuo said it easily, without any previous hesitation.
"Because I like you, I want to be with you."
He repeated it again, this time feeling a little embarrassed.
"I don't know why, but even before I recovered my memory, I felt familiar with you the first time I saw you. After getting to know you, I felt that everything about you was good."
Xu Jiangcuo scratched his head and blushed as he confessed, "I don't know what it feels like to like someone, but I just want to follow you, see you, protect you, and make you happy forever. I think this might be what love is."
"Later, when I rolled down the hill, I recalled some of my memories. At the time, I felt that those memories were very separate from me, as if they were the memories of another person. But, because of the existence of those memories, I found that my previous care for you and that sense of familiarity all had an explanation."
“My heart, even after my brain has forgotten you, continues to remind me to love you.”
Xu Jiangcuo looked serious, glanced at Song Lehan's hand on the table, and the next second reached out and held it tightly.
"You said you hurt me, but I still think you're good, like you, and want to be with you. So, those hurts may be useless to me. It's not worth it for you to dwell on them."
"You've said before that losing your memory is a chance to start over. The past is in the past, and I'm willing to give myself a chance to start over. What about you?"
"Song Lehan, are you willing?"
Respiratory arrest.
In my ears, Xu Jiangcuo's words and heartbeats repeated themselves.
Song Lehan, are you willing?
Would you like to give me a chance?
Would you like us to start over?
Song Lehan didn't know where to look, and the hand that was being held squeezed back helplessly.
Swallowing nervously, she asked, "But, but I really did something that I'm sorry for..."
"It doesn't matter anymore." Xu Jiangcuo interrupted her and pressed closer to her. "Don't look at the past, just look at the present, look at you..."
He paused again and moved closer again, so that they were only a fist's distance apart.
"It depends on whether you like me or not, and whether you want to be with me or not."
At this moment, Xu Jiangcuo was full of aggression, and his eyes were fixed on Song Lehan without blinking, as if he was looking at his prey.
Afraid of escaping from my hands.
Song Lehan couldn't bear his oppressive and hot gaze, so he stepped back and broke free from his big hand.
"I, I haven't thought about it yet." She ran away as if escaping.
The back is shy.
Xu Jiangcuo's trembling hands gradually calmed down and his heartbeat returned to normal.
Just now, he was almost panicking.
If things hadn't come to this, perhaps he wouldn't have confessed now.
Too anxious!
After confessing his feelings, Xu Jiangcuo began to reflect on himself and couldn't help but sigh several times.
Oh, won’t it scare Lele?
Oh, what if she ignores me?
Oh, it’s okay if you ignore me, but what if you really reject me?
but--
Xu Jiangcuo turned his head and looked in the direction where Song Lehan ran away, secretly delighted: Her reaction must be because she is shy, right?
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