Chapter 215: I Will Always Be Loyal to You
"Do you admit defeat?"
Xu Jiangcuo imitated Song Lehan's behavior just now and asked her this question with a smile.
Song Lehan came back to his senses from his memories, his eyes turned, and finally looked at Xu Jiangcuo in front of him.
Compared to his college days, Xu Jiangcuo has shed his youthful immaturity and exudes a mature masculine aura. Yet, the smile on his face remains as youthful as it was then.
Seeing that Song Lehan hadn't responded, Xu Jiangcuo thought she didn't want to be a puppy, so he frowned and negotiated with her: "If you admit defeat, I won't let you be a puppy."
"How about being a kitten?"
Song Lehan raised the corner of his mouth speechlessly, "Is there any difference?"
"Yes, I'll tell you if you admit defeat." Xu Jiangcuo deliberately kept people in suspense.
Song Lehan had been pulling at his arm so hard that she was almost unable to hold on. However, she didn't want to give up just like that, so she simply pulled Xu Jiangcuo down with her into the snow.
Xu Jiangcuo didn't expect that she did it on purpose. He just felt that Song Lehan was about to fall, and he didn't want to see her fall in the snow, so he pulled her as hard as he could and pressed her against himself.
Even if he fell in the snow, he would be the one at the bottom.
However, the result was not what he expected.
In the end, Song Lehan and Xu Jiangcuo were still lying close to each other in the snow.
Snowflakes filled the air and slowly fell on the two of them.
"You..." Xu Jiangcuo originally wanted to pull Song Lehan to sit up, but was stopped by her.
"Just lie with me like this for a while."
I don’t know if it was the wine she just drank that started to take effect, or if Song Lehan really came out of her sadness, but at this moment, lying in the snow, she was more relaxed than ever.
Even with a hint of happiness.
The two of them stood head to head, watching the snow falling together in the snow.
"What's the difference between a kitten and a puppy?" Song Lehan still wanted to know this question.
Xu Jiangcuo chuckled and teased her, "You still remember this!"
"Of course, you know, I have the best memory." Song Lehan started to praise himself.
Xu Jiangcuo curled the corners of his lips and explained seriously: "The difference is, I am a puppy and you are a kitten."
Song Lehan moved his head and wanted to look at him, but found that he couldn't see it, so he gave up.
"What's the difference?"
"Oh, you don't understand." Xu Jiangcuo gave him a riddle.
Song Lehan curled his lips, slightly dissatisfied, "Okay, okay, cats are cuter than dogs anyway."
"Well, you are cuter than me." Xu Jiangcuo agreed with her.
Song Lehan pouted, but she was extremely happy in her heart.
"In fact, dogs are very loyal." Xu Jiangcuo suddenly said this again.
Song Lehan immediately guessed what he wanted to say.
"Are you trying to say that you are loyal to me?"
Being so straightforward made Xu Jiangcuo feel a little embarrassed.
"If you think so, it's not impossible." After saying that, the smile on Xu Jiangcuo's face gradually disappeared. The next second, he sat up and looked at Song Lehan seriously.
With the sudden change in attitude, Song Lehan subconsciously sat up and looked at Xu Jiangcuo in confusion.
"If in the future... will I, we, still have a chance?" He asked cautiously, but there was still expectation in his eyes.
Song Lehan didn't know how to answer.
But Xu Jiangcuo's eyes were too hot. After only looking at each other for a second, Song Lehan lowered his head, staring at his hands with his mind blank.
On the quiet snowy night, neither of them dared to take another step forward.
After an unknown amount of time, Xu Jiangcuo became worried that Song Lehan's body would not be able to bear it if he stayed like this any longer. So, he automatically ignored the unanswered question, stood up, and extended his hand to Song Lehan.
"Get up, it's very cold now. If you keep freezing like this, you and I will both turn into popsicles."
Song Lehan raised his head, put his hand on it, and stood up the next second.
"Let's go."
After seeing Song Lehan stand up, Xu Jiangcuo wisely let go of her hand, turned around and walked into the house.
Before he had taken a few steps, Song Lehan called him.
"Xu Jiangcuo——"
Xu Jiangcuo stopped, turned slowly and looked at Song Lehan.
There was about one meter between the two people.
"I don't know how to answer you." Song Lehan took a few steps forward and then stopped. "My mind is in a mess right now, and I'm not clear-headed. What I say is totally unreliable."
"Every time, I want you to wait a little longer, give me a little more time. I still want to say this after you asked me just now."
"But I think this is very unfair to you. Why do I always make you wait for me? What if you wait for me, but in the end, I still don't come? What then?"
"You have your own life, and you can live a meaningful life. I don't know what value I can bring to you, nor do I know if I will become a burden to you in the future."
Song Lehan finished the long paragraph in one breath, and every word sounded true.
She really can't do it.
Song Lehan really doesn't dare to think about the future, let alone talk about it or make promises.
She also promised her mother that they would wait until her father woke up, have their own big house, and live a happy life.
But the result did not come true.
Her mother waited for death.
Although it was her own choice, Song Lehan knew that if her mother didn't know that Jiang Yue was forcing her, she would not have made such a choice.
The source of everything is still herself.
Her mother told her not to blame herself, but every time Xu Musui woke up from a nightmare late at night, the first thing she thought about was why she was not the one who died.
She was the one who harmed her mother, her father, and their happy family.
This thought was always hidden in her heart, suppressed by her reason during the day, and would only fully emerge at night, causing her to fall into endless self-blame.
If Song Lehan made another promise to Xu Jiangcuo at this time, she would really collapse if the same thing happened again.
Song Lehan thought, if there was no promise, then perhaps it would not happen.
She didn't want to make a promise, and she didn't want to lose Xu Jiangcuo again.
"It's okay, it's okay." Xu Jiangcuo walked up to Song Lehan again, took her hand, and apologized, "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have asked these questions. I shouldn't have pressured you, I..."
"Xu Jiangcuo," Song Lehan interrupted him, "I don't want to think about the future anymore."
Just from this one sentence, Xu Jiangcuo knew that Song Lehan still hadn't completely accepted it.
"Then let's not talk about this anymore. Let's go inside and have something to eat." Xu Jiangcuo pulled Song Lehan into the house. "You were drinking the whole time and didn't eat anything."
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