Chapter 109 Chapter 109 I always feel like he is looking at me. ...
"I really felt like he recognized me."
The weather had changed, becoming overcast and rainy. It was the end of spring, and the rain was drizzling.
Nan Qiong Shuang walked on the water in the rain and jumped onto the flower-topped boat in the center of the Imperial Garden Lake in two leaps. She lifted the brocade curtain and her first words were these.
In the boat, a candle was lit and placed in a blue and white lotus candlestick, flickering dimly.
Under the lamp, there is a low table, two shallow wine cups, and two sets of plates, bowls and chopsticks.
"Coming?"
Li Xuanbai was sitting in front of a small table with his back to the curtain. He turned around when he heard the sound.
She was in a state of confusion and sighed. She crouched down to avoid hitting the roof of the boat, walked over to sit down opposite him.
"What do you think?" Without saying anything, he poured a glass of wine and drank it all.
"What do you mean by 'something to say'? Is that what you're looking for?" Li Xuanbai picked up a piece of pork skin jelly with his chopsticks and dipped it in the vinegar dish. "See if Mr. Gu recognized you?"
"Yes." She rubbed her brow and sighed.
"That lunatic did ruin your business and leaked a lot of information. But looking at his appearance, you wouldn't recognize him, would you?"
He supported his cheek and chewed something.
Nan Qiongshuang's headache became more and more severe.
On the surface, maybe he really hadn't recognized her, but there were so many details that made her feel something was wrong no matter how she thought about it.
For example, at today's palace banquet, he ate his meal without groping about like a blind man. If clothes are inanimate objects, then aren't food inanimate objects too?
Even when she just appeared outside the temple, he spotted her. He also caught her feeding fish by the lotus pond alone.
Can he really not see?
Also, she suddenly remembered that when she reminded him that he was bleeding, although he was tied with black silk, he still bent his elbows and looked.
Although, this doesn't mean anything - a person who used to have healthy eyesight might be used to looking at everything, regardless of whether he can see it or not.
But, can he really not see it?
If he couldn't see her, if he really didn't recognize her, why was it such a coincidence that when he looked at her, his martial arts suddenly backfired and he vomited blood; why did he support her when she just staggered and was about to fall? Why did she feel him staring at her through the silk cloth with a burning look on his face when she spoke a few words to Li Xuanbai?
Is it all a coincidence? Her illusion?
What about the handkerchief? How do you explain it?
Why do you have to touch her when you receive a handkerchief, and after touching her, you have to touch it yourself?
Gu Huaijin wasn't someone who would let anyone get close to him easily. He hadn't been like that before, and it was even less likely to be like that now.
But if he recognized her—
That's even more inexplicable.
Whether he hated her or loved her, he would not react like this.
But, despite this.
Her intuition remained simple and clear.
——Gu Huaijin knew that she was right beside him, she was Chu Jiaojiao.
The more she thought about it, the more confused she became, and she held her forehead with her hand.
"Why do you think he recognized you?" Li Xuanbai twisted off a roast goose leg and bit it.
"Because..." she sighed, "I always feel like he's looking at me."
"'feel'?"
She was very upset and picked up two stir-fried shrimps with her chopsticks. Just now at the banquet, she had forced herself to eat greasy food in order to act, and she didn't eat much at all.
"He'll definitely find me wherever I am and follow me. And..."
She suddenly realized that the evidence in her heart - the momentary shock when he stared at her, the dream that was difficult to express, the hand supporting her lower back, the touch when he took the handkerchief - were all details that could not be any smaller.
It was so small that she found it difficult to tell others, and even she herself began to doubt whether it was just a coincidence or that she was just overthinking it.
She didn't say anything.
"what else?"
She sighed and pinched her brows.
Li Xuanbai sneered and slammed his chopsticks onto the table.
"I say, after you did that, you're not still thinking about him, are you?"
"What nonsense are you talking about?" She would be instantly irritated by such words.
"Isn't it? Today, I didn't see anything." He spread his hands and shrugged. "Don't you want him to still have feelings for you, so you deliberately think that way?"
"Me? I'm interested?" She laughed angrily. "You mean, I'm just daydreaming and being sentimental?"
"That's what I think." Li Xuanbai picked up the wine cup and took a sip.
She let out a long breath and closed her eyes.
"You know how petty he is." He hissed at the spiciness of the wine and exhaled contentedly, "He's always jealous. In the past, if I said one more word to you, he'd act like he was going to die. Do you remember when I kissed you? That expression on his face—"
To this day, Li Xuanbai still savors that look.
"Now, let alone if he recognized you, he would most likely kill you right away. Even if he didn't want to kill you, he wouldn't act that way if he still had feelings for you."
He tapped his nails on the wine glass. "Think about it, that madman kept clinging to you, holding your hand. Did you hear what he said? He retaliated, but you ignored him and came to care about me. Did he say a word? If this happened in the past—"
He sneered, "—Before I let him go, he would have killed me with a sword. As for you, I wonder which peak he has imprisoned you in."
She felt her temples throbbing, so she rubbed her forehead and then her temples.
But——Li Xuanbai is right.
There is only one reason why you meet her but do nothing.
He didn't know that she was his ungrateful ex-lover.
No matter how many ambiguous and vague details are added together, they cannot be as convincing as this point.
After a long pause, she sighed, "...Maybe you're right. It's for the best that he didn't recognize me."
Li Xuanbai laughed when he saw her relieved look.
"Do you want him to recognize you, or not?" She rolled her eyes in annoyance.
What’s past is past.
She was the one who stabbed the sword and killed the person. No matter how much kindness and love were shown, they were all betrayed by her own hands.
At this point, what else is there to say?
Seeing her like that, Li Xuanbai realized that maybe she wasn't still in love with him, but she was just too suspicious and would think twice before doing anything.
He picked up a peanut and chewed it with a crackling sound:
"But I have to admire you. You were really calm when you met that Gu guy."
She was picking up a shrimp when she heard the words and it fell. She laughed in surprise:
"Shouldn't I be calm?"
Li Xuanbai smiled: "What do you think?"
Outside the boat, the sound of rain gradually grew louder, hitting the tops of the flowers, tap, tap, tap.
There was a rustling sound of rain on the lake.
She raised an eyebrow.
The wind, carrying the rain, lifted the fine hair on her temples. She lowered her eyes and kissed the wine, creating ripples on it, and smiled:
"I don't dwell too much on what's been lost."
In the flickering candlelight, Li Xuanbai, who had been holding the wine cup in a nonchalant manner, sat up straight after hearing her words, rested his elbows on the small table, and looked at her deeply for a long time.
She raised her eyes and happened to meet his.
The sky was dark and gloomy, with only candlelight lighting the surroundings. The shadows of the two people were cast on the wall of the boat, dancing and fluttering.
for a long time.
He smiled, raised his wine glass, and gently touched it with her small wine glass, making a crisp "ding" sound.
"We're so alike."
There was a blazing light in his eyes, as if two beasts, long in the wild and tired of hunting, had suddenly seen their own kind. After a moment of surprise, they felt a sense of sympathy.
"What has passed, should be forgotten. Avoid binding others, and avoid binding yourself."
She lowered her eyes and smiled.
What did she say?
In the Gate of Rebirth, she was playing cards with Mo Jiao. When she mentioned him, she said eight words, "Let go of what should be let go, forget what should be forgotten."
To this day, Li Xuanbai is willing to help her, not just because of the evil magic power in her.
She was willing to treat him as her own and be friendly with him, not because of his unreliable love.
They were so alike. In every way—so alike.
Li Xuanbai shook his head. The small earring shone so brightly in the candlelight that he was afraid she wouldn't see it. He tilted his head and smiled at her.
"Although, until now, you still refuse to tell me your real name."
"But admit it."
"——We two are a perfect match."
She tapped her fingertips on the chopsticks and lowered her eyelashes.
It's impossible because they are so similar.
She killed Gu Huaijin.
She hadn't seen how Gu Huaijin would react to this kind of thing, but she didn't need to see how Li Xuanbai would react to it; she could guess the outcome.
She must hate Hai Taotian so much that she would break her bones and eat her tendons until she dies.
She laughed, "Stop bragging. I don't know you." She put down her chopsticks, stood up, and lifted the brocade curtain, wanting to go back to the shore. "What I did to him is enough to make you fear him for the rest of your life. You can only talk about it now. It's so easy to just say it. If I really agree to you——"
The words suddenly got stuck in my throat and I couldn't continue.
Outside the brocade curtain, in the dense rain, under the willow branches on the shore, stood a man.
She was tall and slender, dressed in black. Her facial features could not be seen clearly, and she seemed to be unaware of the rain.
Even, there was no black ribbon tied.
She shuddered all over, turned around like lightning, and went back into the boat, causing the brocade curtain to sway.
"What's wrong?" Li Xuanbai still held the small wine cup to his lips.
"He..." She realized that she was so guilty that she hadn't even thought of it, "He's there."
Li Xuanbai stood up upon hearing this, lifted the curtain and looked outside.
"No?"
He lifted the curtain and showed her the scene on the shore. She pressed herself against the wall of the boat, hiding in a corner of the cabin, and carefully stretched her neck to look out.
there is none left.
There was no one under the willow branches just now, only the long willow branches swaying in the wind.
She disappeared so completely, as if she was making a fuss out of nothing, and was so nervous at the slightest sign of trouble that it was laughable.
She lowered her head and covered half of her face with exhaustion.
Li Xuanbai had already sat back down beside the small table, his mouth full of roast goose, and he was laughing so hard he was rolling back and forth:
"Come on, you're so scared, like a mouse seeing a cat. I've never seen you like this before. Are you so scared?"
She let out a long sigh.
Speaking of courage, she has always been brave. She never thought that one day she would hide from someone like this.
People should not do things that would make them feel guilty.
She was very annoyed. She opened the curtain and looked around again. Seeing no one, she waved her hand in relief and said, "I'm leaving. I just came to discuss things with you and ask for your opinion."
"Hey." He turned around and said, "Let me tell you this in advance. Regarding Chang Da's matter, I have to discuss it with that madman. Discussing it with that madman means discussing it with Gu Huaijin. If I go to that madman, he will most likely take you with him. The three of us will have to sit together in two days. You? You can't run away either."
He had a pair of fox eyes, smiling with glee, and stuffed another piece of pig skin jelly into his mouth. "You are so scared, let's see what you will do in two days."
She pinched the brocade curtain, endured for a long time, and said bitterly:
"Eat yours. You just came back from the palace banquet, and you're giving yourself special treatment. Sooner or later, you'll become as fat as a pig and forget everything you learned in Tianshan."
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