Chapter 122 Chapter 122 "What's your name?" "...
She almost didn't know whether to laugh or cry for a moment.
How could she come up with such an idea at this time?
Tonight, her emotions were almost exhausted, and she felt nothing but fatigue.
He has already vomited two mouthfuls of blood, so it’s better not to argue anymore.
She finally recovered a little from her panic - he was too strong for her to break. If he really wanted to attack her, she wouldn't be able to stop him even if she tried - she took two breaths with lingering fear.
While gently and slowly coaxing him, she raised her eyelashes and gently advised:
"Don't be angry, calm down, calm down. I said the wrong thing."
His eyes were red and he sneered:
"You said the wrong thing, you say the wrong thing all day long. We've only just met for a few hours, and you've mistaken me for someone else, and I'm playing tricks on you again. ... Don't move! Who mistaken me for someone else?! My fiancé is a spy! Who mistaken me for someone else?! Were my parents and brothers all murdered by the Gate of Rebirth? And I myself was stabbed through the chest by my lover on our engagement night—don't move!"
He angrily struck the hot spring with a loud bang, sending water gushing out in all directions. She shrank back for a moment, then coaxed him even more kindly, "The mountain-guarding jade token was stolen, and the sect is in ruins. Now the members of the Wangsheng Sect are in my hands, and I'm supposed to tell who's involved and who's not, who's guilty and who's innocent?! You really think I'm a saint! You think I'll... let go!"
"Okay, I'm sorry." She was really afraid that he would start vomiting blood again, so she clung to his arms anxiously, rarely showing a gentle gesture. While patiently massaging, she leaned close to his lips and muttered:
"Don't be angry, just listen. I've given in. Look at you—"
"What are you doing?" He lowered his eyelashes, neither dodging nor smiling, his expression was cold.
His expression was a common sight on the Imperial Master Gu Huaijin's face, but no matter how she looked at it, she just couldn't get used to it.
"I didn't do anything." She scratched a circle with her nails, and his aggressive words were immediately choked. He hugged her with one hand, supported the edge of the pool with the other, lowered his head and endured it.
"Let go. I'm not in the mood for a fight!"
Even though he said that, the hand he was pressing on her back unconsciously hooked around her waist.
For some reason, wherever his palm touched her, goosebumps spread. The rough lines of his palm, through the wet clothes that clung to her body like rice paper, almost numbed her. She nervously turned her palm in a circle.
He leaned against the edge of the pool, took a few deep breaths, and closed his eyes.
"What the hell are you doing! I'm talking to you!"
If we can use this trick to turn big things into small things and small things into nothing, it would be great.
No matter what, at least tonight, he couldn't get excited anymore.
"Just to coax you. To apologize to you." She liked its obedience very much.
"Don't talk back to me! First you make me mad, then turn around and... don't move!"
"I didn't move. You're so fierce now."
Gu Huaijin looked up in disbelief, "Do you still remember what awful words you just said?! And now you're pretending nothing happened?! Sooner or later, I'm going to make you—"
The words stopped again. He hugged her and panted, supporting himself on the edge of the pool with one hand, enduring the pain.
"I was wrong. I won't say it again. Don't be angry or spit blood."
"Do you think that I will..."
He was speechless again.
Huai Jin fell for it. She breathed a sigh of relief.
"What the hell are you trying to do!" Gu Huaijin's anger, which hadn't been fully vented yet, was suddenly forced back into his throat. He felt so unwilling. Did she think that if he wanted it, he would be so foolish as to let her do whatever she wanted, and even let her brush off such absurd words?!
"Let go. I told you to let go. Do you want to...don't bother me once we meet?"
He said this, but for some reason, he had already pressed her tightly against the stone wall of the pool, with one knee, keeping her knees apart.
He held onto the stone wall with one hand and grabbed her waist with the other. He approached her with murderous intent, their foreheads almost touching. He was half an inch away from her nose and took a long breath.
"—Why do you say I'm playing with you?"
She glanced away guiltily.
Gu Huaijin was so aggressive, he hovered right in front of her face that she couldn't even turn her head away to avoid him. "Tell me. Why do you say I was playing with you? You think...!" He looked almost embarrassed, gritting his teeth and forcing himself to hold on. "You think that anyone can forgive you for what you did?! Anyone will let you go?! You have no conscience, you don't know what's good for you...!"
He lowered his head. He hadn't known when he started panting like a sick person. The heavy moisture entered his lungs and was exhaled, which was so hot that it almost drained out all the moisture. It sprayed on her face, making her mouth dry as well.
This time, he didn't speak for a long time.
The sound of the Longevity Spring gurgled, and the hot water droplets gathered in one place and steamed up. She was in his arms, as if she were imprisoned by him, the heat and stuffiness were unbearable, and her hands were tied, her arms were aching for a moment, and she called softly:
"Huai Jin..."
"What are you doing?" He raised his head, his hand that was gripping the edge of the sink, trembling with tension. His eyes were blurred and sinister as he looked at her with hatred and anger, yet also distracted.
"...Don't be angry." She kissed him obediently.
Gu Huaijin was unmoved, his eyelashes drooped a little, but he let her kiss him.
"Why do you say I'm playing with you?" He lowered his eyelids. "How could I play with you? To use these two words..." Then, in frustration and anger, he hammered the water surface until it exploded. "That's what you call playing with you!"
She couldn't help but burst out in laughter.
Gu Huaijin immediately glanced at her with an uncertain expression.
She didn't dare laugh anymore.
"What were you laughing at, just now." He seemed to have made up his mind suddenly, and the strong self-control on his face disappeared, as if he was calculating, and removed the sluice gate that was blocking the mountain torrent. He withdrew his hand that was supporting the edge of the pool with ill intentions, and slowly and unkindly climbed up from her tailbone to hug her. His two arms, like two powerful snakes, tied her and rubbed her.
She suddenly felt two large hands pressing down on her back. The rough lines on their palms disturbed her mind and her complexions.
"Don't move..." She closed her eyes and opened them again.
"Who's moving around? Who's moving around? Isn't this what you want? What do you want that I won't give you?"
He pried her hands apart like cracking a walnut, held her waist, lifted her up, lifted her higher, and placed her on the wall of the pool.
A shudder went through her.
It's late at night and everything is ready to go.
She was put on the platform, unable to move forward or backward, and was in a difficult situation.
"Speak. Why did you say that about me?"
Her hands were tied, making it difficult for her to balance, and she leaned back.
"I told you I guessed wrong..."
"You always assume this of me!" He roared in anger, and a burst of thunder instantly pierced her from head to toe, crackling from deep within her body to the top of her head, almost burning her eyelashes.
She didn't know whether she was in pain or what, and she sobbed unbearably. Gu Huaijin leaned against the wall and moved slowly, slowly. "No matter how I told you I loved you, you didn't believe me. No matter how I told you I wouldn't hurt you, you didn't listen. No matter how I told you to tell me if you had anything, we would face it together, you didn't listen and turned a deaf ear to me! What! You don't believe me, so you're so smart!"
"Do you think you're the smartest person in the world? You don't trust anyone, you don't listen to anyone, and you just speculate behind my back—you even said I was playing a trick on you! That's how you speculate about me! You're such a heartless person—"
She didn't have the time to speak. Even if he wanted to scold her, she could only let him scold her breathlessly.
"Back then, you were so cruel as to attack me. I wonder what you assumed about me!" She was rocking in the hot spring water when she suddenly heard these words. She tilted her head back, a tear slowly sliding down her eye. "During those days at Chaoyao Peak, I always felt something was wrong with you. You were sleepy all day, looking listless. You glanced at me and then glanced away, as if I didn't exist!"
"I asked, but you didn't tell me. I tried to coax you, but you didn't listen. I thought you had changed your heart, but then you saw me crying for no reason—" He became even more furious when he said this. "Do you think I would have made you suffer so much if you told me? Do you think I would blame you if you confessed to me?! I don't hurt you now, but you think I would have blamed you back then?! If you had to do this—it's irreversible—"
She opened her eyelashes, trembling from the inside out, and two lines of tears rolled down, "Don't say it - don't say it Huai... Jin, I'm really tired, I don't want to listen..."
"You don't want to listen. You don't want to listen because you're in the wrong!" Gu Huaijin laughed angrily, becoming more resentful. The water around her surged out of the hot spring pool, and even the people who were held up were involuntarily swayed by the water. Her mind was dizzy, and she felt that this man was like a sand snake today, not only good at diving, but also wanting to entangle her heart and bite her old wounds, making them bleed.
Another tear slid down, trembling, following her ups and downs.
Why just do this? Why not punish her?
She wanted him to punish her simply because—if he wouldn't touch her at all now, then how could he have hurt her back then if he had confessed?!
If he wouldn't hurt her—
So what was she trying to achieve by stabbing with that sword?!
She got nothing for such a painful determination.
Only after she lost it did she realize that everything she wanted was once in her hands.
She was too smart and gave up on her own.
At the cost of the life of the only person she had ever loved. She couldn't help crying. Even though all her senses were tugging at her nerves, she was still in pain: "Please don't say it... Really don't say it... I know, please don't say it anymore..."
Don’t… remind me again that I made the wrong choice back then.
Just be kind.
Gu Huaijin panted harshly: "Apologize."
She sneered with tears in her eyes, full of self-loathing and self-mockery, "How can you just apologize?"
"I'm not asking you." He buried his head in the crook of her neck, nibbled her collarbone, and kissed down, looking for a core. "Apologize."
Even her fingertips were trembling, and her voice had become hoarse without her knowing when: "...I'm sorry."
"Say," he leaned against the wall, waiting intently, "'Please forgive me.'"
She doesn't like asking others for help, and always feels that she doesn't need anyone's forgiveness.
Gu Huaijin was different from others after all, and she hesitated for a moment.
As soon as she showed any doubt, he became even angrier. She couldn't help but let out a scream that was so tender and sad that she startled herself and almost lost her balance and fell.
He supported her, his anger still lingering, "Please forgive me!"
"Please..." As soon as she said this, he crushed it into pieces. The words were stuck in her throat and she couldn't spit them out for a long time. She raised her neck and sighed.
"Say," he said, "beg for my forgiveness!"
"You..." He was like this, it was torture, there was no room for her to speak, "Please... please forgive me."
He finally got what he wanted to hear and closed his eyes for a moment.
After a while, he opened his eyelashes and said, "Come up cross-legged."
"Um?"
"Go over there."
She was a little flustered: "What are you doing..."
He didn't answer, but put his arms around her waist and back, holding her like a child, and walked across the hot spring. He laid her flat on the low stone steps at the entrance, leaving half of her body still immersed in the hot spring water.
The Longevity Spring was originally his private spring, but this time he lent it to her, and he had the maid sprinkle jasmine and rose into the water. Dense petals covered the surface of the water, and in the shallow water near the stone steps, there were even more petals, so piled up that the steps were almost invisible. Lying on the steps, it felt like lying among flowers.
He gently placed her head on the stone steps. "It's more stable here. Does it hurt?"
After such a long time, her waist was already sore and her mind was a little unclear. She opened her eyes and looked at the candlelight on the ceiling. There was a halo around the flame like frosted glass. She gasped: "It's okay."
He lifted her bound hands above her head, then placed his hands on her sides again, and heard her hum in his ear with satisfaction.
Five years ago, he had been thinking about her passionate voice day and night, thinking about it to the point of anxiety, but he had never had the chance to hear it.
She was so good at choosing the right time. On the day he was about to kill her, he finally dared to think of it, but she interrupted him with a single blow of her sword, bringing his plan to an abrupt end.
The longer you can't get something you covet, the more you yearn for it. You think you're about to get it, but when you're halfway there, your thirst still unquenched, and someone interrupts you, you yearn for it again and again, until it becomes a deep, etched thought.
He didn't know how many nights he had fallen asleep with dreams like this one, even during the days when he became a monk.
He thinks so much.
He lowered his head. The woman beneath him lay sprawled on the stone steps, dazed and lost, her mouth slightly open as if drunk, her rosy lips slightly curled. Pink and white petals piled around her, and her misty white dress slithered down the steps, floating lightly in the water, like a fairy in dire straits, cornered and lost.
Her white dress dragged and swayed rhythmically on the steps. He kissed her wet eyelashes: "Have you ever thought about this?"
When Nan Qiong Shuang heard him speak now, she felt his voice was far away, even though he was right in front of her.
She felt so full that she almost didn't know who she was anymore.
Was this the conclusion to her dreams? Separation, death, and then, through some strange twist of fate, a reunion.
When they met again, there were torture instruments and daggers again. They had several big fights, but they didn't agree on anything and couldn't come to any conclusion. For some unknown reason, they started to get entangled.
Did she really do nothing wrong? Should she really tell him...
"Have you thought about it?" He lowered his head and kissed her.
She endured the new wave, her brows furrowed for a moment before unfurling, "Yeah."
"Miss me?"
Her eyes focused a little: "Yeah."
He smiled and kissed her lips: "Why, at this time, you won't be so stubborn."
Her hands were tied, unable to move. She stretched her neck and whimpered, tears in her eyes: "Hate it."
He wanted to talk to her, but she didn't know how he could still speak. She almost fainted.
He spoke many words gently, but she didn't hear them. She responded in a daze, looking at the dim candlelight on the ceiling.
His back blocked everything, and she couldn't even see the candles, only a circle of hazy light.
In the distance, there was the sound of water. Again and again, rhythmically, it was carried up the steps, lapping against them. She closed her eyes in a daze, hearing a humming in her head.
Her heartbeat. The throbbing of her veins. Her breathing, and his.
The tide of blood and love of two people.
Her ears, clogged by her own blood, cut off from reality and shut out the outside world. She had an inexplicable feeling that from now on, she no longer needed to be awake. The whole world ended here, in his kiss, and going any further would mean destruction. Therefore, those who were awake were actually fools.
"Dear." He suddenly called her.
She raised her eyes in confusion.
"What's your name?"
"You don't like me screaming?" She didn't even think there was anything wrong with that.
He laughed dumbly: "I said your name."
Even her fingertips were numb: "...Frost."
"What cream?" He kissed her lips.
Knowing that she probably didn't want to say it, he deliberately threw her into the air at that moment.
As he wished, he heard her panicked and frightened cry for help.
A single crystal tear slid down the corner of her eye, and she trembled and convulsed, like a person who had just survived a catastrophe, her mind was out of her body, she was still in shock, she was panting, her teeth were chattering:
“…Nan Qiong Shuang.”
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