Chapter 63 Chapter 63 Why don’t you let me touch it?
She hadn't actually thought he would be so heartbroken. So heartbroken that even a passing mention of him, someone who wouldn't show it even after receiving seventy lashes, would actually burst into tears.
In this case, if he knew that she not only wanted to go down the mountain, but also wanted to go down the mountain with Li Xuanbai, wouldn't he collapse on the spot?
She couldn't bear it, so she reached out and stroked his back, then slowly embraced him. "Okay, Huaijin, why are you doing this? I'm not leaving yet."
He was suddenly comforted by her, like a man who was about to freeze to death who was suddenly fed a spoonful of warm soup. He still couldn't recover, but felt tired and numb. He fell heavily on her, pressing his head into her hair in the crook of her neck.
Breathe in the scent of her hair.
I don’t know how long it will be before I can no longer smell it.
He closed his eyes and kissed her neck.
She laughed, "No need for a fan this time?"
When she laughed at him, he felt a little annoyed and rubbed her lips with his thumb.
So soft that if a drop of dew fell on her lips, it would probably make them tremble.
Will he ever have another chance to kiss her lips in his life?
Nan Qiongshuang looked at his eyes, which had suddenly become as dim as dusk, and knew in her heart that he was thinking about kissing her again.
Staring at her lips means thinking about... kissing her.
She couldn't help but smile, the corners of her lips curled up, and her lips stretched out, like a flower slowly blooming.
Come and kiss me.
Tell me everything you want to say and do without any reservation.
Then, admit that you love me, admit that you can't live without me, admit that you let me control you, admit that you - surrender.
She laughed, "What are you looking at, sir?"
When she asked a question even though she knew the answer, she liked to call him "Young Master".
He stared at her lips in a lingering and affectionate manner for a long time, his Adam's apple rolling for a long time.
Finally, he covered her eyes, which were too bright in the darkness, with his hands: "Go to sleep, Jiaojiao. I'll sleep with you."
Gu Huaijin has been too self-disciplined for such a long time, and she is not without annoyance.
However, that night, she slept very soundly.
She was not a deep sleeper and would often wake up for no reason. The birds singing outside the window at night was enough to keep her awake all night.
However, she fell into a deep sleep without realizing it while being held by Gu Huaijin.
When I woke up, it was already bright outside.
When I got up, I realized that the other side of the bed was empty. Even the quilt was cold, obviously someone had been up a while and gone out to do some official business.
However, early in the morning, he actually changed all the sheets and quilts.
I don’t know what he did to her, nor what method he used to make her, a person who has always been shallow in perception, completely unaware.
Ever since that night, no matter how busy he was, he would always return to her room to rest at night. Sometimes, he would sneak into her room in the dark, find her asleep, and then do nothing but hold her all night. The next morning, without even a chance to say hello, he would leave again.
If she had not woken up every morning to find her collar soaked with his tears and her bed sheets changed, she would never have been sure that he had really come.
She understood his tears, but what about the sheets?
One day, when he finally had some free time, he came to see her during the day. Standing by the table, grinding ink for her, she casually asked, "I've always been curious. When you sleep alone, do you change your sheets every day, too?"
For some reason, he was silent for a long time while holding the ink stick, and finally said lightly: "Don't ask."
His secretive tone made her even more curious: "Don't ask?"
He just repeated: "Don't ask."
She blinked, vaguely sensing something was wrong.
Until one morning, even though Gu Huaijin was holding her by his side, she woke up a little early and turned over in his arms. Unexpectedly, she was scratched by something unexpectedly.
Nan Qiong Shuang: ...
Only then did she understand why all these days had been going on.
She really didn't expect that there would be a man in the world who could sleep in the same bed with his beloved every day and not even cross the line even if it came to this.
He is a true gentleman, but a true gentleman can defeat her.
If this continues, I'm afraid we'll be stuck in March.
So, one night, she finally made Gu Huaijin discover what she had written these days.
It was a list of the last things she wanted to do on the mountain, the things she wanted to prepare before going down the mountain, and her plans after going down the mountain.
That day, he stood in front of the stained glass window, holding a stack of thin and soft rice paper. He looked and read it again and again from beginning to end, as if he couldn't understand it.
In the end, he finally put aside all the pretense and looked back at her. His face was as pale as a ghost, but he still said gently:
"Jiaojiao, besides these, is there anything else you want to take away? I'll go and prepare it for you."
She was speechless for a moment.
Lying on the couch at night, he still hugged her from behind, but he hugged her tighter, so tight that she could hardly breathe.
He asked, "What do you want to do after you come down the mountain?"
"I haven't decided yet. I like freedom. I think I'd better go back to the river and be a boat girl. I can come and go as I please."
He kissed her ear and said, "It turns out Jiaojiao likes freedom."
She sighed softly: "So, you don't want me to leave?"
He just said: "Jiaojiao, your happiness is more important than mine."
She was speechless and her heart was in a mess.
After a long time, in the darkness, he finally asked, "So, aren't you afraid that I'll forget you?"
That night, the moon was covered by clouds and there was no light in the house.
Something rolled down her collar again. He hugged her and whispered:
"Afraid."
*
During that month, she couldn't get what she wanted no matter what.
Perhaps it was because, as long as it had nothing to do with Li Xuanbai, he was willing to satisfy all her requests and fulfill all her wishes.
Including going down the mountain.
Later, she completely understood that Gu Huaijin was a person who took "love is fulfillment" as his motto. No matter what, she would not be able to get what she needed from him before the big competition.
She finally gave up, too lazy to make any more trouble and unable to bear to hurt him anymore.
So, when he suddenly woke up again in the night, and even she was startled awake, she turned around to comfort him, reached out to wipe away his warm tears, and let him hold her in his arms, even though it was not comfortable for her to lie on his arm.
Sometimes, I would even take the initiative to kiss him.
Even she herself was surprised why she wanted to kiss him.
She couldn't figure it out, and Gu Huaijin was even more confused.
When she kissed him for the first time, she got playful and mentioned, "Maybe I'll get married within two years after I come down the mountain." As soon as she finished speaking, she touched his face again and felt a hand full of wet tears.
He hugged her and said, "So fast."
"yes."
He kissed her ear and said, "If you don't like it, you can always come back to Tianshan to find me."
She laughed, "I've been divorced, maybe even divorced. Do you want one too?"
He said, "Yes."
So she actually began to feel that she was going too far. She knew that she would not leave him, but she teased him with things that he could not stand every day, breaking his heart.
She turned around in his arms, facing him, and gently wiped his tears with her sleeve. "Actually, if you want me to stay, maybe I will stay."
This was her biggest reminder. In her eyes, it was something that should not be said.
But he said, "Jiaojiao, if what you want is freedom, then nothing is more important than freedom."
Nan Qiongshuang had been struggling desperately in the Gate of Rebirth for thirteen years, doing all sorts of good and bad things, fighting for her last few days of freedom, so she burst into tears when she heard these words.
She said softly, "Silly boy." She held his face and kissed his wet eyelashes.
His eyelashes trembled and his tears were slightly salty. She thought he would be shy, or at least stiff, but unexpectedly, he just obediently let her kiss him.
Only then did she guess that perhaps he wanted her to kiss him and had been thinking about it for a long time, so he was so natural and almost familiar, letting her touch him.
He never allowed himself to touch her—at least not when she wasn't deliberately provoking him.
But she could touch him however she wanted and kiss him anywhere, and he didn't resist at all.
Except for one time.
She was inexplicably awakened in the middle of the night by the rustling sound of fabric. She found that the person behind her was not hugging her. She felt a little uncomfortable for a moment and turned around to look at him.
It was dark at night, the moonlight only illuminating the narrow window. She couldn't see his face clearly, but the noise in the room suddenly stopped, and he seemed startled. "...Why are you awake, Jiaojiao?"
"What's that sound?" she asked dazedly.
"What's that sound?" he said softly. "You must have heard it wrong. Get some sleep."
She felt more and more that something was wrong. In the past, when she woke up in the middle of the night, if he was awake too, he would kiss her and then coax her back to sleep.
But this time she just lay flat on his side, neither coming over to kiss her nor even coming over to hug her, she just stayed on his side.
She asked, "What's wrong?"
He seemed a little nervous: "What?"
There's something wrong with him.
Nan Qiongshuang knew that when someone wanted to hide something, asking them would reveal nothing, so she simply turned to the inside of the couch and closed her eyes.
She was a light sleeper to begin with, and it was even harder for her to fall asleep again after being startled awake. So, in the middle of the night, half intentionally and half accidentally, she suddenly heard his breathing from the other side of the couch.
Those breaths were extremely disordered, yet seemed to be suppressed deliberately, and only dared to be handled with care, eventually turning into some helpless, sighing gasps.
The friction between the clothes and the quilt was so soft and rustling that even the bed curtains were shaking slightly.
Nan Qiong Shuang buried her face in the quilt, listening to the sound of water gradually coming from the other side. Her expression was normal, but she found it a little interesting.
There are times when he can't help himself.
If you call him at this time, he might be scared to death.
Then he stretched out an arm, put it around his waist, and leaned in, pressing his forehead against his body.
"Huaijin, hug me."
Gu Huaijin was stiff for at least a cup of tea.
She really couldn't help laughing in her quilt.
He lay there, not daring to move or speak. No matter what she said, he just didn't answer.
He was really too funny, she couldn't help it, how could a man be so funny? She pinched out an innocent and naive voice again, her hand slid down his waist, slowly and vaguely touching it, while acting: "Hold me, why don't you hold me today?"
Gu Huaijin suddenly grabbed her wrist, then let go as if he had been electrocuted.
The quilt was already burning hot because of him.
He panted: "Jiaojiao, why haven't you slept yet..."
She smiled, "Why aren't you asleep yet?" and moved her hand down again.
He suddenly grabbed it and said, "Don't move."
She pretended to be aggrieved: "Why won't you let me touch you today?"
His chest rose and fell for a long time: "...Be obedient."
"Be obedient? Why should I be obedient?" She laughed, leaned over his face, and kissed the tip of his sweaty nose. The slightly salty sweat tasted like his tears.
"You are the one who should be obedient. Go to sleep."
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