Chapter 37: Wei Sheng Embracing the Pillar (End) Love is impossible, and hatred is also in vain. ...
Lian Qiang was stunned for a long time, then suddenly smiled: "Then I wish you a long and happy life together."
"Yes, we will." Xuze nodded vigorously. As if sensing something, he suddenly reached out to Lian Qiang. "Sijia seems to have something else to say to you. Would you like to hear it?"
"How can you tell that?" Lian Qiang was slightly surprised. Following the young man's gesture, she reached out to touch the light. Just as Xu Ze said, a crisp sound came into her ears.
In this world, people are always bound by many things. I used to be bound by so-called responsibilities, and now I'm bound by life and death, but I can finally say I've found freedom. What about you? What are you bound by?
She never thought that An Sijia wanted to tell her this. When Xuze withdrew, Lian Qiang had not yet come to her senses.
Did An Sijia... figure out that she was a demon cultivator? Or perhaps, did she notice that her relationship with Chi Xingji was peculiar? But they didn't interact much, so how could she have known that?
Xuze was about to say goodbye to the two of them excitedly, but Chi Xingji stopped him and handed him a space treasure bag. "These are gifts from the An family. We don't need them. Perhaps they can be helpful in resurrecting, so I'll give them to you."
"Okay, thank you very much." Xu Ze took it without hesitation and raised his chin towards Lian Qiang. "Thank you both for your kindness. I didn't expect that even though you're a demon, you have such a kind heart."
Lian Qiang raised her eyebrows and smiled with emotion. She never thought that the words praising her for being a demon but a good person came from the mouth of a demon who was also considered an alien in the eyes of the world.
"In my opinion, you are also a kind-hearted demon." Lian Qiang wanted to use the word "loyal" to describe you, but felt it was too early.
Xu Ze chuckled, accepted the praise, and held the halo in his hand, grinning foolishly, as if he were holding some rare treasure. The bright light shone on him, making people see vitality and hope for no reason.
After watching the demon and the spirit depart, the matter was resolved satisfactorily. Strangely enough, the lustful and selfish fox would hug the pillar and shed sincere tears for the girl he loved. And unlike the people in the story, the girl never forgot the promise she had made until her death.
No one can predict what will happen in the future, but at least at this moment, they have all achieved their own perfection.
They continued to write their story, and it was finally time for her and Chi Xingji to part ways.
Lian Qiang calmed herself down. This day should have come a long time ago, but it had been unnecessarily delayed for so long that the reluctance to leave seemed to linger. She smiled as she turned to Chi Xingji, "Your injury has healed considerably, hasn't it? You and I met by chance, and now our fate has ended. We can call it quits. It's time to part ways."
Chi Xingji didn't respond, but looked at her quietly: "We're even, do you think this means we're even?"
Her smile froze, as if angered by Chi Xingji's reaction. Lian Qiang raised her voice and asked, "What else? Does the Immortal Lord need me to do anything else?"
She wasn't afraid that Chi Xingji would argue with her, she was afraid... of something else.
For example, favor.
"...Instead of saying we're not even on the same page, you just said our fate is over. Is it really over, or do you think it is?"
Chi Xingji approached step by step. Lian Qiang was startled and stepped back, but bumped into a tree. Fortunately, Chi Xingji did not take another step closer.
She hurriedly brushed away the leaves that were blocking her eyes, but could not avoid the mottled shadows of the trees. Suddenly, a bold idea emerged in her mind. Could it be that after Chi Xingji lost his memory, he actually had feelings for her?
But even she found it ridiculous to think this way, which should have been a joyous thing. When he still remembered them, they had been childhood sweethearts, their relationship wasn't particularly deep. After spending so little time with him, how could she believe Chi Xingji had feelings for her?
—Because of the vast difference in their social status? Because she was so weak that she needed his constant protection? Or because she was overestimating her own abilities and didn't know her place?
Even if Chi Xingji did have some interest in her, he was still an Immortal Lord after all, and he would have to return to the Ninth Heaven. Would she be abandoned again by then? Would she be discarded like she had been a hundred years ago?
A hundred years ago, she was terrified of thunder. So what would she have to lose this time? Would she throw away the self-respect she had finally regained?
——No, Lian Qiang, oh Lian Qiang, you must never let such a thing happen again, and never... fall into such an involuntary situation.
After a few breaths, Lian Qiang heard her heartbeat steady, and said calmly as possible: "The Immortal Lord and I have only met once. We have never met before, and it is not easy for us to travel together in the future."
"You're lying. You said we had never met before," Chi Xingji said firmly. He took a few steps closer and walked under the shadow of the tree, intending to expose her lie. "I didn't ask you before, how did you recognize me at a glance in the illusion that night?"
He paused, then continued, "Did we really not know each other before? Don't take advantage of my lack of memory and try to deceive me."
Lian Qiang's breath stagnated. Chi Xingji had already vaguely grasped the truth, but how could she easily admit it? "In reality, Xu Ze didn't know where An Sijia was. I pondered it several times and was able to immediately detect the changes in the illusion. I suspected that someone had entered the illusion with me. Is this strange?"
“But you…”
"Before, I was afraid I might be overly sentimental," Lian Qiang interrupted him forcefully and hastily. "I never told the Immortal Lord that I was actually married. I told him before, right? Demon Lord Jiang Lang is my husband. I was afraid of causing trouble, so I kept it a secret. Now it seems that hiding it has only led to complications."
Chi Xingji's pupils shrank, and he said slowly: "I don't believe it. The look in your eyes when you talk about him shows that you don't really like him."
"Whether it's sincere or not, what does it matter?" Lian Qiang smiled sincerely, but it was a mocking laugh. "Your Majesty, you don't know that I lost a husband before, and I'm a demon. Living is already very difficult. He doesn't mind me being a remarried woman with a husband-killing fate, and is willing to give me a place to settle down. It's already very good."
After a long silence, Chi Xingji spoke again with difficulty: "This is not your fault. Why do you belittle yourself like this? He doesn't care about you by doing this. It's obvious that he just treats you as a subordinate..."
Lian Qiang interrupted him emphatically, "So what if I'm just a subordinate? So what if I'm just a wife? I'm perfectly happy with it. Even if I humiliate myself, it's not your place to intervene. It's best that you don't criticize my husband."
Chi Xingji remained silent for a long time. In all that short time, they had always been on the same page, so much so that he had never imagined that today, she would exclude him from the group and turn him into an outsider. Just thinking about it made his heart ache slightly.
Touched by his expression, Lian Qiang closed her eyes and said wistfully, "My Immortal Lord, my life is but a fleeting moment for you. Perhaps tomorrow I will turn into a pile of earth, hidden in some nameless, lonely grave. My life has already been filled with many unexpected sorrows. Since this is the case, it's best not to worry about it."
After saying this, Lian Qiang turned sideways and slowly retreated from the shadows, also escaping Chi Xingji's sight. The two of them, who had originally been standing opposite each other, now stood side by side, one facing forward, the other facing backward.
Chi Xingji still maintained that posture, and after a long while he said calmly: "...You are right."
She had already denied it repeatedly. Even if he had more doubts in his heart, it would not be a gentleman's behavior to press him further. Chi Xingji lowered his eyelashes: "Then I wish you a safe journey and a happy journey."
Lian Qiang did not respond. She didn't want to stay here for a moment - she didn't want to stay with Chi Xingji any longer.
Just as she was about to start, Chi Xingji pulled her back. Lian Qiang exerted great effort to restrain herself from observing Chi Xingji's expression. But he only clenched his grip for a moment, then quickly released it: "...If you have any difficulties in the future, you can come to me."
"No," Lian Qiang said lightly, "I said we're done with each other, there's no point in getting entangled anymore."
Only after she had run very far away did he squat down, hugging his knees tightly and curling up, no longer as calm and composed as before.
Tears fell one by one, landing on her dress and falling into the ground. Lian Qiang gritted her teeth to prevent the sobs from spilling out of her lips.
Why, why didn't Chi Xingji from a hundred years ago tell her these words? And why did Chi Xingji, who had lost all his memories, give her hope again?
She had already accepted that one day, she might accidentally go astray, her meridians would flow backwards, and she would die without anyone noticing. Or she might be killed in the name of eliminating evil and promoting good. Or, she might simply not be able to survive the thunder tribulation and die quietly.
She has willingly faced the consequences of being possessed by a demon, and is willing to be trapped in this dark abyss for eternity. Why would someone come and tear open a hole for her to see a little bit of light, the light she once longed for so much?
Is this how God plays tricks on her?
It turns out that if you like someone deeply, you will repeat the same mistakes again and again, like a moth to a flame. You can't love them, and you can't hate them either.
Lian Qiang squatted and cried for a while longer, her breathing returning to normal. She struggled to stand, suddenly remembering something she'd once heard about a clan of dream silkworms living on the frigid peak of Kunlun Mountain. They fed on the dreams of humans, and they spun dream silk to weave the most magnificent dreams.
When the dream silk burns, the person who lights it can see the person he wants to see most. When the dream silk burns out, he will completely forget that person.
Many people dismissed this, believing it was a fleeting dream, so why bother forgetting it? Yet, countless people sought the No Dream Silk. Even Qiang used to dismiss it. She always believed that deep-seated illnesses could be cured, but now it seemed that simply avoiding it was the only way to feel healed. If she could completely let go of the past with the help of external forces, that would be… a good thing.
Having made up her mind, Lian Qiang's gaze became firm as she looked into the distance.
Kunlun Mountains...
Then let’s go.
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The author has something to say: The story of the fox and the girl has come to an end~
Chi Xingji: He died very suddenly.
My ex-husband is also going offline for a while, so I'm going to rush into the solo dungeon! Thanks to all the little angels who voted for me or provided me with nutrient solution between 2023-05-03 23:04:19 and 2023-05-04 23:07:20~
Thanks to the little angel who irrigated the nutrient solution: 5 bottles of edamame;
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