Chapter 46: Old Dream (End) She just thought regretfully, if...
Lian Qiang was surprised that she could speak in a tone so calm that she couldn't even imagine herself saying, "Chi Xingji, because I'm jealous of you."
It’s fake, all fake.
She suddenly felt a little cold on her face. She touched her face under Chi Xingji's surprised and slightly worried gaze. It turned out that her cheeks were wet with tears.
Why are you crying? Haven't I already prepared these words in my mind?
"Did Xi Wenji tell you? I was once a disciple of the Wuji Sword Sect, and his apprentice. It was considered a reputable and upright sect in the eyes of the world, but now I've ended up like this, becoming a despised demonic cultivator..."
Lian Qiang raised her eyes, her eyes filled with deep jealousy or perhaps clarity: "Why do you think that is?"
Chi Xingji held his breath.
She spoke slowly, enunciating each word. "Why is it that you, born with a sword bone and a master willing to sacrifice so much for you, can enjoy everything for granted? You can perform sword moves that I can't replicate in ten days or half a month with just one glance. Why is that?"
Chi Xingji, don't believe it, don't believe it...
Everything she said was a lie. She had never been jealous of him. She was only happy for him, happy that he had a less than perfect first half of his life, but would have everything he wanted in the future.
But Lian Qiang could only allow herself to continue telling lies: "Am I not working hard enough, or am I not humble enough? No one comes to tell me what I did wrong. I only know that gossip can destroy gold, and every word can kill me.
"I'm only of ordinary talent, yet everyone compares me to you—or perhaps, I'm simply less talented than you. They all say it's a great shame for you to have such an unsuitable companion.
"It's so strange that I, a living person, am your stain. They don't even know if we are in love or not, and they don't know what kind of person I am.
"I am clearly your wife, and I am closer to you than anyone else in the world. But why, Chi Xingji, I have never received any preferential treatment because of you, but why do I have to be pointed at and criticized by everyone, and can only look up at you with my head held high?
"And you, forever in the clouds, can never empathize with my pain in the dust. Why?"
Those extremely bitter and sad emotions came flooding in, almost drowning her again.
Tears streamed down her face, but Lian Qiang finally managed a smile. "Do you think I'm willing to become a demon? Every moment I've been with you, I've wanted to kill you—how ridiculous! Who would believe that an ascended cultivator would have a wife who, out of jealousy, weakened her faith and became possessed?"
He seemed to want to stand up and wipe her tears, but Lian Qiang avoided him. She looked straight at Chi Xingji and finally wanted to conclude her "confession": "Why do you think I always avoid you after we meet again? It's because I am really fed up with you.
"I'm so tired of your condescending attitude, so tired of your self-righteous protection. If you weren't still helpful to me, would you think I'd be willing to flatter you?
"I've always wanted to warn you that some memories aren't good. But if you insist on knowing about our awful past, then I'll tell you."
"It's just that I've already said this much, Immortal Lord, what else do you want to say?"
When they met again, she wanted to use this title to distance themselves from each other. Even now, she still has to use this distant title to push him away and remind him.
"Don't worry, what I'm telling you today is between the two of us, and I won't tell anyone else. I don't want to expose my wounds, and I don't want to tarnish your reputation."
Lian Qiang stood up, not wanting to look at Chi Xingji's expression again. She just felt that the withered apricot blossoms all over the yard were really ugly. She had almost completely forgotten the scene when they were in full bloom.
She thought she would have a good sleep.
After a long sleep, when she wakes up, Chi Xingji will be gone, and she can return to her previous life safely.
But when Lian Qiang woke up the next morning and walked into the courtyard, she saw Chi Xingji again under the dead branches. His sleeves were wet with morning dew, indicating that he had either woken up very early or hadn't slept all night.
Lian Qiang watched him approach her and then stop a few steps away.
"I've figured it out," he said hoarsely, but his tone was firm. "I still don't think what you said was your fault. I thought about it all night and quickly realized that it wasn't your fault. But I spent another night thinking about what would have happened to us now if I had been able to understand your feelings in time."
Lian Qiang remained silent, but her heart softened. She had never thought that the words she wanted to hear a long time ago would be said to her by Chi Xingji a hundred years later.
She had never imagined that even after she had belittled herself like this yesterday, Chi Xingji still wouldn't give in, thinking she had done nothing wrong. To say she wasn't moved at all would be a lie.
Is it that the loss of his memory has had too great an impact on him, or is it that by letting go of distracting thoughts, he can be more honest?
Seeing her silence, Chi Xingji sighed deeply, his eyes filled with a complex look of confusion. "If you hate me because of the past, I don't blame you, and I have nothing to defend myself. But I want to make up for my past self. If you don't give up, I am willing to reshape your body and eliminate the evil spirit for you."
The Chi Xingji in front of her seemed to be no different from the young man who said "Let's get married" back then, but Lian Qiang knew that there was something standing between them that was irreversible.
That is something that has taken root and sprouted tenaciously in her heart even after a hundred years.
"I wandered the courtyard all night, and I spotted something besides the apricot blossoms. I vaguely recognized it. It was a Netherworld Spirit Tree, a tree that grows at the border of the human world and the underworld. If nurtured with spiritual energy and blood, it's an excellent choice for forging the body and shaping energy. If my guess is correct, this was also... planted by me back then."
Lian Qiang was shocked. She didn't know the origin of the tree before, but now after listening to him talk about it, she had a vague idea in her heart, but it was still vague.
"I know you don't mind your status now, but I want to do something for you. Maybe I thought the same way back then. Now I'm more capable. I just want to help him accomplish this." Chi Xingji curled the corners of his lips bitterly, as if mocking himself. "That's all."
"Your Majesty, you said before that my accompanying you was the last thing you wanted to do. Now you don't want to keep your promise?" Lian Qiang hadn't figured it out yet, so she brought out his excuses without thinking. She could only hope that Chi Xingji would keep his promise.
Chi Xingji nodded calmly: "Yes, I want to break the contract, it doesn't count."
Lian Qiang almost laughed out of anger: "I didn't know you were such a scoundrel and a man who didn't keep his promise..."
"Now you know, the past is the past. When you haven't seen someone for three days, you should look at him with new eyes. A hundred years have passed, and I have been reborn." He said it frankly and confidently, and he didn't feel that there was anything wrong with his behavior.
"But you were in front of Jiang Lang..." "So what? Even though he's the Demon Lord, he wouldn't extend his hand so far. He'll just think you were delayed on your way back, and won't think I was forcing you."
If she didn't come back for a long time, Jiang Lang would just think she was out traveling as agreed. Lian Qiang didn't say anything, but suddenly smiled, the only smile she had in recent days, a smile that came from the heart.
She was imagining, if she refused, would Chi Xingji use other tricks to force her to agree?
——It’s very likely. If possible, she really wants to see this side of Chi Xingji.
"One month," Lian Qiang said suddenly. She couldn't resist Chi Xingji after all. "I'm only willing to spend one month with you."
Her agreement surprised Chi Xingji, but he still said in a deep voice, "One month is enough."
However, although Chi Xingji spoke with great confidence, it was too late to undo what had happened. Lian Qiang did not believe in the so-called magic tricks that could drive away the evil spirit, but she wanted to give it a try.
Let's try to see if there are miracles in the world, and also to see how far Chi Xingji can go for her. There was also a faint voice in her heart, and she also wanted to know why Chi Xingji planted this tree in the first place. Was it really... for her?
Lian Qiang had to admit that, moved by Chi Xingji's persistence, she finally softened her heart. One month, just one month. After that, she could also ignite the dream silk without any regrets.
After all, no one knows about it, so it’s not impossible for her to make an exception for Chi Xingji again.
But thinking this way, Lian Qiang remembered something else: "Then how are you going to place Xi Wenji?"
He has always valued friendship and loyalty, and seeing Xi Wenji in such a difficult situation, it is impossible for him to just ignore him. Upon hearing this, Chi Xingji's expression became more serious: "Don't worry, give me one day, and I will take care of my master."
After he said this, Lian Qiang didn't bother to ask him how he was going to arrange it. He was sure that Xi Wenji would not be treated unfairly. She waved her hand lazily and said, "It's okay. There are only 29 days left."
Lian Qiang turned around and heard a muffled voice behind her: "You threatened me."
She chuckled and said nothing.
Chi Xingji handled the matter much faster than she had imagined. He only went out for a while at noon and returned quickly.
Even though Lian Qiang didn't ask, he took the initiative to mention that he had already made arrangements for Xi Wenji and told her not to worry.
"What do I have to worry about?" Lian Qiang just found it funny and curled up in the recliner, lazily basking in the sun.
Although the beautiful scenery of Xinglin is gone, this place is still comfortable, which is rare.
"There's a lot of grudge between you two, so it's only right for me to do more to mediate," Chi Xingji replied tactfully. Lian Qiang understood: "Xi Wenji has told you a lot about my faults again, hasn't he?"
"Knowing too much is not necessarily a good thing." Chi Xingji said lightly. She also understood his hidden meaning and did not pursue it.
There were more important things to do right now, so Lian Qiang asked, "When do we leave?"
"Tomorrow, it's a rare opportunity to relax, so just enjoy it."
Lian Qiang deliberately teased, "Then there are only twenty-eight days left?" "Then there are only twenty-eight days left."
Chi Xingji remained motionless, impassive. From what he said, he was telling her not to rush. Lian Qiang closed her eyes, feeling at ease, ready to take a nap.
Unfortunately, the afternoon sun was too strong. She closed her eyes but couldn't fall asleep. She was about to get up to cover her eyes, but she felt someone standing beside her, shielding her face from the sun.
Lian Qiang knew who it was without even opening her eyes. She just evened out her breathing to create the illusion that she was asleep. Chi Xingji stood there covering her face for as long as she lay there.
Unable to hold it in any longer, Lian Qiang pretended to be fast asleep and turned over, pressing half of her face underneath. She then covered her mouth and nose with her sleeves, then sniffed very quietly, trying hard to suppress the tears that were rising up in her eyes.
She just thought with regret that if she had met Chi Xingji now when she was simple and innocent in the past, and all the bad things had not happened, she would also be enjoying the short and peaceful happiness like now.
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