Chapter 28: Continuing the supporting character's emotional line
Li Mingyuan couldn't help crying when he left the restaurant. He sat in the car crying and cursed himself in his heart for being sick and getting scolded for looking for Kirill.
He felt really lonely when he saw that everyone else was there, but now he was just stupid. If he wanted someone to accompany him, why not just go to the bar and order a male model? Why did he have to find Kirill and make himself angry?
He called Song Xuexi and asked her to recommend a bar for him. Song Xuexi was playful but also cautious. Li Mingyuan was very satisfied with her taste. After all, they both had a thing for looks.
Song Xuexi was still processing documents in the ward at this moment. Xu Nuoyan had fallen asleep. The only sound in the ward was the typing of the keyboard. The warm sunlight hit Song Xuexi's face, as if trying to warm her and make her frown smoother.
The cell phone rang, and Song Xuexi was startled. She looked up at the person on the hospital bed, then picked up the phone and went out, "Hello? What's wrong with A Yuan?" Although she was talking to the person on the phone, her eyes were always looking at the person in the ward through the glass.
"I'm so bored, can you accompany me to the bar? I want to find some good-looking boys to play with." His voice had changed a lot, and you couldn't tell that he had just cried. Song Xuexi was surprised by his words. Li Mingyuan, such a well-behaved man, also went to the bar to look for ducks?
"I can recommend a few to you, but I can't go with you because I'm in the hospital now," he said as he sent Li Mingyuan the addresses of several bars.
"Ah? You are in the hospital?" Because of Song Xuexi's words, he lost all mood to play. Song Xuexi smiled when she heard his anxious voice and told him what had happened. Li Mingyuan was silent for a long time and didn't know what to say. He knew that Xu Nuoyan was affectionate, but Xu Nuoyan's behavior was a bit too much.
He asked for the address of the hospital and drove to the address given by Song Xuexi. He and Xu Nuoyan did not get along, but Xu Nuoyan had helped him. What's more, the two were classmates for three years. He still remembered the day when Xu Nuoyan came to rescue him from Kirill.
When Li Mingyuan came over, Xu Nuoyan was still debating with Song Xuexi. His purpose was to see Ran Yian. He was worried that Ran Yian would be bored and sad alone. Song Xuexi seemed to be talking to him calmly, but in fact he had already started to scold Xu Nuoyan for being lovesick.
Why didn't she scold Ran Yian? The first reason was that Ran Yian was her elder and she respected him. The second reason was that she felt there was nothing wrong with Ran Yian. She felt sorry for Xu Nuoyan, but in fact, it was Ran Yian who asked Xu Nuoyan to leave, but he did not leave and chose to stay.
"What's wrong with you two?" Li Mingyuan looked at them at the door, his hand still on the door handle. It was a rare scene for Xu Nuoyan and Song Xuexi to quarrel. At other times, even if Song Xuexi scolded Xu Nuoyan, he would not say anything. Why were they quarreling so fiercely now?
"This idiot wants to go upstairs to take care of An Ge, worried that he will be bored and sad alone." She took a deep breath and sat down, scratching her head in annoyance. Xu Nuoyan saw him roll his eyes and close them.
Li Mingyuan looked at the two of them and didn't know what to say for a moment. He had witnessed with his own eyes how much Xu Nuoyan loved Ran Yian during the few days he stayed at their house.
"Xu Nuoyan, you can hardly even go upstairs by yourself, let alone take care of others. Brother An has someone to take care of him, so you don't have to worry," he came back to his senses and looked at Xu Nuoyan meaningfully.
Xu Nuoyan's face darkened as he looked at Li Mingyuan and asked who was next to him. Song Xuexi and Li Mingyuan looked at each other and kept silent. Xu Nuoyan was jealous.
Seeing that the two of them were silent, Xu Nuoyan was very angry, but he couldn't get up and beat them up. He could only lie on the bed and look at them, his eyes red and looking like he was about to cry.
"Shit, did Liao Feng's tear incontinence get to you? You cry so easily." Li Mingyuan noticed him crying and couldn't help but tease him. Song Xuexi also looked at him, her face full of confusion.
"Li Mingyuan, get out of here." He used his mobile phone to transfer 150,000 yuan to Li Mingyuan. He was really afraid that he would be angry to death if Li Mingyuan continued to stay here. Li Mingyuan looked at him with disdain and left with his mobile phone. He did not go to the bar but went upstairs to find Ran Yian.
Ran Yian was being taken care of. He leaned calmly against the head of the bed, holding the medical records his apprentice had given him in his hand, his slender fingers turning the pages with the wind.
Seeing the furry head poking in, he smiled gently. Although Li Mingyuan was also Wu Yihan's younger brother and one of the reasons why Wu Yihan gave up on him, he didn't hate him. It could be said that he didn't hate any child in the Li family.
"Xiao Yuan, why are you here?" He put down the medical records in his hand and greeted Li Mingyuan to come in. Li Mingyuan looked at his pale face and felt a little distressed.
Although Xu Nuoyan's condition is serious, he has no shortage of people around him, but Ran Yian is always alone. Li Mingyuan doesn't think he deserves it, but he just feels sorry for him, no matter what happened between him and Wu Yihan, or because he is alone now.
"Brother An, why are you alone? Why don't you ask a nurse to take care of you?" He was afraid and sat by the bed, holding Ran Yian's hand. The heartache was about to overflow from his eyes. Ran Yian smiled and rubbed his head. He thought for a long time and didn't know what to say.
"I don't need a nurse, and I feel really uncomfortable having a woman take care of me. It's even more impossible for me to find a male nurse. I, a gay, can't stand it." He felt disgusted from the bottom of his heart, and cooperated by shaking his head with a look of disgust. Li Mingyuan couldn't help laughing when he saw him like this.
'So don't worry about me. If I'm hungry, I can order takeout. If my apprentices are bored, they can come and talk to me whenever they have time. But why did you find time to come to me? Your two brothers are getting married, and you don't want to help?' He naturally changed the subject to other people, not wanting to talk too much about his own affairs.
Li Mingyuan naturally noticed it, so he didn't continue asking but followed his words and said, "I just watched them two being affectionate at home. I didn't need to help at all. I just watched them prepare for the wedding like a huge light bulb." Although he didn't want to say that their relationship was good in front of Ran Yian, which made him feel uncomfortable, he had to say it to let Ran Yian think clearly. Wu Yihan was going to get married, and he couldn't continue to be trapped in the past.
Ran Yian's face changed when he heard his words, but he quickly adjusted his mood, not wanting Li Mingyuan to see the expression on his face. "Then you should find a partner too. My bastard nephew is not suitable. You should find someone else. With your conditions, what man can you want?"
Ran Yian's words sounded like encouragement to Li Mingyuan, but there was a subtle bitterness and emptiness in his tone. He himself was trapped in the past, yet he urged others to look forward.
Li Mingyuan keenly caught Ran Yian's momentary loss of composure and the unnaturalness in her tone. He felt a little uncomfortable, thinking that his words might have been too harsh, but also that this layer of window paper must be broken. He followed Ran Yian's words, smiled self-deprecatingly, and continued half-seriously:
"Me? Come on, An Ge." He waved his hands, his tone a little exaggerated, trying to dilute the awkward atmosphere. "I don't have your charm. Besides, I just climbed out of one pit and don't want to jump into another immediately. Relationships are too tiring. Look at my brother and them, and then look at you and the one downstairs..."
He stopped talking at the right time and didn't say anything else, but his meaning was clear: he had witnessed the painful entanglements of several couples around him and was a little indifferent to love.
This is his true feeling, and it is also a subtle response to Ran Yian. Look, your deep affection ends up like this, why should I join in the fun?
After listening to this, Ran Yian was silent for a moment. He understood the implication of Li Mingyuan's words, which was not only an expression of his own views on love.
It was more like a mirror, reflecting the miserable situation of himself and Xu Nuoyan.
He suddenly felt a little powerless. Whether he was trying to persuade others or himself, it seemed so pale.
In the end, he just sighed lightly, with endless fatigue in his voice: "Yeah... it's too tiring." This sentence seemed to agree with Li Mingyuan, and also seemed to be summing up his own time over the past ten years.
He paused, as if he didn't want to continue this depressing topic, nor did he want to play the role of a life mentor anymore, so he tried to make his tone lighter: "But don't learn from us. You still have to give it a try, what if you meet a good one? But... be careful, don't meet a bad guy like me like Nuo..." He was interrupted by Li Mingyuan before he finished speaking.
"That's not the case. You're not a bad person. You just used your affection on the wrong person. If... if you used the same affection you had for my elder brother on Xu Nuoyan, you two would be the most loving couple." He said this anxiously as if he was afraid that Ran Yian would not believe him.
Ran Yian was stunned for a moment, then closed her eyes and smiled, tears streaming down her tightly closed eyes. "I know how stupid I am in your eyes. I need you to remind me. You too, and your eldest brother, that idiot Wu Yihan, even more so. Xiao Yuan, I know better than anyone how much he likes me. Xiao Nuo likes me so much that it makes me feel distressed. I am the only one in his heart and eyes, but I can't love him."
Ran Yian's tears silently fell, but the bitter smile on his lips did not fade. He opened his eyes and looked at Li Mingyuan, who looked anxious. His eyes were no longer filled with the usual alienation and concealment, leaving only a raw, naked pain.
"Xiao Yuan, you don't understand." His voice was hoarse, carrying the feeling of helplessness of being completely seen through. "It's not a question of who you 'use' your affection on... If feelings had an on/off switch, where you could change them at will, how could there be so many infatuated men and women in this world?"
He took a deep breath, as if he needed great courage to continue:
"My heart... it seems like a part of it is forever dead in the past, dead in those promises and expectations I made to you, my big brother. The rest of it knows that Xiao Nuo is great, better than anyone else. It loves him, is grateful to him, and even... depends on him. But 'love'... that 'love' that can make one desperate and burn with fire, I can't find it anymore."
He raised his hand and roughly wiped away the tears from his face, his tone filled with deep self-loathing:
"This is the most asshole part, you know? I clearly watched him give everything for me, clearly knew I should love him, clearly understood that I'm the most ungrateful person... but I just can't do it. This clear feeling of powerlessness... makes me feel even more hateful than when your eldest brother gave up on me."
He looked at Li Mingyuan, his eyes almost desperate. "So, stop saying I'm not a bad person. Dragging someone like this around, wasting his feelings and his life, isn't that the worst kind of person?"
Li Mingyuan was stunned. Something was stuck in his throat, preventing him from making any sound. His relationship with Kirill was full of betrayal.
It was Kirill who was sorry for him, but in terms of Xu Nuoyan and Ran Yian's relationship, they did not feel sorry for each other, and there was no betrayal, but their relationship was more complicated and painful.
He could blame Kirill for hurting him, but who should Xu Nuoyan blame? He would not blame Ran Yian, and Ran Yian had always been self-deprecating, "Brother An, I..." He wanted to apologize to Ran Yian, he wanted to comfort Ran Yian, but he found that all his words were pale and powerless when facing reality.
He couldn't understand Ran Yian's pain. It seemed that each of them was experiencing a tragic love affair. Suddenly, he felt that Song Xuexi was the best. She would not be bound by emotions, nor would she be disturbed by one person. She didn't have anyone she liked, nor would she really care about anyone. She had a free and easy personality and was self-centered, so she would not be hurt.
Li Mingyuan stood there for a long time, and finally did not choose to go downstairs. Instead, he turned around and slowly walked towards the hospital exit.
He needed to leave here, he needed some space to digest everything he had seen and heard today. Other people's stories were like a mirror, reflecting his own confusion and fear.
He didn't want to go to the bar for the time being. The fake excitement bought with money seemed particularly boring at this moment. He just wanted to be alone.
He sat on the floor of the corridor, leaning against the wall, thinking about the complicated emotional entanglements in his mind. At this time, he noticed someone approaching and looked up to see that Liao Feng was still wearing the black windbreaker, with one hand in his pocket, looking down at him.
"There are chairs available, but you insist on sitting on the floor. Are you using the marble to cool yourself down?" Li Mingyuan rolled his eyes, complaining in his heart that he couldn't just talk properly.
"Leave me alone. Why are you here instead of staying at home with your baby?" If Liao Feng didn't speak nicely, he wouldn't speak nicely to him either.
"I came to see Yanyan. I saw he was asleep, so I didn't disturb him. I came up to see how An Ge was doing." He looked away from Li Mingyuan and looked towards the ward.
Li Mingyuan followed his gaze and advised, "You'd better not go in. He's in a bad mood. Let him calm down alone." Liao Feng nodded, sighed, and sat on a chair beside him.
Li Mingyuan felt that the atmosphere was very strange. They were ex-lovers, but they were so harmonious sitting together. Could it be that they no longer loved each other?
Liao Feng noticed Li Mingyuan's gaze, but he didn't care. His little deer had gone out to play with his friends, and he missed him so much. He didn't have his sweet and soft wife to hug him tonight, and he felt that he might not be able to sleep.
Li Mingyuan suddenly felt curious. He looked up at Liao Feng and asked excitedly, "Liao Feng, tell me about your relationship with your baby. I want to know how you went from being a mistress to being the sweet couple you are today."
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