Chapter 33: Special Comfort
In this quiet night, the crisp crunching sound of fallen leaves underfoot seems particularly loud.
Cen Nian heard some noise, she put down her hands and looked in the direction of the sound, tears wet her eyes, coupled with the dim lights on both sides of the path, a blurry figure came into her sight.
She stared blankly at the person walking towards her, in disbelief.
The next second she quickly stood up, wiped the tears from her face, and pretended to be nothing: "You, why are you here?"
Jin Siyang doesn't like to see people cry. Cen Nian remembered this and stopped crying, but the redness and swelling of her eyes and nose did not go away at all. She had no choice but to stand in front of Jin Siyang, clutching the corner of her clothes, feeling at a loss.
"Aunt Liu was a little worried when she saw that you didn't go home."
Cen Nian hurriedly took out his phone: "I, I forgot to tell Aunt Liu that I was in the garden. I didn't wander around."
Jin Siyang nodded. He didn't say anything. He just walked past Cen Nian and sat directly on the bench in the garden. He looked at her and then at the chair: "Don't you want to sit down?"
"Ah? Oh..." Cen Nian was stunned by his actions. He sat blankly on the other side of the bench, with some distance between them.
"Jin Siyang, do you think I was a little embarrassed today?" Cen Nian took the initiative to bring up this matter, trying to ease the awkward atmosphere. "I trained for so long, but in the end I didn't play, and..." When she said this, her nose suddenly felt sore and she almost couldn't control her tears.
But she endured it: "Besides, I asked Aunt Liu and Uncle Li to watch the game. I heard from others that people in the class are also waiting to watch the game."
"I'm actually quite sad. Although I've been comforting myself that it's okay, it's really hard to not care."
Jin Siyang was like a silent listener. He sat quietly on the chair, his eyes looking straight ahead, not knowing what he was thinking.
After Cen Nian said some of the things, she felt much better, but the regret and anger in her heart did not go away. She was not a saint, and she could not say frankly that it didn't matter.
The air became unusually quiet, and even the wind became much weaker.
"Cen Nian, what do you want?" Jin Siyang, who had been silent for a long time, suddenly asked this question.
Cen Nian was a little confused. She looked at his calm profile, thought for a long time, and finally said, "I don't know. Maybe I just hope that everything I put in effort will be rewarded, or maybe I don't want to be a disposable, dispensable substitute."
Jin Siyang suddenly turned his head. His pale phoenix eyes matched the cool autumn night best. A crescent-shaped light flashed in his black pupils. "If you don't want to be abandoned or replaced, then become the strongest and become the one that cannot be shaken by others no matter what."
Cen Nian's eyelashes trembled slightly. Jin Siyang's tone was calm and cold, but she could hear a boyish tenderness. He spoke such a long string of words to her, and Cen Nian could hear that he was trying to comfort her.
"What about you? Is there something you want but can't get?" Cen Nian asked this question without any reason. She suddenly wanted to know if Jin Siyang, who was so unattainable and seemed to have everything under control, had anything that she couldn't get.
If it were any other time, Jin Siyang would have just told her it was boring and walked away. But tonight, he just looked at her deeply, then retracted his gaze and looked straight ahead, with the arrogance and pride of a young man that could not be hidden in his eyes.
"No, I only stick to those who firmly choose me." Jin Siyang suddenly pulled the corner of his lips: "Those who hesitate or are not determined to choose me are not within my consideration."
His tone was calm, but Cen Nian could hear an innate arrogance in it.
Jin Siyang stood up and glanced at her with his eyes lowered: "You cry so ugly."
Cen Nian looked up at him in disbelief, only to see Jin Siyang walk away in style: "If he leaves, Aunt Liu will be worried."
Yes, this is Jin Siyang. He is cold but gentle. He hates her and hates people crying, but he will also stay for a while out of courtesy when people are sad.
Cen Nian stood up and watched him leave. "I want to be as powerful as him. That way, no one will abandon me so easily."
When they returned to the Jin family, Aunt Liu and Uncle Li tacitly agreed not to mention the incident. They prepared a lot of delicious food and handed it all to Cen Nian.
"Nian Nian, eat this! Aunt Liu cooked it for a long time. It's so delicious!"
"Also, Uncle Li bought you a small cake today."
They were all her favorite foods. Cen Nian looked at Aunt Liu and Uncle Li with warm eyes. She had a lot of love, and there were many people standing beside her. Thinking of this, she seemed to have nothing to be dissatisfied with.
When she went to school the next day, her sad mood had eased a little. She took her textbooks and test papers and went to the classroom with full confidence.
The classmates in the classroom seemed to have been waiting for her for a long time. When they saw her, they either praised her dancing well or said indignantly that missing out on Cen Nian was a loss for the school team.
This is what young people are like. They will stand up for their own people and cheer them on.
Cen Nian threw himself back into his studies, secretly vowing to catch up on all the courses he had missed. Jin Qi came to see him for a while during the break, and when he looked into Cen Nian's eyes, he smiled and nodded.
Two days later, Cen Nian was still working hard on the math problems. After finishing the last step of the problem, she finally breathed a sigh of relief and could not hide the joy on her face.
Zhao Xiuzhi found her during the break. She looked apologetic and a bit embarrassed when she faced Cen Nian. "Cen Nian, it's like this. Our school team has signed up for the national cheerleading competition next month. You'll be competing next time."
Cen Nian remained silent, not as excited as she had been when she first joined the school team. Zhao Xiuzhi then said, "Teacher has received your application to withdraw from the team. Are you in a bad mood? But don't worry, you will definitely be able to go on stage this time. Teacher promises you."
After Zhao Xiuzhi finished speaking, she saw that Cen Nian seemed to be thinking seriously about her words, and a sense of hope and "I knew it" rose in her heart.
After half a minute, Cen Nian suddenly looked up at her with respect in her eyes. She shook her head and said, "Teacher Zhao, I'm not throwing a tantrum. I've thought about it carefully and I really am not suitable for the school team."
"Why?"
Cen Nian didn't explain why, but just smiled politely and said, "Maybe it's because I found something I want to do more."
Zhao Xiuzhi fell silent, a look of disbelief flashing in her eyes. "Cen Nian, are you sure? If the school team wins a prize, you'll also get a certificate. This time we're aiming for the top two, and the rewards are very generous."
Cen Nian nodded solemnly: "Thank you teacher for choosing me before, but this time, I want to study hard, and I also hope that our affiliated high school team will get better and better."
Zhao Xiuzhi had no choice but to leave. Cen Nian watched Zhao Xiuzhi's back as she left, and when she turned around, she caught a glimpse of Jin Siyang returning from the office.
Maybe what he said was right. She, Cen Nian, also wanted it and firmly chose her.
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