Chapter 77 Xiao Yuan's Past
Jiang Xinyu has always been open-minded and doesn't like internal conflicts. She couldn't guess what Xiao Yuan was thinking by just guessing, so she could only wait until she saw him again to ask.
Jiu Yue mentioned that she was also craving for halved pig's trotters, so she decided to eat them first. Otherwise, if Xiao Yuan saw her eating them during dinner, it would damage her beautiful image.
Although her image was completely shattered when she finished three tables of banquets in one breath, at least her eating manners were still elegant, although the quantity was large.
Gnawing pig's trotters is different. She dares to say that in the five thousand years of Chinese history, there has not been a single beauty who can gnawing pig's trotters beautifully.
I'd better tell the kitchen to stop serving dishes that require hands-on chewing, such as pickled pheasant feet and halved pig's trotters, when Xiao Yuan is around.
If it is served on the table, she will be in a dilemma as to whether to eat it or not. It will be too difficult for her as she is a foodie.
Jiang Xinyu, the heartless girl, was competing with Pig Trotters, completely unaware that her beloved husband was once again caught in a vortex of self-pity.
At this time, Xiao Yuan was hiding in his room like a depressed poisonous mushroom, with two little men, one black and one white, in his mind about to fight.
His wife once said that she didn't care that he was a eunuch, but he wanted to believe it but didn't dare to.
He believed that his lady liked him.
Even if she was playing tricks on him, she still liked him. He could feel that when his wife was kissing him, there was a gleam of light in her eyes without any effort.
But the lady probably doesn't know what kind of person he is in and why she likes him.
No matter how smart and cunning she was, she was only seventeen years old. How could a little girl who had been raised in a secluded place know what a concubine was?
Once she finds out, even if he still has a useful wife, she will want to escape from him.
Eunuchs were looked down upon not only because they were slaves, but also because they had high-pitched voices and no beards.
It’s because of imperfections, imperfections that cannot be ignored at all.
People don't just call them stinky eunuchs casually; it's the truth, because many eunuchs are indeed stinky.
Being castrated not only cut off their dignity but also severely damaged their bodies.
He is considered lucky as he would leak a few drops of urine only when he is particularly excited or holds his urine for a long time.
If you are unlucky and the cut is too deep, you will become incontinent if you are not careful, and your body will be filled with the smell of urine all year round.
Such eunuchs are basically useless. They can only do the lowest and dirtiest jobs and can never expect to get promoted by serving their masters.
The limited monthly interest could not even afford to buy extra pants, so he could only buy some rough diapers to maintain his last bit of dignity.
Xiao Yuan hadn't thought about his past for a long time, but today he couldn't help but think about it again.
He could no longer remember how he entered the palace. He only remembered a cursing voice and a dim room.
He stayed there for a few days. No one beat or scolded him, and he even had the rare opportunity to eat white flour steamed buns.
As a child who seldom had enough to eat, he thought he was finally living a good life.
Unexpectedly, a few days later he was tied to a stool, fed a bowl of bitter medicine, and experienced pain that he would never forget.
When he regained consciousness, he was lying on a big kang with a dozen children. The airtight room was filled with a foul smell.
Each of them had a crossbar tied between their ankles to prevent them from closing their legs, and a strip of cloth was tied around their mouths to prevent them from biting their tongues.
The excruciating pain that penetrated deep into his bones tormented him day and night, and he could only enjoy a moment of peace when he passed out from the pain while the medicine was applied.
His voice was hoarse from crying, his tears had dried up, and at that time he wanted to die all the time.
If you die, you won’t feel so much pain.
But he did not die. The children lying beside him were dragged away one after another, but he survived.
It had been more than ten days since he left the silkworm room, but at that time it felt like a very long time had passed.
The manager said that they were blessed, but no one knew how long their blessing would last.
He was the youngest among their group of young eunuchs, and because he was fair and well-behaved, the master was gentle with the knife.
His sequelae were not serious, but he was bullied by others because of it.
In the world of Crow, white is the original sin. When everyone wets their pants, he, who is clean, seems out of place.
His food would be taken away, his clothes would be stolen, and his quilt was often damp and dirty.
Because of his young age and chronic undereating, he was thinner than the other young eunuchs, but so what?
When his fists are not strong enough, he can use stones. When his nails are not sharp enough, he can use his teeth to bite.
Even if he was beaten badly, as long as he had a breath left to get up, he would take revenge.
When he was young, he was like a lone wolf, using his not-so-strong body to carve out a way to survive.
He was not sweet-spoken and his personality was not likable, and even because his eyes were too sinister, no maid in the palace would choose him when selecting candidates.
It was not until two years later that he met his benefactor, his adoptive father.
At that time, he had just killed an old eunuch who tried to molest him with a chopstick, and on the way to the Shenxing Division, he met Xiao An, the former deputy general manager of the Yu.
With a few simple questions and a look that said "I like you", he became one of Xiao An's godsons.
His life has changed dramatically.
Eat well, dress warmly, have your own name, and be able to go to the inner school to study literature and martial arts.
No one called him a wolf cub or a bitch anymore, as if all the bullying and malice had disappeared from him in an instant.
But his stepfather told him that they were banished people and their evil intentions would never disappear.
It's just because everyone within this palace wall is the same person and your status is higher than theirs, so those malicious intentions dare not come toward you.
When you leave the inner school and go out to work in the future, you will find that the malice toward you from outside is greater and more terrifying than that from inside the palace.
Don't have any illusions about any healthy person. From the day you become a banished person, you are no longer a human being in their eyes.
Thinking of this, Xiao Yuan smiled bitterly at himself. He was too young at that time and didn't understand what a eunuch was.
Maybe his young wife had the same idea as I did at that time, thinking that it was just a difference in title and body.
At the age of only a teenager, he knew that he was missing something, and although he felt a little inferior, he did not take it too seriously.
His writing is very good and he always gets first place in martial arts exams.
The teachers in the inner school praised my adoptive father and were very satisfied with him, and everyone in the inner school also complimented him.
But it was not until he left the palace and the environment full of eunuchs that he realized that the world outside was different.
The person he rescued while investigating a case was thanking him profusely the moment before, but immediately showed contempt for him when he found out that he was a criminal.
When he was hiding his identity, he made some good friends who shared the same temperament with him. But when they found out that he was a prostitute, those good friends who said that his identity would not affect their friendship started to call him an unlucky guy.
From working as an errand boy at the age of fifteen to becoming a small leader at the age of eighteen, every one of his expectations was dashed.
Looking at those people like Xiao Yuan who were cheated out of all their money or even lost their lives by palace maids in the name of concubinage, he finally gave up.
But he never imagined that he, who was already 28 years old and had been in charge of the Dongchang for many years, would make such a stupid mistake again.
The sky gradually darkened. Xiao Yuan sat quietly without turning on the lights. He seemed to have merged into the shadows.
Xiao Yuan couldn't help muttering to himself as he fumbled with the jade pendant his adoptive father had given him.
"Godfather, should I gamble again?
No one has hugged me since you left. Her embrace is so comfortable. She said she likes me.
There was no fear or disgust in her eyes when she looked at me.
Son, please gamble again, just this once.
If I lose again, I will... accept my fate!"
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